thankyouforthecross

2007-11-07T18:10:00.000+08:00

moved.
http://xanga.com/thesuperjanny
moved to xanga under err. peer pressure.
haha too much pressure from jess.
please update!thanks: D

2007-11-01T20:21:00.000+08:00

jessica lim si ying, who says i don't update my blog!

i need a new skin. this is getting old, old, old. the old must go, the new has come.
theres some saying of that sort.. haha
but the new isn't necessarily always better, is it?
in fact, many a times, i prefer the old.
they're more sincere, more real, more suitable. i don't know. perhaps these are generalisations.
just like how i love older Christian songs, they're more simplistic, yet they are so forthright and so true. they don't run around in circles, they just declare how you feel.
the old days.
when ECP didn't exist(and wasnt $5!). when chicken was still cheap. when flour was still cheap. when noodles were still cheap. when gst was 3%. who says new is always better? hahahaha.

the older times, when everyone wore long skirts. when plastic surgery didn't exist. when genetic engineering didnt exist, when gm food were stranger to supermarkets, when things were what they were made to be. and not changed to be what they are now.

ohwell.

technology was meant to enhance and improve our lives. i mean, sure. it's done some good. but it carries plenty of social and ethical implications with it. so the bad cancels out the good and makes it a negative. is wanting to have a better life by developing technology being discontented with what we have, or simply wanting a better life?
then in that case, are our lives good enough?

i've been reading a book about socrates' teachings. its brought up a whole lot of interesting ideas i've never considered.
and anyway, the author even goes as far out to suggest that socrates didn't exist. socrates himself never did write down a single word. what we know of him is merely how his pupil(supposing socrates did exist and taught him), plato, described him to be in his writings.
both were amazing people.
but then of course the author of that book also points out that it doesnt really matter whether he existed or not. because we all are, or i'd say have the potential to be, socrates. we are all budding socrates.
a socrates is a person who isn't afraid to ask questions and continues to do so even when others disapprove.
wonder if i'm like that. haha.

okay anyway. my holidays have been. not really holiday-ish so far. have a feeling this is going to be one tiring holiday. not fit to be called holiday.
on a side note, i love the song 'holiday' by green day.

monday- went to sch to tutor math. realised that quite a lot of people failed math. anyway, i took grace :D haha i was quite surprised to see her there, didn't know she'd be there. then we went to kap and met laura and jia there, had lunch. haven't eaten there in a long time.

on a side note (again), i prefer macs to kfc. this is open to debate, anyone is welcome to state which you prefer and why on my tagboard. if you're that free. haha.
(i prefer macdonald's fries. they're saltier and crispier. and nicer. well)

and anyway we ate and ate then went back to sch and prepared a dance for the christmas musical.
shall not say anything about the musical yet. i will when we actually decide we want to perform for it. but we probably will. haha. the dance is pretty cool. we choreographed it :D

okay so that was monday. then came home and slacked my night away. haha

THERE'S AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL TONIGHT.
sorry that was so random. go watch!

okay then tuesday had theory. THEORY EXAM THIS SAT. DIE! i'm like nowhere ready. i'm not even halfway through the purple book. (The book you have to study to get general music knowledge to ensure that you get the 'likely composer, period and three reasons why' of the piece question correct)

tuesday was my last theory lesson, IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE. WHOO!
tuesday was the last lesson i had with ms tan :( i love her. man, i'm going to miss her. she's the best piano teacher i ever had. fun, pretty, well-read, charismatic, talented, in-touch, not obiang, cool. she's pretty cool! ahhhhhhh. so sad! i'll see my new teacher next tuesday. he lives at dunearn rd. opp coronation. facing the main road. semi-d. bet its one of those huge pretty houses. cool. haha.

went to sch again yesterday. taught grace more math. blahblahblah. then had t-one prac with davchoo and keef in the afternoon. haha it was fun. jamming with them is fun. :D

then rushed home for dinner and bath and then rushed to g1 for soundboard training. a few days ago when i asked hann what time he said 'same time :)' i assumed that meant 7. so i was running late. so i msged him and said i would be there at 7.20. and i reached there on the dot : D

ANYWAY, when i got there i found out that 'same time' meant 7.30 and he didn't even bother to reply and tell me that i was early. and on top of that he had to make me go through soundboard training. and i think its obvious to everyone, even the ducks that i an incapable of anything technical-related. haha. i can only do written/theory tests. hahahah.
and it was just me and evan. I MEAN, of all the people in our team. why us? two girls? two girls who know nuts about sound engineering? AHHH. anyway, i learnt smth. joel gave us notes and we had a 15 min crash course. then went to the board and tried to process everything.still a little lost. haha. but somewhere there la. feel quite lost around sound engineering. ah well. we learn smth new everyday.. haha.

today. math again. haha. then i read the purple theory book the whole afternoon after a nap. then guit class. THE HOT CJ GUY CAME AGAIN. hahahahahahaha. but i dont think he's that hot anymore. what did he do to his hair lah! not nice anymore. and he wore jeans. which totally does not go with his brown and white striped shirt. FASHION CRISIS! his shirt goes much better with white berms (: hahahaha.

anyway, enough of that.
I'M LATE FOR MY NINE O CLOCK SHOW.

class party comm meeting at jess' house tmr :DDDDDDDDD

2007-10-30T15:33:00.000+08:00

I, Janice Soon, take back what I said on my blog about Kenneth Yeo being mean.

2007-10-30T14:49:00.000+08:00

i think i'm screwed. seriously.

updates on my ohsoexciting life.

2007-10-28T18:08:00.000+08:00

hellohellohellohellohellohello.
aiya, blogging is so tiresome. blah.
okay wed was fine dining/personal grooming workshop. i don't want to talk about it. i've told most people about it already anyway. but if you don't know and are interested, ask me. i'd be glad to tell you. just don't want to type everything down here.

mm friday was ms kon's farewell. so sad!
she's like. the most amazing principal i've ever known. okay i've only known three in my life before. but really, she is the utter embodiment of protocol and decorum and she carries herself with such grace and dignity and she's really a woman of God who practices godliness, excellence and love. and she speaks well too(: she is one amazing woman. really. its been a great two years with her. and she's served the school so well the last thirty years.
so anyway, we sang the full school song for her farewell. most people sang (normally only 2/5 the sch sings). i'm so proud of ms kon. and during assembly we were only supposed to sing the first verse as usual but the PA people played the full song version so halfway through the second verse they cut of the song. but most of us still continued singing anyway. i was so happy to hear everyone sing.
and jess was like. looking at me every two minutes waiting for me to cry -.- cause on thursday we watched this hongkong show which was soooo sad. even though there were many horny moments but the storyline is very sad. but the directing is super lousy. and every two minutes she would go 'this show is so spastic' and i would be down there crying. haha.
yeah so anyway we watched this video too on friday during the crime prevention talk and it was about this girl who went to jail and then while she's in jail eating her bread for breakfast there was a flashback on how her mother would buy her beehoon from the market every morning and she would complain about how she had to eat the same food everyday. and i started crying at that part too. i mean. its soo sad.
and then jess went' janice! why are you crying!' and made everyone turn around and stare at me =x
ahh. haha okay nvm.

played this weekend. amanda led us this week though. same team, diff WL.
we did shout of the king. i love love love love love that song! its so. cool. groovy. its like. okay i don't know how to describe it. haha.
anyway, it was fun playing this weekend. i learnt alot on my own playing this week actually.

and we had camy dg today.
went downstairs for chicken rice lunch. then we set off to clean lvl three hall and chapel. we were divded into two groups and the bigger group (2/3) cleaned the chapel cause it was bigger. i was at lvl three hall. so we swept, mopped, cleaned all the chairs, glass windows they keyboards, the stands, the pulpit, and samantha even cleaned the toilet. it was a good experience(: haha. joel was trying to teach us the concept of 'leading by serving'. pretty good way to bring the msg across i'd say. haha(:
then.
the camy exco washed our feet. wow. haha. felt a little embarrassed (did i spell that correctly?) having hann wash my feet =x haha. then after that he prayed for me. cool. haha.
yeah then went home.

going back to sch next week on mon wed and thurs to teach mainstream girls math. haha. think i'll learn smth from that.

(:

2007-10-20T12:43:00.000+08:00

1. The person who tagged you is: Grace cheah!
2. Your relationship with him/her: classmates
3. Your 5 impressions with him/her: funny.laughs alot. dances alot. some super person who goes for ballet dont know how many times a week and still finds time for church and piano and sch and all. poo, wish i could do ballet again too.
4. The most memorable thing that he/she had done for you: errrrrr. xD she did the vietnam dance. grease lightning. super funky:D
5. The most memorable words that he/she had said to you: uhhhhhhhhh. i don't know? haha
6. If he/she will become your lover, you will: i'm straight. :D
7. If he/she become your lover, things he/she will have to improve on will be: i'm still straight.
8. If he/she become your enemy, you will: uhm. the bible says love your enemies? (: hahahha
9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason being will be: don't know.
10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is: haha i don't know. i 'll sing you a song grace, then the lenses of your specs will crack cause of my horrible singing =x
11. Your overall impression of him/her is: funny, nice, tall. well taller than me.
12. How do you think people around you feel about you: uhm. they probably think i talk to much. haha. but most accept me for who i am, including the talking(:
13. The character you love of yourself is: i'm nice. really really nice. (I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS KENNETH YEO. YEAH, I'M NICE. FACE IT!)
14. On the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is: i tend to say the wrong things sometimes.
15. The most ideal person you want to be: hmm. me. just me. (:
16. Pass this quiz to 10 people:Optional (and in no particular order)!
1. tiffanie chia
2. deb
3. davidchoo
4. KENNETH YEO- THE GUY WHO KNOWS I'M NICE.
5. amanda yuen
6. gladys
7. anna!
8. grace chua
9. CHERRY FONGFONGFONGFONGFONG
10. my imaginary friend:D LOL.
17. Who is 6 [gladys] having relationship with? hahahaha. God.
18. Is no.9 [cherry]a male or a female? haha female, with raging hormones=x
19. If no.7 [anna] and 10 [imaginary friend] are together, will it be a good thing? nooooooooo:(
20. How about no.8 [grace] and 5 [amanda]? hahahaha. amanda doesn't want to get married i'm afraid.
21. What is no.2 [deb] studying about? hmmmm, guys?
22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3 [davchoo]? uhh.last night/this morning. i msged him last night, he replied after i fell asleep, i replied at three thirty -.-
23. What kind of music band does no.8 [grace] likes? don't know. rock?
24. Does no.1 [tiff] have any siblings?yep.2 sisters and one brother
25. Will you woo no.3 [davchoo]? hahahahhahahahahahahaha. no.
26. Is no.4 [kenneth] single? uhhuh.
27. What's the surname of no.5 [amandayuen]?YUEN
28. What's the hobby of no.4 [kenneth]? being mean to me! hahaha. soccer i think.
29. Do no.5 [manda] and no.9 [cherry] get along well? i suppose so
30. Where is no.2 [deb] studying at? MG- THE BEST SCH EVER.
31. Say something about no.1 [tiff]? my darling clone(: she's uh. shorter than me? hahahaha.
32. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8 [grace]? I'M STRAIGHT!
33. Where does no.9 [cherry] live at? bukit batok. the busstop after bb central. the executive flat behind those in front of the bus stop. i think they're purple. haha.
34. What colour(s) do(es) no.4 [kenneth] like(s)? uhhhh. brown? blue? yellow?
35. Are no. 5 [manda] and 1 [tiff] best friends? nope. they don't know each other
36. Does no.7 [anna] like no.2 [deb]?their relationship is perfectly platonic, i'm sure.haha.
37. How did you get to know no.2 [deb]? i don't know. i started talking to her at sec one orientation camp? well i went to talk to everyone in 1t then. haha.
38. Does no.1 [tiff] have any pets? yeah. terrapins in the toilet =x
39. Is no.7 [anna] the sexiest person in the world? haha yes!

DONE.
that was long.
was going through this old book of old christian songs last night. i love all the old songs. i love old songs! i wish we still sang them. i mean they are all so super nice.
like 'i've got a home in gloryland (that outshines the sun) and walking in the light (walking with Jesus walking everyday, walking all the way) and 'His love is warmer' and soooo many more. all so beautiful. and forgotten unfortunately. even. 'give me oil in my lamp' 'the sweetest name of all'
soooo beautiful. wish we sang them before. these songs are so pure, so true so direct. they just openly declare God's love and all. contemporary christian songs are great too, don't get me wrong but i just wish sometimes we'd stick to what was old. old doesn't always have to be replaced by new. sigh.

His love is warmer than the warmest sunshine
softer than a sigh
His love is deeper than the deepest ocean
higher than the skies
His love is brighter than the brightest stars that shine everynight above
and there is nothing in this world that can ever change His love.

love that song.
okay a few things i want to share.
1. my results are horrible. beyond horrible actually. i'm so dissapointed in myself. and history. and my results. GRAH.
2. i was eating dinner the other day and talking to God, just kinda having a conversation and it suddenly struck me i was talking to a King and its so wonderful we can talk to Him like that and even sit and eat in the presence of a King. and not just any other king for that matter. truly, God as torn the veil seperating us from the Holy of Holies when Christ died. how wonderful it is(:
3.my week.
from sunday.
went to artfriend and got stuff with jessie. for christmas. hahaha. yes we already planned everything when we went out last week.
then had dinner with tiff and kenneth. and conclusion : i'm nice and kenneth is mean.no kidding(:
monday. went to east coast park class outing. pretty fun. i got a tan in the front. not at the back though. cause i was sharing a tandon bike with amanda and she sat behind and blocked out all the sun(my reasoning)
then went to amanda's house. all six of us :D watched half of freaky friday, went swimming. played games, dunked each other. played monkey for quite awhile. it was really fun(:
tuesday wed thurs: get back results. lets not talk about it.
friday. inter class soccer. some classes didn't really play fair. but ohwell. we know two tee played with honour and integrity and we played well and would have won if not for. oh nevermind.
then we watched the mayoh challenge shield debate. and when the floor was open while the judges were deciding the results i somehow got the nerve to stand up and say my piece. haha.
see right, the motion statement was : men are the weakest link in singapore's defence.
the proposition's third speaker, a sec one sbc girl, and quite an embarressment if you ask me, was a very weak speaker and presented a case brimming with fallacies.
she said. women are amiable. just take a look around you (in mg) if you don't believe me.
that is total rubbish. i mean personally while i agree that some are, many arent. besides. many guys are amiable too.
that statement on women being amiable is firstly a personal opinion. secondly, it is A GENERALISATION, OVERGENERALISATION, AND ASSUMPTION. built on what? baseless and a mindless mind. no empirical evidence. the example of mgs girls is not evidence. first of all, who says all mg girls are amiable? thats an opinion. secondly, you can't say that because there are no guys in mg so how do you know guys are not more amiable than girls.
then she gave some stupid answer which i can't rmb. then i stood up again and said.
'in what way does this play a part in singapore's defence?'
and anyway, women playing a part in singapores defence DOES NOT SHOW THAT MEN ARE THE WEAKEST LINK. argh. rubbish. fallacious.
anyway i'm glad i stood up. many thanks to all the two tee girls sitting front back left and right of me who encouraged me to stand up and say it. i mean i don't have that much guts cos its in front of the whole sch. and i'm an sbc girl, which means i have to be very careful about what i say in front of the sch. but anyway in the end i couldnt take it so i said it. and as my classmates say, its a once in a lifetime experience(:

over.

2007-10-11T13:53:00.000+08:00

over.
over.
it's over.

OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ITS OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER

you have no idea how free i feel. in fact, i feel almost too free.

ended with hcl listening compre (which i think(i hope) i managed to get a perfect score on(sorry it sounds so ego=x). it was pretty easy. and then hcl paper two.
i'm certain. we all are, that laoshi didnt want us to fail so she gave us this compreclose that is way below her standard. haha probably because we fail all her tests.
then
OH MAN I DIDN'T FINISH THE STUPID PAPER.
last qn was THIRTEEN MARKS. THIRTEENMARKS!
but i was left with a bit of the last qn.
probably got three marks gone. if not two. depends on her marking scheme.
SO PISSED. PISSED.
ahhhh.

okay anyway yay. exams ended. i feel so free. no more late night studying, cramming during breaks, mugging, mugging and mugging.

so we, like eleven of us went to marina square jacks place and then ate ate ate. super filling. and super nice. then seven of us watched balls of fury.
ITS THE MOST FUNNY+ LAME SHOW I HAVE EVER SEEN.
seriously, its stupid. but super super super super super funny.haha.

then walked around alot alot alot with cherry. we took so long to get to certain shops we wanted to go to cos we kept stopping along the way. getting home was hard to cos we would go 'ooohh i wanna go in there' and then take super long so we ended up in the mrt at almost seven crammed with all the working people. and it was CITY HALL MRT. ohdear. anyway. we went to diva and bought ourselves stuff. hahaha. and we bought bea's and sam's christmas present too.
oh and i met sam on the bus on the way to marina. and just listened to him 'insult' me the whole way till he got off.so much for meeting him.

anyway, i love diva. diva rocks. and sasa tooo! and we took super long to go to dorothy perkins. at least half an hr. cos we kept walking into shops, and we couldnt really find it anyway. ohoh and we passed by han's and i saw that the apple crumble pie was only TWO DOLLARS. TWO DOLLARS! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT. yeah so we sat down and had one slice each. i mean, at keppel (country club) its 6.80 -.- haha. at anderson's its 5.20 i think.
anyway, i need to get over my cake craze. but i don't want to. I LOVE CAKE. CAKES ARE THE BEST EVER.
anyway, one of the greatest joy's in life, is eating. no doubt about that.
haha.

oh i had lots cake last friday. cos cher told me on the way home that cafe cartel sold cakes at half price after nine o clock EVERY DAY. and when i got home i realised that there was a cafecartel at the new extended part of IMM so i made my parents drive me there(and pay for the cake) and i got jamica banna rum (which is delicious. just melts in your mouth) and oreo cheesecake (i finished most of that myself) actually i finished like 4/5 of the cake we bought. LOL. well it was my idea and i was the one interested in cake. and tiramisu (ate the whole thing myself)
ALL THE FATS.
hahahahahahahah.

okay i have two announcements(:
1. I HAVE DECIDED NOT TO CUT MY HAIR.
partly cos of the comments that everyone so nicely and generously gave on my tagboard(thanks guys, now i know people actually read my blog.haha.) and also because i spent time thinking during assembly. about my hair. yes about my hair. haha.
anyway i decided it would be a waste to cut it after growing it long since may. and oh well. i'll just go layer my hair during the hols. thats all. and the next time i get a major haircut change will be after april 2008. well thats a long time. haha.

okay two.
our dearly beloved principal of mgs of 14 years, ms kon mei leen, is retiring. it's official.
AHHH.
i can't believe it.
she's been with mg for 30 years. taught hear before she became principal. she is an incredible representative of mg! she's the utter embodiment of protocol and decorum. i can't imagine what mg would be like if not for her. and really, she's one amazing woman. and she speaks well too. very very well.
the new principal will be the current principal of bukitpanjang govt high, mrs shirleen ong. she used to teach in mg in the early 1990s. she'd better speak well. anyone in mg would know that the girls cant take a principal who can't speak well. we have a living vp example.
ohwell, enough of that.

i cancelled plans to go out today because my mum told me i was too vain and i shldnt be doing my eyebrows, and i had also planned on getting a haircut today. but since im not, so i decided not to do my eyebrows today. so i'm staying at home, and am superly bored.

2007-10-06T17:29:00.000+08:00

WHOOOHOOOO.
HELLO EVERYONE.
haven't blogged in a SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER long time. i think i'm a little high right now. i wonder why. i think this is going to be a long blog post. so be prepared to read it(: haha.

okay first things first. papers so far have been. alright lah. i'm watching fu man ren jian now. wok of life. this super old channel eight show. like five to ten years ago. haha. its really nice. first week im watching it on sat though. bea reccomended it to me.haha. and we've been discussing the nine o clock chinese show every day. its so nice! hahaha. a must-watch.

my eyes have been opened today(: spread out this big world map on the floor cos i was looking for smth. and i realised that the world is huge. really really big. there are so many million countries i've never even heard of before. and that hawaii and company arent the only islands in the middle of the pacific. there are SOOOO many islands there. like groups and scatters of islands that form countries like federation of micronesia, or kiributri. or smth like that. haha. very very very interesting. and so many other ountries in south america i've never heard of. and i just realised that russia is HUGE. i mean i always knew it was big but now i realise how amazingly huge it is. and there's like kazakhstan which is so big too. never realised it was THAT big. and now china suddenly looks puny. and i can't wait to get to iceland. i want to travel! but not to countries like uk and italy and paris and those countries everyone dreams of. i mean i do want to go there. but i want to see places. like angola. like iceland. i seriously want to go to iceland. i imagine it to be a beautiful and wonderful place. i mean, its isolated. their blood's very pure you know? hardly mixed with other countries'. and then it occurs to me that there are so many types of people, so many cultures i have yet to see. i wonder what they all live like. and greenland is just the english version of this word. like some weird language. i dont even know what the speak. i suddenly feel so insular. and then there are SOOO many other types of dance yet to be danced. i really really want to explore these cultures. they're so. i dont know they draw me(:
God must be a wonderful God. to create things like that. the world is so diverse. now i feel like i live under a rock. haha.

and God is as gracious God. last sunday i was crying and sad-ing and thank God for someone to talk to me and give me confidence again and i just thank God for friends. friends who love me, friends whom i love, friends who care, friends who know me, friends who think they know me, friends who are true, friends who are 'friends', friends forgotten, friends drifted. or even friends turned strangers. i thank God for friends. i thank God for people. people are the most complicated yet awesome creatures.

think about your sight. don't you think being able to see is awesome? probably not. not many realise how wonderfully and fearfully we were made. don't you think it amazing, that we are able see. somehow. with just two small thingies in our face and somehow we can capture images and somehow we are able to see. i don't know how to explain it. but sight is just so amazing. i'm dumbfounded. hearing, touch, smell, taste. it's simply amazing. don't you think God is amazing?

oh right back to my last weekend's sad stuff. so over the next few days several 'messages' came to me.
'God has a plan for me. everything that happens is part of His plan'
'His grace is sufficient'
'He that is in me is greater than He that is in the world'
'He holds my future.'

and really, God is in control. why worry?(:

one last thing.
i would like to uhh. open this up for debate. haha.
'SHOULD I CUT MY HAIR?'
short. i mean short. like above shoulder. like uhhh. amanda ong from church. smth like that. but a little different.should i should i? please comment! i want i want! haha but i'm not sure if i should. like i like my long hair. and yesterday i was like asking half the class. alot of people said my hair's nice the way it is:D haha. some people say cut. if you want tocut, cut. i want to, but i'm afraid i'll regret it. and i like my hair like this. but i also wouldnt mind changing my hairstyle.
PLEASE COMMENT:D

escape

2007-09-23T20:54:00.002+08:00

i would love to escape right now.

bliss

2007-09-23T00:11:00.000+08:00

tonight was the last night we performed bliss.
kindof nostalgic. this is the sixth time we have performed the dance in public. i've been in this dance for ten months.
we've performed it at syf, ulu pandan, dance fantasia, BUTS and twice for nus the next wave. guest performance.
it was amazing. tonight was one of our best for this item yet.
i really really miss the dance now.
its really an amazing dance. received so much praise. even from zaini himself!
the choreography is incredible, so detailed, so layered, so blissful.
it's been ten months of alot of sweat. alot of breathlessness, plenty of breathing during the dance.
ive grown rather attached to the dance.
and tonight, we've finally (quote zaki) 'buried it six feet under'
sigh.

ohwell. zaki became super nice today and bought us bouquets of lollipops from candy empire. there're like nine lollipops in my bunch. he must have spent a bomb. but ohwell. he's a diva. he's probably pretty rich.

the concert was amazing. the nus dancers have great technique. they all dance so well! all of them. and they're all super nice to us. i love them! i want to be like them next time.haha.

bliss has ended.
ended.
ended.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

2007-09-18T21:58:00.000+08:00

okay my blog is seriously dead.
okay i have one piece of good news and one piece of bad news.
actually two pieces of good news.
both concerning only myself. HAHA.
okay first. i am pretty pleased with my revision. more or less done.
eoys begin on oct 2. at least they had the heart to not start us on children's day.haha.
left with the bulk of bio to study for. ahhh. so much memory work.
digestion and the human reproductive system.
trust me, the human reproductive system is so much more easier to study. i mean. thats because we all already know most of it.
actually we learnt half of digestion in pri sch. hmm.
mr tay gave us this pic of davinci's statue of david yesterday. we were supposed to label everything we learnt on him. like all the digestion stuff and organs part of his reproductive system.

okay second thing.
i learnt today that.
I GOT MERIT FOR MY GRADE EIGHT PIANO EXAM : DDDDDDD
super super happy. thank God.
i seriously thought i would fail.
seriously.
as in i played about three times worse than practice. which is well. actually practice standard is pretty decent and would have gotten me a merit in my opinion. but playing three times worse? and still getting merit? now that's amazing.
and the more amazing part is. guess who my examiner was.
okay i think no one else even knows who he is but he's dennis lee. this really famous malaysian world-reknown pianist. he is super super super pro. performed at esplanade quite a few times before i think. yeah and i got a live performance by him during my exam. for free! hahahaha. actually no it was 308 dollars for the exam and it was just like 5 mins long cos it was my aural piece.
okay anyway. he gave me super encouraging comments. first time i've received smth so encouraging from an EXAMINER.
under additional comments, at the end of everything, he wrote : can see your interest (in music). just need to work on details generally. you can.
smth like that. cant really rmb what he wrote. but it was the 'you can' part. about being able to sort out the details and playing nicely after which.
ahhh

okay bad news. i broke my cup. my beloved precious cup from my bro. boo :(
amanda (yuen) msged me and i had left my cup on the table right behind me. when i turned to get my phone, my elbow hit the cup. the handle broke. the cup is still intact. haha.but still so saddening. not really fit for use now. i really really loved that cup. the designs on it were sooooo nice. soo well. me. i loved it.
oh well.
i want to get one exact same one.

exams are drawing near! everyone is getting stressed out.
i'm keeping everyone in prayer!(:

just feel like writing this down now. maybe it will have some meaning to someone who reads this. i hope it does.

'the fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge'
proverbs 1 : 9

weird

2007-09-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

okay i am turning weird. i feel weird again.
okay nvm.
had dinner with hann, mel liz and davidgoh last night at tiong plaza. we had thai express. my first time there. hahaha. we had like tomyum soup. like one small bowl. three pieces of fish and four pieces of mushroom and two small pieces of red chilli. guess how much. 8.20. ridiculous. and it was so spicy, but the soup was oddly clear and not red. ohwell.
we went to tiff's house on sunday to do ss project(: she ordered kfc for lunch. ohman, so fattening.haha. but really nice. hadnt had chicken in a long long time. we had to put in alot of effort into doing. its some sort of a collage? its about poverty. but the end product's effect was brillant. its really striking. proud of the job we did. and on wed right. amanda and i had a craving for kfc. so after sch she came to jurong : DDDDDD i didnt want to go to bukit timah plaza. haha. so i had cheezy meltz. second time. not as good as the first though. and i was so full. when i went home to eat lunch, i was super super full and i had lunch my mum cooked. soooo full.
okayokay i have to watch america's next top model now. blog another time.
bye!

sept hols:D

2007-09-07T09:41:00.000+08:00

whoa.
hols have been pretty good.
but i don't know why, i feel all funny inside. its like. a feeling of unrest. not like. worry but just funny. i feel funnny.
smth is holding me back.
seriously, i don't know how to describe it.
okay mm. last few days have been full.
i'm on johanns team! (for camy) (:
super happy. so we went for dinner at redhill before rehearsal, then had dinner. i had like. damai cos i wasnt hungry. then walked to church. then had rehearsal. and we had to do this intro thing and we were all forced to say we were very happy to be in his team(: hahahahahaha.
then went through the songs. aiyo so tiring one. but it was good. it felt good when we moved on to the next song each time. we ended pretty late though. 1015. okay so i was super tired. so i bathed and went to sleep.
okay then on thursday. that was a super super long day.
piano at 10 in the morning. okay actually its not piano. its theory. i dont have piano lessons anymore cos i already took the exam. looking for a good dip teacher now. anyone know of one?
do let me know.
okay so theory. i did quite a bit. compared to previous months. haha. okay then after that took a bus to bb mrt, took mrt to esplanade. went to library. met jessie davchoo and keith there. study study study. tried to study. then toh and lester appeared. then cont study. then i was trying to prepare my hcl oral. and seriously, i needed a chinese dictionary. all my ideas were in english. so i walked around the library looking for one. hahahaha. there wasnt one.
okay so i asked lester. then he was like. what? then toh lent me his phone's dictionary.
okay so i settled 'ethical implications' in chinese. hahahaha.
then blahblah. thenamanda and deb appeared. then went down to eat lunch with amanda. well she didnt eat. she convinced me to eat at mrs fields. i had two muffins. the muffins are pretty bad if you ask me.haha. sorry i just have high standards of muffins. i like blueberry(:

OH AND I BAKED STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE ON TUESDAY: D its niceeeeee(:

okay sorry go on. and then went to marina square to find a bday present for michelle wee. then i walked around for half an hour, met with some terrible people and got super freaked out, and walked on. killed my feet. and walked one entire round to get to esplanade busstop again-.- i walked all the way to suntec and back. because i cldnt find the bus stop with buses that go to bukit timah. so anyway i got to her house an hour late. at 5. when everyone else came. she asked me tocome an hour earlier. ohwell. then her dad drove me all the way into her house. so far in. i walked all the way out once before. sooooo far. haha. and then hung around the pool. talk talk talk. met her church friend and sec one aunt. haha. and then her mum and her told me to come back after my guit class. then she drove me out. then went for guit class. then i didnt go back cos i went home to study.
okay i think i should say this. theres this cjc guy in my guit class. (he normally wears uni so i know he's in cjc. i did NOT stalk him) hahahaa. and he lives in ivory heights too! okay point is. he wore this really really nice shirt yesterday. hahahahahaha.
okay then went home. memorised emily. then uh. watched america's next top model eight(:
i really really really don't wnat to get hooked on the show but i love it so much. last night was the first episode anyway. then aiya. i workedso hard to not watch the seven oclock and nine o clock show so i wont get hooked so i can concentrate on studying everynight. how can i give in to watching this show? ahhhhhhh.
okay then aiya. i hate blogging about things that happen. its like. so low level. no thinking involved. and besides this, why write one who load of stuff for people to read about WHAT I DO? i am such a letdown.

okay anyway. i havent blogged about egig. it was AWESOME! super super super super super good. i brought emelia(:
super super super super super good.

okay i shall blog about my feelings. its better to do that.
i still feel funny. i feel on what hand accomplished for finishing my hol hw so quickly. but i feel. like there's so much more work to do. its like. stress. i dont know. i mean i've been studying quite a good lot this week. pratically spent all my time (besides during like piano lessons and camy reh and all) studying and hwking. but i still feel like there's so much more to do. and im really really scared of the exams this time. do you know that i have FORGOTTEN how to study? i mean, how can you forget how to study. its like, forgetting how to walk. bah. but seriously. im not sure whether what i've drummed into me so far is staying in my brain. im afraid i'll just lose all the info and freak out when i realise i have to restudy everything. oh dear:( this is so worrying.
okayokay theres this really nice verse amanda (tan) gave me last year. i love it. and i wrote it for tiffanie for her birthday.
ohoh btw, its tiff's birthday today!

'no man shall ever be able to stand before you. for as I was with Moses, so I will be with you. I will never leave you nor forsake you'
Joshua 1:5
i think that's how the verse goes. can't rmb the exact words. and this is nkjv version anyway.
my beautiful bible is nkjv. which is kindof weird la. because i prefer niv. but i don't want to change my bible! i love it.
okay anyway,
i hope everyone has had a good holiday.
and got plenty of rest.

the truth

2007-09-02T19:55:00.000+08:00

i can't live with the horrible annoying frightening disgusting stinky truth.

camy, syf dinner, and my usual mindless thinking

2007-09-01T09:33:00.000+08:00

don't you just love oxymorons? see the title 'mindless thinking' what a splendid oxymoron!
i like them. honest lies. made that up myself. haha. and shakesphere - ' oh brawling love, oh loving hate!'
few lessons ago, mrs ng asked if we were juliet, who would we prefer as a husband. romeo or paris. i was the only person in class who said paris. i mean bea manda anna and i were discussing among ourselves (as usual. bea manda and i talk super super alot every lesson. bea sits in front of manda. i sit next to manda. anna sits across the aisle from me to my right) i mean. romeo is really really romantic and he's superb at whispering sweet nothings. but at the same time, no offence to all those who are looking for a husband just like romeo, but romeo is a total wimp. i mean. he's a sissy. he is far from a man. he's kindof like a snag. only he emos way too much. he changes his object of desire every few days i mean. he was like being lost in the woods and causing the whole world to worry for him because he was 'out of love' cos rosaline (his then 'love) didn't like him and he was going how sad it is that she has sworn to chastity. for when she dies, her beauty dies with her. and what a pity her store will go to waste. like, whatever romeo. and all he could ever think of was her 'straight leg, quivering thigh and domains that there adjacent lie' what a creep. i mean a husband who can think of only sex?
paris on the other hand. he actually loves juliet. he does not want to marry her so she can have his kids. i mean okay he's kindof old. probably ten years older than juliet (juliet was thirteen or fourteen, romeo was about fifteen or sixteen) but so? at least he's a man. and he really seems nice enough. he seems to care about her. ohwell.

i'm on johann's team! :D just found out yesterday. yays.
okay. mm syf dinner was really really really fun. went out with grace to town after sch. she wanted to get a leotard. the dbl front one was 44.90 or smth like that. she almost freaked. i made her get single front instead. 36.90 or smth like that. sonata prices are exhorbitant i tell you. my dbl front was like 26 i think. from costumeshop. see. she lazy to go all the way there.
tsk.
then we went to far east. and i combed every single shop which looked like it sold nice white tops -my new obsession. then i found this dress i really really really really liked. and i told my mum. i think she's going to get it for me. i hope so.
and then we just walked around alot. oh and it rained so we cabbed there and when we were waiting for the cab under my puny orange umbrella we got our feet totally soaked. it was gross. so when we got back to sch we went to the toilet to dry our feet. haha.

syf dinner - the food was good. there was sushi! punch, cheng teng, noodles. which were really nice. friend rice. chicken drumstick. that fish and pineapple and green pepper and onions dish and that curry puff thing in the shape of a triangle and can't rmb what else. oh veggies. not many dishes but it was nice. and we played some games. scavenger hunt. uh queen of sheba. i got sent out for 'the sexiest...' then they asked for sexiest pout. so there was this whole long row of girls. (one rep from each table) so the teachers table sent mrs yaps son. who was still in ac uniform. i think he's our age. and duh he won. he didnt even pout. he just posed.
haha.
and we got ikea hangers with stuff written on it. and we had so much fun at our table. it was our clique. plus the crazies. plus gracechan, sheryl ng and sharon. (we had the new president and vice at our table!) haha. altogether we had five (the three sec threes plus laura and i) com members out of seven at our table. jamie the secretary was with her classmates i think. and yiling was super late. it was super fun anyway. and grace(lee) showed her caring side for once. she insisted on sending us down the hill cos it was late when we ended and refused to let me walk down the hill alone (my dad was overseas) so yeah. haha.s o nice of her.

okay then yesterday. it was the coolest. our class went as MEN IN BLACK. it was be yourself day(this newpaper event) and teachers day celebration. so we all sat in the quadrangle. and the president came! whoohoo. but before he came we had our performances on this stage they set up in the quadrangle. dance performances, songs, this gym girl who was uber good. she did a cartwheel on one hand. twice. and her dance technique is good too. shes in primary smth. and yeah. okay so our class was doing men in black right. and roxanne jess and maddie have short hair so they gelled their hair. THEY LOOKED SO GOOD. we called jess shuai ge. she seriously looked hot. in the guy way =x and the newpaper and sph photographers and reporters were there. and they came to us to take pictures. so our whole class got taken by one of the papers. and then each class had to sent up two reps to show the judges the costume. so the three criteria was most in character, most dont know what and dont know what. so basically its the best dressed. and the irony is everyone was dressed up in the weirdest. like there were pirates, fairy creatures and princesses(primary girls) salt and pepper, pajamas(2e) superheroes (2m) hippies, oliver twist. our class really stood out! oh the irony. it was supposed to be 'be yourself'. yet we were supposed to dress up with a theme. which would of course draw us away from our true characters. so everyone dressed up as someone who wasn't themself in the end. blah.

oh and we sent jess roxanne maddie and clare up. the looked sooooooo good. they looked like secret service agents. i'll post pics when i get them. and they walked like guys. and when asked what they represented, clare went 'it's top secret' haha. and when they walked offstage, they got interviewed by one of the journalists! so so cool. and when the president came. as expected, we won the lower sec best dressed class prize. and they got to shake hands with the PRESIDENT. omg when he walked past us i was within like uh. four metres of that guy? cool beans. anyway they called the president mr president. which is the american way. and mrs ng thinks its embaressing cos singaporeans should not do that. presidents in singapore are always known as 'his excellency' don't they know that? grahh. -narrows eyes-
anyway. we won, we got full marks. and the president took pictures with them. two 'bodyguards' on each side. ahhhh! then we had our mass recess. we ate under the linkway. sooooooo much food passed around. i was super full. dismissed at twelve. i wanted to go home but amanda didnt so i, being the nice person i am, went out with her. went to westmall. bought tiffanie's birthday present(: and walked around. ate dessert at the foodcourt. i had cheng teng. i love chilled cheng teng! i love longans. :D
and i love jessie and amanda so much!<3
okay that was random. but hey i do.
and i love beatrice and amanda- the one who sits next to me, and christine and yuting and sherri and roxanne and suaty and anna and jess and michelle chan and just about everyone in my class.

okay and now the mindless thinking part.
ignorance is bliss.
i used to think that way. now, i have to define ignorance.
not knowing that you don't know is bliss. in that sense. esp for someone who will worry about what you don't know. you still stay happy, unaware and in your own world.
knowing you dont know can be torturous. well, depending on the situation. if it was a birthday surprise or smth, knowing you don't know is fine. haha.
but sometimes, not knowing, even knowing that you don't know, can be bliss. the truth can hurt alot sometimes, can't it.
everytime i see the words 'ignorance is bliss' its on someone's personal msg now. can't rmb whose. oh its on my pri sch classmate's. i think of the chinese words
无知也是一种幸福
there is alot of truth to that saying.

oh and i didn't go back to fuhua yesterday.haha. i called them after i was on the way back after going out with amanda. and they were going out to central for lunch and i was full beyond words so i declined and went home. and had lunch. ohman. i ate too much yesterday. and then we went to keppel country club. that place is beautiful. the jaccuzzi is huge. like four times the size of the one at temasek country club. and its like a semi circle. and keppel country club is next. and i mean next. the fence is next to the end of labrador park. you know the part where theres the red thing at the left end of labrador park. the red thing thats caged up. just after the hideout / lampost thing where the brit soldiers shot the japs coming in by ship during WW2. does anyone know what im saying? and yeah the fence is next to the fence of keppel cc. i can see the red thing from the jaccuzi. so the jaccuzzi is slightly elevated. like five metres above the swimming pool level. you have to climb up some steps. and it looks beautiful. its sheltered so it's like three 'walls' the fourth side just faces the beautiful open sea. its breathtaking. so scenic. and i love it love it love it. anyway i swam. didnt count the lap. its olympic size. so its wayy bigger. and i swam at least twenty. i just swam and swam and swam until i was certain it was more than twenty i stopped, went to the jaccuzzi. and stayed there (alone) so nice. so much space. and stretced. did centre split stretching in the water. goodstretch man. until it suddenly rained. so i went to shower. then we went the billard room. it was actually snooker tables. it was empty. my parents and bro were playing on one table. huge table. there were two. so we just used the other table as well. without paying. haha. there was no one else there. i played pool with my sis on a snooker table. well. technically she won. cos i shot the blackball in. TWICE. hahahahha. but i shot more balls in altogether. then went upstairs to the peranakan restaurant for dinner. i insisted cos we're sudying emily of emerald hill for lit. which is actually sad in my perspective. but everyone else criticizes her. but really, i have to admire that woman.
okay anyway. had dinner. went home. read emily again. and slept at nine thirty.haha.
going out soon, meeting bea amanda and sherri at cathay starbucks to study(:
then, its EGIG!:D

you

2007-08-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

i don't know why you matter so much to me.
i just want to stop caring.
i think you've already forgotten about my existence anyway.

going out with grace tmr(: then we have syf dinner. ms kon's hosting.haha.
oh right and mg sch fees went up. that makes us the most expensive girls' sch in singapore.
290 a month for singapore citizens.exhorbitant eh.
that's a fifty dollar increment.
ohwell.
anyway, for us lucky mep scholars, we only pay 58 a month. how nice:D

when half of the world turns its back on you, all you can do is open your mouth and ask the only question you can : what went wrong

Lord tell me, what went wrong?

oh and the worst part is, no one even knows that i feel like that. well i mean now everyone does. but no one knows that i
oh forget it.
how pathetic can i get.

updates!

2007-08-25T17:20:00.000+08:00

okay i watched hairspray this morning.
it's not bad i guess. not as good as grease:D we convinced miss koh (she's super easy to bully) to let us watch grease during aesthetics/music and dance. cause we're studying musicals right now.
i don't know what to blog about, i think this post might turn out to be pretty boring.
and i want to know my iq. but i don't want to take one of those online tests. they're not accurate. the same person have two drastically different results on two diff online iq tests.
anyone know where i can go to take a proper one? i don't mind paying.
and oh yeah hairspray. i took super long to recognise who amanda bynes was in the show.haha. she's blonde in this show. i think she's naturally a brunette right?
and john travolta is getting old..
and i liked the dancing.
this musical. i think it was first made during the 60s, talks about racism. about how there's segregation. blacks and whites don't dance together. andwhen they mass dance together, there must be a barrier in between them. blacks don't share the same stage as whites. blacks cannot walk in white streets. all the rubbish.
i'm learning to be colour blind.
i love blacks. seriously. there's just something about them i've always liked for the longest time.
and alot of them can sing really really well.
unlike uhm. me.
haha.
i think racism is plain silly. just because someone is of a darker skin tone than you doesn't make you better than the other person.
in fact, scientists actually think that blacks are the first people. as in like
the earliest people who lived.
meaning they THINK that adam and eve were coloured.
sorry i don't know what to call them here. i mean i can't call them african american cause adam and eve weren't americans.
anyway. point is. if we can just see past the skin colour, the world would be so much nicer to live in. some. not all, some. whites make their own lives miserable by trying to make blacks' lives miserable. absurdity.
some. again i emphasise some and not all. japenese look down on chinese. we're second class in their country. and koreans are third class.
which is the most ridiculous thing ever.
because japenese are ethinically chinese.
human beings just like to feel superior. which is why they discriminate against others, or for something closer to ourselves, give backhanded comments about others. eg. that person's gep what, that's why she's such a smart ass. thats why she scored straight a ones.
people do this when they have low self esteem and huge egos.(i know it sounds contradictory, but its not)
they have low self esteem and therefore need to justify others being better than them. they don't like it when people are better.
but yi shan hai you yi shan gao. being the top in the sch still might not make you the top in the country.
why can't they accept that some others are just smarter than them?
they're not big hearted enough to give sincere praises generously.
in several ways, i think these people are narcisstic.
and actually, alot of people are like that.
and they have huge egos. they can't stand that others are better. and there fore they give backhanded comments to put them down.
and to anyone out there if anyone ever does this to you. tell them :
i'm better than you that's why i'm in gep or i scored my aones or i won this. so what you want to do about it? i got what i got because i DESERVED what i got. so shut up.
i've had enough of people like that.
oh and have i mentioned that sbc girls are constantly and continuously discriminated and accused. because we're smarter than them.
(i'm an sbc girl)
i've faced this before.
someone goes ' what class are you in?'
'2t' (all the t classes are sbc classes)
'ee. i don't like you. you're sbc. i hate sbc girls'
this is no.1. fallacious. no.2. moronic.
don't like us? ask yourselfwhy you're not in sbc. then shut up.

I CAN'T STAND IT WHEN PEOPLE TELL ME, YOU'RE SMART, YOU DON'T NEED TO STUDY.
YOU'RE IN SBC, YOU'RE A GEEK. I DON'T LIKE YOU.
LIKE, IS THERE ANYTHING WRONG WITH BEING SMART?

in fact, i enjoy being smart. it's a gift.

okayokay change topic. time to stop rubbishing and discuss issues.
this is going to sound harsh but i'd be glad to talk to anyone about this personally on msn or smth if you have smth to say. but not on my tagboard, please.

i used to think singaporeans were insular.
now i think they're worse than insular.
because its bad enough many of us don't know what's going on in the world, we don't know what goes on in singapore.
how many of us know the four main changes that lee hsien loong wants to make. which he mentioned in his rally.
how many of us even watched it.
how many of us know who tan pin pin is. where she came from and how many of us realise she's gifted.
how many of us know the difference between eric khoo and royston tan. and on a side note, i have much more respect for eric khoo than royston tan. if you know enough about them, maybe you'll understand why.
how many of us know that about the situation in iraq and thailand now. or the racial riots across thailand and malaysia. or even. who the richest man in the world is?(he's not bill gates)

i'm sorry i know i probably have offended alot of people in asking those questions. i bet several can say they know all about all these. i mean these are just examples and i don't mean to criticise anyone anymore and i'm not saying i know all these inside out or anything. i'm just trying to say that well. we need to read more. things like newsweek that actually discuss world issues. and political stuff. and changes. and reality. and not just the straits times. not saying that the straits time is bad, just that it's plainly descriptive.

ohwell. i think i've probably said too much. i'm sorry if i made anyone angry or offended anyone in this post.

greenhouse gases and global warming

2007-08-17T15:58:00.001+08:00

janice is steaming. you see smoke coming out of her ears.

i just did geog e learning. some stupid qn.

'greenhouse gases cause global warming' true or false?

i thought it over, i put false.

greenhouse gases do NOT cause global warming. they protect us from getting skin cancer for nut's sake! they keep us from freezing to death! what global warming.

global warming comes about when there is an increment in the amount of greenhouse gases due to our production of them.

natural production of greenhouse gases does not contribute to global warming, please.

harrrrumphh!

okay here's a pic taken by caleb of manda jessie and i last sunday.

we wore white formal shirt, red tie and denim skirt in honour of national day.

and we all coincidentally wore pumps. anyway, he edited our pimples out. haha.

and i'm undeniably shorter than both of them. sigh.

haha actually alot of times i don't really mind being shorter. i mean i do get a kick out of being taller than certain people.haha. and i mean sorry if you're shorter than me cos i already am pretty short but yeah. but most of the time i'm fine being the shortest one. i don't really mind la. be content with who you are. just not content with my hair.blah.

oh yes. amanda (yuen) asked me to blog about this on tuesday.

we had a spot check on tuesday.after philo ms ho (prefect mistress. or discipline mistress) appeared at the door. told everyone to file out and while outside, some prefects checked our bags for posession of electronic devices (hp or ipod - supposed to be in lockers)

and the prefects outside checked our hair(bamboo or braid if too long), badge (has to be four fingers above the start of the v thing. from the bottom. dont know how to explain), fingernails (cannot be visible if you look from the palm side) and socks (logo must be visible and above ankle) and they checked our pockets two or three times to check if we had our hps.

six hps and one ipod got confisicated.

sigh.

okay thats all.i'm quite satisfied with the amount of work i've done so far. i think. it's pretty okay la.

2007-08-17T11:24:00.000+08:00

he said, "I've got to be honest,
You're wasting your time if you're fishin' around here."
And I said, "You must be mistaken,
I'm not foolin', this feelin' is real."
he said, "You've gotta be crazy!
What do you take me for?
Some kinda of easy mark?"

"You've got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But I swear that you've got me all wrong."

All wrong
All wrong
But you've got me

I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier,
I'll be yours my dear
And I'll belong to you
If you just let me through

This is easy as lovers go.
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailormade,
What's the sense in waiting?

I said, "I've got to be honest,
I've been waiting for you all of my life."
For so long I thought I was asylum bound,
But just seeing you makes me think twice.
And being with you here makes me sane.
I fear I'll go crazy if you leave my side.

"You've got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?"

Tonight
Tonight
You've got me

I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier,
I'll be yours my dear
I'll belong to you
If you just let me through

This is easy as lovers go.
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailormade, what's the sense in waiting?

the good news!

2007-08-15T16:46:00.000+08:00

good news, good news!
i got into the dance com! :D
but i wasn't there when mrs poh announced the com. so jia and grace came to my class and told me.haha.
anyway, president is sharon
vice is grace chan
secretary is jamie
sec 4 rep is yiling
sec 3 rep is cheryl
sec 2 rep is laura
sec 1 rep is me(:
laura andi are the only two sec twos.
i feel so honoured.

okay thing number two. i changed my skin. i wanted white but this was so captivating. this new eden. from the beginning, where it all began. paradise. where everything was perfect.
ohwell.

and one more thing, amanda tagged me.

Each player starts off by naming ten weird habits or facts about one’s self. At the end, tag six friends and they’ll have to do the same too. No tagging back.here we go then.
1.i got a1 for physics this term, which is amazing considering how bad i am at physics
2.i've stopped growing taller
3.i own five dress, but have only worn two out
4.i had motion sickness when i was in pri sch
5.i've tasted petroleum (it was an accident)
6.i love yellow cos its an ugly colour (doesnt make sense)
7.i think zaki is quite cute (OMG I DID NOT JUST SAY THAT)
8. i have never read nor watched harry potter in my life before
9.i usually take 20 mins to half an hour to bathe
10.i dance in the toilet. all the time.
and i tag:
anyone who wants to do it. volunteer if you like(:

that's it.
love,
princess janice
(haven't been called princess in a long time.haha.)

GOD'S AMAZING

2007-08-14T21:29:00.000+08:00

my God is amazing.
let me say that one more time.
He is one amazing God. big time.
i love Him so much.
He's awesome!
<333333333
okay i just hugged the air in front of me. sometimes i do wish i could hug Him physically(:
ohwell.
GOD IS SERIOUSLY AMAZING.
you know, how He sentJesus to die for us. i mean i realized how unworthy we are today. i mean i realised it before. but each time i realise it again, its impact is heavier on me.
anyway, song ringing in my head today. reminds me even more so of how good God is.and makes me feel even more unworthy.

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases
His mercies never come to an end
they are new every morning
new every morning
great is Thy faithfulness oh Lord
great is Thy faithfulness

okay i can't exactly explain why all the sudden highness about how good God is. but He's good all the time anyway, so we should praise Him all the time and be fully aware of His goodness.
anyway. i decided to blog cos.
1. two amandas bugged me to do so just now.
2. jess asked me to blog too.
3. i'm touched people even read my blog and realise i havent blogged considering how dead it's been
4. i dont know la. blog then blog.

okay so anyway. today was amanda (yuen)'s birthday. she's kindof depressed over smth. but ohwell.
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR. i love you lots and lots and lots and don't be depressed about what happened. 13 more days! 13 more days! very fast one. don't worry. anyway, i still love you. haha. and i'm really glad to be your sitting partner. its great to be next to someone who understands math. haha. you're super smart you know? stop feeling so inferior. must be confident. anyhow, i pray you stop being a 'lazy christian' as you call yourself. and get up and do smth about your r/s with God. its impt one you know? mhms. seeyou in sch tmr(:
love!

okayokay. so thats done. amanda's my sitting partner btw. yeps.

okay now i have to write a shout out for amanda. LIU. cos she just told me she reads my blog everytime she comes online. so sweet.
amanda:
aiyo. i dont know how many shoutouts i've done for you alr lor. i think this is the. what. fourth? ohwell. anyway. you're super sweet! i'm so touched you even read this dying thing. and thanks for always being there to give me hugs esp when i'm sad. and being so concerned about my life and all. and you're really cute and high and fun. and yeah. and old. hahahaha. no la. and what else. and please return me my white pants. yeah. haha. and dont turn too geekish studying okay? still can have fun! must learn to love life. but must study hard too! study productively. s tudy and PLAY. playing is impt, playing is good for health okay! haha. don't be so s tressed. and rmb results aren't the world okay. they don't reflect your intelligence. they're just. aiya. dont worry so much about results. what's more impt is that you manage to live life to the fullest. but of course, that includes studying(:
anyway. happy. uh rest of the week.haha.
oh and my daddy's birthday is this thurs. yeps.
and what else ah.
ohoh yes.

did you know. that the heart is an AMAZING WAY BEYOND AMAZING organ?
it beats NON-STOP from the time itw as formed to the time you die. non-stop. for like. 80 years? ITS AMAZING. it's so strong.
wow.
yeah and what else.
dance is super boring now. we're not doing anything productive. at all.
ohwell.
and ss report is due tmr.
I FINISHED IT ALR:D
feel so accomplished. haha.
and mm. oh right bea manda and i went to btp to celebrate mandas birhtday today? haha. just kfc. then we went to attitude. its a dance centre with a nice cake shop. nice expensive cake shop. and i had to treat amanda. and myself to cake. i had carrot cake. i wanted like strawberry cheesecake or smth. but the only cheesecake they had was the cheese cheese kind. haha. and itw as puny. blah. and she had fudge. my reccomendation. it came with icecream la! my carrot cake dont have. blah. then bea just koped from bothof us. we talked alot alot alot. really enjoyed talking to them. they rock.

okay that's it. i think i'll continue blogging another time. i'm desperate to change my skin. but i'll only do so when i get some pics from laura. which she supposedly hasalr sent me. but its on sharing. which i cant access on this com. so anyway. i hope i change m yskin soon. and when i do, i hope i'l lfinally FINALLY update my links. hahaha. and thanks guys, for reading my blog.

okay. and what else is interesting.

oh elearning is this thurs.

oh and stacie accepted Christ on sat!: D

piano exam

2007-08-03T12:23:00.000+08:00

my piano exam is in 3 hrs and 45 mins.
this has been the worst grade ive ever take so far.
ohwell, but it is the highest grade.haha.
but i've been like slacking with piano this entire year and my pieces are like. pretty horrid.i changed my A piece in may. i started working on C since june but it still sounded bad.until today.it sounded good just now.haha. B has always been steady and good. so long as i dont mess it up later.
scales will be fine. save arpeggios.
i'll make sure i do well for sightreading.
i hope i dont zao xia for aural.
haha.

ive been practicing like mad the last two days. and i went to sch this morning just to take my hcl test. higher chi is first to periods. and guess what. LAOSHI FORGOT TO PRINT OUR TEST PAPERS. so yeah. i wasted two periods. then i left. before pe :DDDDDDDD
hahahahahahhahaha!
not that i dont like exercising. i love the feeling of after pe and after dancing.basically after sweating. cos you know its healthy and you've just done some good work.
but what i dont like is running rounds around the track BEFORE you do warmups. and mrs chan says that running isthe warmup and you should do it first. and I CANT RUN WITHOUT STRETCHNG FIRST. my body just doesnt work that way. no one can dance nicely without stretching. that's why plies are always the first exercise in ballet. blah.

and aiya. there are alot of things but i don't want to blog about them.
this post is a total bore. dont read it.
ohwell. if you've read up to here, you've already read it.
what am i talking about.

oh and mr tay said i have bright eyes yesterday.HAHA.

founders.

2007-07-28T16:25:00.000+08:00

founders day went pretty good: D i was so honoured to be given that chance to play.

anyway i was eating oreos on the bus one day.
so one packet has three right.
so i ate the first one.
then i was listening to music on my ipod too: D
okay so it was some song i cant rmb what.
then i told myself not to eat anymore. cos its ILLEGAL to eat on the bus and national laws arent made to be broken and should be respected cos God put our lawmakers and all in authority over us. okay so anyway. i was really hungry, as i always am. so i reached into my bag to get another oreo. and i knew that if i ate the second one, i would eat the third too cos i would think. theres only one left, might as well finish it - temptation. and lack of self discpline. blah. haha.
anyway. so i reached in and got hold of the second oreo. then the song i was listening to ended. then the next song started playing. ( it was on shuffle) the very first line of the song went

this is my desire,
to honour You.

the holy spirit was so obviously telling me to let go of that oreo and not eat on the bus. if i claim that my desire is to honour God. then i shouldnt eat the oreo. cos if i eat it, i b reak a law. in no way is breaking a law very glorifying of God.
yeps.
so im really glad i had that lesson. i hope the rest of you guys who read this are reminded not to eat on the bus the next time you want to(:
and the moment i got of the bus. i chomped down the two oreos : D
ha.

dance dance dance

2007-07-24T21:06:00.000+08:00

my life has been eat sleep dance repeat. haha. super tiring.
anyway, i wa tched the seven o clock show just now. kinship. and wenya is super annoying. i just want yingjun and yusheng to get together. channel eight dramas are just sooooo annoying.hahahaha.oh and yinsha is a TOTAL PAIN. cant stand her.
okayokay. uhh. oh founders day rehearsal yesterday and today. so hardly any sch. tmr's mg founders day! i'm playing the prelude(:
and last sunday ballet under the stars was alright. not as good as dance fantasia. dance fantasia was GREAT. the theater was packed full. and the performances were good. i thought serangoon jc and sajc were super super good. they reallyreally are. and serangoon's music is cool. its like. freaky and rag-doll-ish. haha!and then ten dancers from each sch got to do the finale. its an individual four eight presentation by each schfor finale then the grand finale is all the ten dancers from each sch on stage. some mass dance thingy. super super super nice. it was a hit! anyone who wasnt there should regret it NOW. hahahaha. it was really super good. it was the syf dance showcase. so obv all the good dances right. with good dancers like. ME. haha kidding.
anyway. founders day rehearsals has made me high on hymn. the lyrics of joyful joyful we adore thee are so beautiful. i love that song. and bless this sch also. but the piano part for bless this sch is super hard la. haha. hymns are cool:D
then on sunday it wasnt as good. i mean not as good quality. ballet under the stars:D then lau grace and i bought the sdt shirt. i wish i had gotten a ballet under the stars one. to rmb that i performed in it. ohwell. another year. anyway the shirt isnt that nice .its like. dark blue. haha. and then after we cleaned up i went down to watch the rest of the performances. my daddy mama and bro was there. they bought tickets. like 20 bucks each. super ex la, considering its outdoors. then i only made it there in time to see the sdt ballets. which was all i wanted to see. not interesed in the rest. OMG THEIR CHOREOGRAPHY WAS BEAUTIFUL. its breathtaking. and they dance with so much grace. like sooo much. everything just flows so gently yet they're so strong. esp on pointe.haha. and yeah, the choreography is really smart. mhms. and oh ya. the stage was slanted backwards cos its at the bottom of fort canning green. so when we danced we all felt super giddy. and it was hard to pirouette.and it started raining so they only did the first movement of the last dance. piano concerto number smth by tchaikovsky i think. yeps.and yeah thats all i guess. oh i got new jazz pants and a new black leotard on sat. so now i have six leos : DDDDDDDDD
one black. one mulberry. one red(love it the most!its super hot) one hot pink. one maroon. one nude. as in skin coloured. mhms.
leo's are cool. now i want purple, dark blue. then i'll start getting exotic colours. like green and yellow.haha. that'd be super funxD
haha
oh and i watched transformers on sat. like FINALLY AFTER SO SUPER LONG. haahaha.it was really really really really good!but i watched it at like. 9.30 to 1145. so i yawned through most of the show. but i stayed awake.haha. and we were like SECOND ROW. blah.the cinema was packed. first row was full too. and this is like. three weeks after the show came out. shows how good it is!haha.okay thats all.

just now i was bathing. and i was thinking about where new ideas came from. how can someone who is 'creative' just pop out an idea out of no where.
is the human mind really capable of throwing up smth that is totally new and out of the world?
or does creativity come from putting one and one together.
like a purple cow.
you know purple, you know cow. you add them together. you get smth new = a purple cow.
is that creativity?

updates.

2007-07-14T22:59:00.000+08:00

hmm.
i need to update.
let's start with wednesday. went out with grace(: went to imm.haha. we wanted to go town but uh. grace didnt know how to get home from there =x LOL. super funny. anyway it was really fun. we stayed there till six? but we had lunch at kap first. and she bought alot alot of things. like. a ten dollar body shop nail file. i dont know how anyone can bear to spend TEN BUCKS on a nail file. but anyway. then we both bought quite alot of earrings. and went to find nice dresses but couldnt find any. she bought a bag. i bought her like. alot alot of nail polish that she chose for her birthday. and we went to the face shop. and we went to try on nail polish. on MY precious nails. like one nail one finger. then there was this colour. i didnt use the tester. i just took the bottle for sale one. then that woman made me buy it. grah. but its very pretty.its like golden green silverish colour. haha. then we tried on alot of types of green. some just look silver. then i convinced her to buy a solid christmas tree green colour. haha! and yeah. then i went to buy maddies bday present. it was a school bag. haha. like seven of us paid for it. then clare found out on thursday and wanted to share so she paid two bucks and we ran down to buy a g2 pen for maddie with it. anyway maddie seemed pleased with the bag(:but she said it was kinda small. but ohwell. take a look at my sch bag and hers is huge. haha.

okay then on thursday. oh went to meet beryl and sharon and je macs for followup. it's been a long time. haha. didnt do at all during hols. but it was really really great. we did it for like more than two hours. but we had alot of other rubbish as well la. haha. then went for guit class.
im really glad to see beryl so hungry for God. i wish i were like that too.

then on friday. we left sch at 12. went for rehersal at ulu pandan cc. the stage is PUNY. makes the dance look so messy. but it turned out very pretty today.haha. then yesterday, we were quite fussy cos the stage was so small. so in the end they tied up the wing curtains so we have like, more space to dance. haha. then yeah. the thing ended at like. what. two fifteen?haha. super early la. we thought we had to stay till five or smth. so i went home. then i watched princess diaries two. cos i felt like watching it. then i went to play piano. then watch the five oclock show. then had dinner. and i wasted half the night playing smth really really really stupid. shant embaress myself by saying what it is. haha.

then uh. oh right this morning. performance. yeah so it went well. then waste time there eating the free food. LOL. haha. then went home. then ate lunch.then napped. then woke up. then bathed. then went to g2 to pick jie up. then went to watch ndp.
it was spectacular.
great.
amazing.
AWESOME.
haha im serious. of all the fourteen ndps if watched in my life. this has been the best. there were so many laser displays and the there was this part they had people fly those controlled airplanes (the toy ones) lighted up just above the platform and had lasors shining across. so it looked lovely. then the display of the tanks and ships were cool. like the soldiers wouldrun out of their tanks run up the steps and pose. LOL. the poses were super super cute. haha. then i got obsessed with wanting to become a freefaller. cos its so super cool.haha. then after that they had this part whereby there were forty commandos from the best unit who dont know what its called. like abseiling but theres no wall for you to bounce again. repel. or smth. i dont know la. cant rmbthe word. then it was super cool. they came downthe shears bridge and into the water. haha. then there was this shinook that flew really really low. like three meters above the water. then it blew up alot of water droplets and got the people sitting at the merlion there wet. haha! cos they were wat ching from there. oh and we got really really good seats. almost in the middle. and a good row too. and then some guys jumped down from the shinook into the water. and the rest were more or less the same. this years theme was marine thingos. so they had pri sch kids dress up as starfish and fish and all. they were so cute, bouncing about. and yeah. thats about all. the rest was the same. the planes. the songs and all. and it was super funny cos there was no choir and no mp. so they had fake people and made them carry signs saying first mp and last mp. and this guy sitting on the chair with the sign 'choir' haha!
anyway, it was pretty good i'd say.
and next week is going to be super busy. im going to die dancing.

monday - rehearsal at sajc.
tuesday - zaki
wed- tech rehearsal at ucc
thursday - full dress rehearsal ( leave sch at ten) and syf dance fantasia PREVIEW. in the evening.
then friday- rehearsal plus syf dance fantasia! ( big thing!)
sat - free. phew.
sun - ballet under the stars : D
thats all.
i'm going to collapse!

kiss the girls goodnight.

2007-07-10T23:44:00.000+08:00

go listen to joey, by bon jovi. it's a nice song(:

okay anyway, combined chapel yesterday. miss kon shared a story about this girl called mary jones. she lived in the welsh mountains and she walked to miles to go to church each week. she really looked forward to it. the pastor would read out of the big book with the words 'holy bible' on the front of it. she longed to do so. a few years later, a teacher came to that town and mary learnt to read. one week, the pastor asked her to stand up and read a passage from the bible to the congregation. boy, was she pleased!her parents were so proud of her. it was an honour to be able to do so. mary really really longed to have a bible of her own. her parents said no, it was too expensive. besides, they didnt sell bibles there. so she went to ask around and she found out that they sold bibles at the nearest town. it was 25 miles away. she walked and walked the entire 25 miles. and bought the bible after saving for a long time.

this is my brief version of the story. what really spoke to me about her was that (its a true story by the way) she was so HUNGRY for God. she really was. she wanted to read the bible so much, she treated it like a jewel. do we? do I? and the question that came to mind was am i hungry for God? i know im not as hungry as God as her. im ashamed of myself.
so the question is,
WHY am i not as hungry for God?
because i grew up surround by christians and church that i take it for granted?
perhaps.
i want to be that hungry. i want to thirst like her. with that, i will be more passionate for Him.
okay i think i have to well, pray. thats the only answer i can think of right now.
but prayer is a fantastic solution to many questions and troubles. prayer doesnt solve problems, prayer provides one who will take them away.
incredible yeah?

okay so to sch stuff.
mrs chan askedme to play the piano for founders day. christian songs, plus a prelude. plus the Lord's prayer for the sch to sing =x ahh. haha. big responsibility. cos violette is too busy to play this year. but im really honoured she asked me to do it. i mean violette is wayy better. nvm, i hope this will push me to work harder.
piano exam date is out. 3 aug. AHH. i really disappointed ms tan. she told me today i was one of her most promising students but now, aiya, very little confidence .and i dont blame her. my pieces are like. blah. the B piece is pretty good, we both agree. thats like, my only hope. if everything else does as well as that, i'll definitely get at LEAST a merit. definitely. haha. but everything else is no where near. sight reading is pretty good. i hope i score there. haha. i think, i hope i do really wel lfor that. scales shouldnt be a problem. except for chromatics in third. they sound echo-y. i'll have to work on that. aural seems to be pretty smooth for me this year, somehow. haha. im grateful to God for that. and A piece. okay uh no one else knows but it doesnt really matter to anyone anyway. i changed m yA piece. in may. which is a killer. its nuts. do that, you'll probably fail.haha. but i had no choice. it was originally a prelude and fugue. and I CANT PLAY THE FUGUE. i really really really cant. so i told ms tan i want to change. haha. now this ones coming pretty okay. but not performance standard. c piece ah. wahhhhh. sigh.haha. dont talk about it.

yeah so i hope i pass well anyway. i shant say too much and dissapoint myself.

ballet exam results are out. i got 87. second in class. first is stacie, 91. haha im quite okayly happy la. distinction. but i would have liked 90 th0ugh.haha nvm. shant be too greedy. thank God i even got 87. i made more mistakes than most people in my class. haha. quite amazing the examiner wrote such nice things about me. God really blesses me eh. haha.

oh and im proud of myself. for obeying my mama and not whining. shant bother explaining the whole thing out here. i want to SLEEEEEEP. nights :D

sian.

2007-07-08T21:39:00.000+08:00

i think i need inner peace. peace that comes from within. peace that allows me to remain tranquil even in the midst of the rush and action around me. peace that will let me feel comfortable. peace that is void of tension. peace that can only come from Him.
i really really desperately need that peace (hey, it rhymes!)
i dont want to get angry anymore.
i dont want to make stupid decisions or say things that displeases Him.
i just want to do what's right.

what's right and what's wrong?
where do morals come from.
God?
what pleases and displeases Him?
what about decisions then. how do i know which choice to make?
where are there always so many questions.
why are there always so many questions left unanswered.
but i think it was all for the better that God made us humans that had limited brains and thinking capacity.
if not i think i would really combust.

so since there's no way we can answer everything,
is it then so that no human can ever be wise?
is wisdom knowing everything, or is that knowledge.
if knowing all the answers is knowledge, what then is wisdom?

WHY AM I ASKING SO MANY QUESTIONS.

is being curious good?
i think JANCIE SOON being curious is annoying.
is it?
why are we curious.
why arent we satisfied with what we already know.
i guess not being satisfied with knowledge propells us forward and in the end we do learn and aquire more knowledge.
but knowledge isnt it all. i want wisdom too.
where does wisdom come from?
listening?
how do i become wise.
by asking?
not being satisfied lets us learn more.
but sometimes i just want to be satisfied with what i have.
anyway, whats the difference between satisfaction and contentment?
i want to be happy with what i have, i want to be satisfied with what i have.
greeds and worldly desires often takes over me.
is that then a sin?
is it wrong to live a more comfortable and luxurious life?
is it wrong to enjoy life materialistically?

note- if you want to attempt to answer any of these questions, please do not do so on my tagboard. thanks(:

pps. if you really do try to answer them for me, thanks for trying(:

i really really appreciate someone who will bother putting up with me and my annoying questions.

are they annoying by the way?

okay. right. let me talk about what does not annoy people -what happens.
but then, that would be descriptive, not like a discussion on an issue or a situation. wouldnt it be so lacking substance then?
just like the newspapers.
statecontrolled.
what am i controlled by?
fear that people wont like what they're reading?
why do i even bother about that anyway.

okay maybe i should lighten up.
anyway, i feel pretty bad now. dont even know why.
blah.
had the environment conference thing on fri and sat. full days. super tiring. got home and went straight to sleep.they invited our twinning schs from india and penang. as well as fairfield, ac barker and inde, ang mo kio, pioneer, fajar. and a few more cant rmb what.
it was pretty interesting.
the food was not bad.haha.
i liked the discussions on the second day.
basically, our earth is dying.
LET'S SAVE OUR EARTH.
RECYCLE, REUSE, REDUCE.
DON'T USE AIRCON, USE FAN.
CARPOOL.
TAKE PUBLIC TRANSPORT.
REALLY, DUMP YOUR STUFF IN RECYCLING BINS.
yeah smth like that.haha.
then service today. youth service in g2 started yesterday.so service was abit empty today. the musicians were kindof sian. i gave jessie and amanda a daisy each. i feel so nice :D haha.
then went for lunch with jessie tiff eunice kenneth toh sam johnn and caleb. subway:D whoa, i havent had subway for the longest time. really. haha. it feels good to have subway(: and kenneth wore this shirt that i really really really like. its so. pretty. haha. i dont know if thats the right word but yeah. and i havent been to subway in the longest longest time ever.i miss s ubway.haha.then.
okay nvm.
i shall end here(:
love.
me.

d&d

2007-07-04T21:12:00.000+08:00

had d&d on sunday. went to tiffanies house to bathe. then wore the cheer costume. wah. the skirt is so super short laa. thank goodness i had spankies:D okay nvm, no one knows what im talking about.haha. then her parents drove all of us to YWCA. then we prac prac. then during prac. blah. i supported deborah to go up the flower then ran infront to support her from the front to early. she fell backwards squatting down on their hands and she like. tore a muscle or smth. so we tried to make it recover in like one hour. but it didnt work. so we had to re choreograph the whole thing. ahh. in like half an hour. so scary. so the item was pretty messy.but it went okay. the dinner was fun. sat in between jessie and kenneth. there were some games and performances. mr and ms r-age and what nots. and yeah. the zong ji mi ma thing but add in gross food, blend it then make the pastors drink. haha. yeah. david choo performed. abigail sin performed. joey performed. yeah. it was not bad. but the food was pretty lousy. haha.

then on monday got the evangelistic treasure hunt. brought stacie(: ran around. was in grace's group. we didnt win.haha but nevermind. the lunch was pretty okay.haha. then we like cabbed most of the way for the game. quite fun la. then went chris house to do the bio project. talked alot alot to chris. had fun cutting satay sticks up.haha!

then went home. yeah.

then i fell asleep in geog yesterday. and mrs tang tapped my desk.haha!

okay thats all.pics! okay im only going to upload one. my sis wants to use the com NOW. bye!

evangelism

2007-06-29T23:52:00.002+08:00

did you know that if i shared the gospel to one person every year and did so for 34 years, and every person i shared to continues sharing to one person a year until the 34 years is up and so on,
meaning first year, 1 person knows christ. second year, two, third, 4, fourth , 8, fifth, 16, then 32, then 64 and so on.
at the end of 34 years, the number will hit the world's population.
EVERY SINGLE HUMAN ON THIS PLANET WOULD BELIEVE IN CHRIST.
except that about i dont know. 10 million of the world's 7 or so billion people are already christians. so we dont need the full 34 years.
WOULDNT THAT BE AMAZING?
why dont we put that into practice. hmm.
except that i know that some people will never believe. but i mean.
the thought of it is so delicious.
incredible.

anyway, we had ballet under the stars auditions today. the auditioner was pretty impressed with our dance. she did zaki before too. ex sajc student. haha.
and mrs chen is super super nice. she gave us youth day presents. garbage can sweets. just that i accidentally dropped mine in the canteen and about ten fell out. so left with seven. but before that we already ate quite a few.
and i didnt go for love mg this year. again! ahhhhh!
and its all laura kohs fault cos she decided to pungseh me today.
GRAH.
and i did the math online test. and i SOMEHOW I DONT KNOW HOW BY GOD'S GRACE GOT FULL MARKS.its amazing. for those who dont know, which is almost everyone. i keep failing online tests. for some reason. so yeah. its super amazing. haha.
okay thats all.
nights.

update! grah. amandas bugging me now. haha.

2007-06-27T23:07:00.000+08:00

okay i'm updating this time because of amanda liu. but you know what, it feels great cos i have two amazing friends who want to know how i feel and what i have to say to the rest of the world and therefore bug me to blog. :D i love them so.
okay uh. last wed was amanda's birthday.
clap clap clap! happy birthday amanda!belated.
haha. had piano in the morning. then went to lavender with jessie to get her a pinata from concourse. twenty five bucks. ahhh. made everyone pay two bucks. NO ONE, ABSOLUTELY NO ONE, HAS PAID UP YET. haha.
anyway, then we also went to check the costume shop twice, before and after we went concourse cos i hadnt taken my measurements for cheer costume yet. then it was closed. anyway on sunday i realised it was the wrong shop we went to. haha! then took a bus all the way down to tanah merah. amandas nice new house. despite her telling us to take mrt. anyway. then we went there. had porridge for lunch. the rest of the cheer girls had to wait for us to eat =x jessie had two bowls. i had FOUR =x haha. super hungry! and the porridge was nice anyway.haha. then cheer prac. then lalalala. then went to the pit. bbq. eat talk lalalala. then all the usual stuff. cake. the guys dunked amanda. and davchoo.haha. then went back to the house. amanda bathed. we set up the pinata in her carpark in the basement there. then yeah. we all took turns hitting it. then it broke in the end. there was so much sweets (we had to get them seperately) then yeah. sit around talk talk. then went home. basically, amanda's old now. :D

(paragraphing-jess' suggestion) then on thurs and fri had dance camp. fun fun. jamie was our group leader ! yays. and i was asst. then we had vicky(: and audrey.and three new sec ones i didnt know. then yeah. played games the whole time. the food was okay. milo was not bad. we had to choreograph a dance to given music. my group was crazy frog and westlife. we chose westlife. so mainly i choreographed it with vicky. it was this jazz ballet thing. then we WON! :DDDDDDDDDDD. haha. whoo! and we were the 'most united group!' then yeah. anyway on sat i fell sick. fever. and sorethroat. so didnt go for choir or cheer. cos i couldnt get out of bed anyway. then on monday no fever, but i developed flu (and therefore running nose) and cough. really bad. and still the sorethroat. ahh. i cant sing. i sounded like a frog, a duck and a polar bear. blah. didnt go for r-age awareness rehearsal today either. johann told me to stay at home and rest. it turned out most ppl who went for dance camp fell sick.
okay then sunday. church. then d&d rehearsal. BLAH. haha. then went costume shop take measurements. saw a sample. not going to tell you what it looks like. then home! : DDDD

then on monday school. yeah. mrs ng and laoshi not in sch these few days. on course. but they gave us alot of work. we have to do yilunwen comments! by tmr. and mrs ng gave us eyewitness report to write for act 4 scene dont know what. a fatal brawl. okay no one knows what im talking about anyway.then yeah. until today. we've been pretty much slacking. and i pretty much dont know what to say.

everyday i worry. i worry about . aiya everything. about people. about what they think. about datelines. about my work. about what im going to do with the rest of my life. about my voice. about everything. i want to quit worrying.
the bible says to not worry about anything. but ask God.
but aiya.
no peace about this matter laa.
okay nvm.pray more.
pray pray pray.
talking to God like spending time just sitting in His presence and thinking about Him gives me peace though.
ohoh and i woke up at 5.30 past few days. successfully! to do my qt. haha. so happy. hopethis becomes a habit.

then what else iw ant to say.
I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY LOVE MY MAMA AND PAPA. THEY'RE THE BEST.
really my mums amazing.
and and and. home's the best place. its where you belong. its where you really are who you really are.
haha.
all my rubbish again.
i want to sleep.
sick women needs sleep.
i slept the whole entire afternoon today though. so not as tired now.
i slept at nine on monday.
sigh.
please pray for me. i desperately want and need to get well soon.
NIGHTS!

retreat and updates.

2007-06-19T12:42:00.000+08:00

hey everyone!
i have not blogged in the longest time. and i am blogging NOW. even though im dying to dance cos im already wearing pointe shoes because my darling one and only jessie tan mei jun called me a LIAR. okay fine i didnt keep my promise. i said i would blog on monday. today's tuesday. SORRY JESSIE IM BLOGGING NOW. plus the extra paragraph i promised.

here is a dedication to jessie tan, the bestest friend i could ever have :
you're really nice, and i think you've grown alot since last year. i find you very considerate towards others' feelings now and you seem more sensible, like knowing when to shutup more and when to tell us to shutup. okay maybe not us, it's just amanda. (KIDDING AMANDA!) i'm glad you can speak in tongues now! and yeah, we can all pray together. i feel closer to you each day. and you know what, you're one of the extremely few people i can actually talk about how i feel to. like i can tell almost everyone what happens and all about my life. but to actually talk about how i feel, it takes alot for me to do that cos aiya. i have alot of pride. haha. so yeah. you have to feel honoured okay! and yeah, i feel really comfortable with you. i dont mind being shorter than you. its okay. i like having tall friends. just not too tall. wo jue de ni bi jiao dong shi le. (like why we cant wear fbts to service.HAHAHA!) and yeps, i love you so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so much dear(:

and amanda, just so you won't feel jealous and complain, i love you alot to honey<3

okay. now for what ive been up to for the last two weeks.
RETREAT '07. it was amazing. like what gaomin said, it wasn't explosive, but it sure was an experience. i had lots of fun hanging out with well. the usual people. jessie amanda sam toh lanz choo and keef. and adora(: i had quite a number of chats with adora this retreat, and i really enjoyed them. ADORA, I LOVE TALKING TO YOU. yeah, haha she's a really great sister and someone who's spiritually more mature than me to listen to for advice, and points to learn. and just yeah, learn from her. but adora, dont get too ego okay. haha.
retreat was great, i enjoyed all the worship sessions. well i always enjoy retreat. and the food was really, horrid. the day out at alamanda shopping centre, we had a&w! haha. ancient alr right? but the rootbeer float was so cool. reminded me of the OLD days. when i was young. sigh.haha. but it was really, quite long ago. eight years i guess? and what else. the preacher was very sensitive to God. He kept telling us to listen listen listen. and he would ask people to just shout out words the received. super cool. yeah. not much to say.haha. then after that, i cant rmb what i did for the whole of last week. besides going for camy rehearsals, doing hw, oh btw, im more or less done with hw. just have to print, find out how to do those i dont know how to do and yeah. clean up. so happy with myself. satisfaction is sweet man!
oh yes and i've been busy with cheer. well didnt actually go for much practices, but doing those stunts are cool. haha like holding people's feet while they try to stand on our hands.haha and choir for r-age awareness. johann forced all trainees to go. and we have officially finished camy training. last sat was the last, so sad. i really loved it. it was like, the highlight of my week, smth i looked forward to everyday of sch. not that i dont love sch. mg is the best sch ever but. yeah. and we had our showcase. it went fine. like normal normal. then. yeah i guess thats it, wait for interviews and see if i can somehow pass. i really hope i do.=x

and sunday was fathers day and we went to eat at this really really nice restaurant at raffles city. szechuan court or smth. daddy always knows nice restaurants. he has this whole long list of restaurants he goes to with clients but doesnt bring us there. boo. haha. anyway.
im starving now, i really want to eat, everyone else is eating alr.
cheer and choir prac later.
and you know what? i really really miss dancing.
i dance in my house, by the way. but i think everyone who knows me well enough knows i do that kind of thing. like my classmates. i dance in class.LOL. during recess.
haha okay thats it. i really want to EAT.
BYEBYE.: D

happy birthday to me

2007-06-02T22:16:00.000+08:00

haha i'm officially an old woman.
anyway. i had really the best time ever yesterday.
i just want to thank God for all my friends. each one of them are just so special and fun to be with and i love them so much and i couldn't ask for more.
God has been so good to me allthese years. and i'm glad that i have gotten to know Him more, and i've experienced and known Him differently from the last birthday to this.
and this birthday i realise how unworthy i am of God's love and blessings. but at the same time i'm glad that He has showered all these upon me.
the material gifts aside, i was kept smiling the whole day in the company of the ohsogreat two tee people! it was way fun:D and the photo montage (i think it's spelt this way?) was probably about the most thoughtful gift i've ever received? yeah. its really nice. and kindof self-honouring. haha. put this gigantic frame of pictures of my my my and my face up on the wall. YEAH! xD hahaha. and yeah.

ps - jessie and amanda, I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU TWO SOOOOO MUCH<3

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okayokay draw a line, imagine this is the second post. haha.
i really need to change my blogskin la. its getting old and bleh. i'll never get myself to cos im lazy esp when i come online, cos i come online either during free time where i just want to relax and pig out, or cos i need to do hw, and hence have no time to look for a new one.

okay anyway last monday to thursday i was at malaysia for camp. camp keizan. or smth like that. haha. anyway i was the group leader and everything was really fun. the activities were challenging and really away from our comfort zone. the food wasnt very nice. or clean either. the table was constantly infested with plenty of flies and ants and spiders and whatnots. we had to wash our own dishes at the sink which smelt really bad. really really bad. the lights in my dorm wouldnt come on. the dorms had no beds, just a raised wooden platform and we put our sleeping bags on it. and iwas squashed in between michelle hwang and amanda and i seriously have no space to myself. like framed by them. so if the move in, i cant lie properly so i stay awake for ten minutes trying to move them back without waking them up. =x haha. we went trekking in to the jungle several times. i got one leech bite.leeches arent that bad. their bites dont hurt or anything. but almost everyone screamed at one. (I DIDNT OKAY!) all you have to do when you see one on your leg is spray 'off' the mosquito repellent. then it will freeze and curl up into this puny black ball. then you flick it off. tada. simple. haha. then it'll bleed for awhile but okay one la. not much blood lost. had lots of fun with my group. got a little tanner i think. the bathing conditions were quite bad. just this conjested stall, some dont even have locks. the floor looks gross so dont look down. the hooks are rusty and dented. theres this small tap and a pail and a small scoop so you fill the pail with water and pour it on yourself. how fun. i didnt fill my bottle there. i didnt drink much. the water tasted sooooo gross. like mixed with our old food. seriously . im not exaggerating. anyway on the way back on the fourth day we got this nice nice seafood lunch at the kelong. the juice tasted SOOO good. and we got treated to coke!WHOOO. haha. and i really liked camp still and i made new friends there and my job was mama them and make sure they eat and bathe and all. and rara of course. then came back home. had to wash and hang clothes and prepare ppt and all for presentation on friday. friday presentation, it went pretty well. haha. then learning journey to kranji war memorial and changi museum. both were nice peaceful and restful. the kranji war memorial was interesting. second time there but i learnt alot more this time. cos first time went with family, no guide to tell you lots of stuff. haha. then went to lunch at btp at pizza hut with michelle wee. then went grocery shopping at the renovated ntuc there. i went up to visit forms but it was closed.i havent seen the new studio yet. IM SO SAD I WANT TO DO BALLET AGAIN. AHHHHHHHHH. BLAH. okay then we decided to cook chicken stew. so anyway we went back to her house, watched stuff on her com then just lazed, read magazines then we cooked the chicken stew. it was nice! and bathed.t hen dinner. then eat eat.then watch more stuff on the com. then talk talk in her room then fell asleep. and i left my watch in her house the next day. her mom drove us out. send her to tuition and dropped me at kap. cabbed to g2. saturate! ushered. i learnt alot during one of the workshops.and this new song - assuredly yours. love it. then 4.30 to 7.30 was our dinner break. melong josh sam lester caleb and i went to 3 john. then josh sam lester and i played cards. daidee. i dont know how its spelt la. anyway i hadnt lost a game until they decided whoever lost three times would go down and buy dinner for them. so anyway after that i started losing. POO. then yeah in the end i had to buy the dinner. then i was nice enough to run all the way down to goodness knows where to get buble tea for them. then after that. i cant rmb much. amanda jessie deborah eunice and g abwai appeared for the night service. they didnt come in the day. then went to amanda's house to sleepover that night. had a good talk with her on the way back. i love talking la. yakyak yak. hahahah. my favourite past time!

i should so seriously paragraph this whole thing.

then i cant rmb what else happened. oh went lunch and stared at the guys playing pool on sunday? jessie and i were on the couch. talking.haha. then dinner. then went home. then yeah. i cant rmb what happened on monday.
OH IRMB NOW. grace and i went to bea's house to do viv's farewell thing. we gave it to her yesterday and it looks super nice. seriously. this whole fat file of notes and pages and all from our class to her. oh anyway. i went to the zoo on thursday with my family. haha! good family time. and then went to sentosa yesterday. fun fun. with two tee people. went on this water bee thing. then we did the luge and skyride. my second time. this time, i did NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT bump into anything on the way down in the luge this time okay. totally did NOT. i have just proven to the whole entire world that i, janice soon, apparently CAN drive. haha!
and we played monkey, and bball. and sat in the water. and ate and ate. haha.

AIYA I DONT KNOW WHAT IS WRONG WITH BLOGGER I CANT UPLOAD THE PICS.
another time.
SEE EVERYONE AT RETREAT : D

drifted

2007-05-31T16:19:00.000+08:00

how did things even end up like that.
it used to be so happy and perfect,
yeah there were quarrels,
but i had the best friend i could ever ask for,
i had someone i could say just about everything to,
someone available 24/7
someone i knew would always be there for me
someone i always looked forward to talking to and seeing
someone i knew would help me grow
someone i dearly loved.
just what happened?
we're so near, yet so far now.
you're like a stranger now.
i don't know anything about you now.
how i wish i could turn back the hands of time
and do things differently this time.
i'm sorry things turned out this way.

vietnam!

2007-05-19T21:40:00.000+08:00

i haven't blogged in the longest time. i just find it so lazy to blog.
vietnam was incredible. amazing. heaps of fun and this really great educational experience.
i loved it so much. vietnam is this beautiful place that has had alot of chinese influence but still has its rich and unique culture. so we went to the airport on sunday morning. it was all so exciting! but i was kindof scared smth would happen on the trip. talked to jessie quite abit. i brought my phone along. so after we got past the gates we went to walk aronnd for awhile. then i called jessie and sent afew msgs on the plane before take off. i got the window seat:D but cos the seats were pre allocated not by us. by the airport people. they put me alone. grah. viv came over to seat with me anyway. i felt so honoured. like she's leaving for canada soon (she's migrating there. for good) and i get to room with her and partner her and all. so when we got there we felt like movie stars. vietnam airport is kindof small. there're standard of life and living is well, not as good as singapore. needless to say. we went to ho chi minh city. it is three times the size of singapore, population is twice as large as ours. but they just seem soooooo densely populated. its divided into district one, two three blahblah until ten. district one is like the most primal area, the rich area. land is given out by the govt to those like war heroes or smth. its kindof dirty there. electrical wires just hang all over streets. people litter like nobody's business. main form of transport is motorcycles. much less cars. its so polluted on the roads there that many motorists wear masks. anyway. so first thing when we got there, we went to lunch. nice restaurant. there was this long long table and everyone sat across each other. and i sat at one end. the breadth. and i was like the 'head' of the table. so they asked me to say grace. and from then on, i said grace for the table i was at for every meal. haha. i liked that anyway. and they gave us a pair of chopsticks each as a gift. so nice of them. we went to tour the city. we went to the post office. it looks well, nicer than most of the rest of hcmc. there arent many tall buildings in hcmc, except for district one where there are office buildings by like international companies. mncs. or singapore consulate. keppel land has an office in one of those buildings too. and theres a hong leong building too. or was it hsbc. one of them la. haha.then we got to see notre dame cathedral. it was built by the french. beeeeeeeeautiful building. lovely architecture. then dinner on this ferry. there was a live band and all. some dance performance by this fire dancer. then at the hotel, chris and jess, therest of my iso group was in the room next to ours. it was conjoined rooms but we only got it opened on like wednesday? haha. then on wed night anna came over and we stayed up talking till like twelve when it was lights out so anna hadto go back cos the teachers came round checking. then viv went to sleep. so chris jess and i had some heart to heart haha. then we slept at 1.30. then what else. over the next few days, we went shopping:D went to a few places. bargaining is a lifeskill. i spent more than one million dong. one SGD - 10000 dong. haha. so it was about 1oo sing. plus some US too. bought quite abit. haha. we went to vietsing industrial park the next day. it looks super singapore. probably cos of the roads and streetlamps and all. and the buildlings too. felt good. haha. it was quite big. we got a talk by a singaporean working there.the chief. good talk of econs. then we also went to hist museum, war musuem. hist museum was kindof uh. ancient. haha. we watched a water puppet show. its this like small pool with curtains at the back and puppets dancing. we spent the whole time trying to figure out how they did it. it turned out there were wooden sticks attached and people controlling from behind the curtains.then war museum was super interesting. we went to cu chi tunnels. vietcong spent 20 years buildingit. they hid there from the japs. we went in. its soooo small and well hidden. i went in for like ten minutes and came out sweating sweating. haha. its really small. either crawl or squat and waddle like a duck. we watched this short video before going into cuchi. some propaganda film about how bad americans are. then they had medals like 'best american extinguisher' and all. yeah. but the vietnamese won the war in the end. well. american retreated. for those who dont know. vietcong are communist. and as we all know. US is super super pro-democracy. they didnt want the rest of the world to turn communist so they decided to take matters into their own hands and yeah. it was really an eye-opener. then we went to singapore consulate and got this superb talk by the council-general. who happens to be grace chuas dad. haha. and we also went to the general sciences library. we got this room which was the childrens section. my group was performance. we did this dance to grease lightning. so seventies. fun. haha. tiring. we spent three hours there. entertaining them. we sang songs and taught them actions. we did like seven times a day and chicken dance and hokey pokey. haha. they have alot of energy. the teachers later told us they saw the other rooms and they were packed full. the viets are really knowledge-hungry. and yeah. thats about all. and i cantrmb what else. haha. we ate alot?
and then on thurs i got a pleasant surprise. jessie amanda josh caleb and dansoh came to pick me up from the airport! so sweet of them. i was like shocked. i walked out and amanda went 'janice!' haha. i was looking in my mums direction actually so i didnt see them. so happy they came down. make me feel so loved. haha. then cabbed home. gave out souvenirs to my family. then on friday went to sch late. was msging toh who was in sch on the way to sch. it felt like a holiday la. i felt so foreign to everything. even my hp. haha.haha. we had to report at nine. first period was PE. ahhhhhh. so annoying .haha. we played pickle ball again. fun fun. i like playing with michelle chan. she plays it like badminton.haha. then friday came home and watched all the recorded nine o clock shows i missed. my bro recorded for me. so nice of him right. haha. then toh called and he hadnt eaten lunch so he took 198 to the bus stop behind my house then i went down. walked to jec. watch him eat 'lunch'. it was like five smth. he had two servings. one for lunch one for dinner? tell him all about vietnam and. oh yes. i had three experiences with lecherous guys there. the cheekopeks. haha. and i told him about them too. and yeah then we walked back to my house there. and we had mango for dinner. yay my mama. then i didnt nth much at night. attempt to pack my bag for camp? haha. then this morning. sheesh had to wake ups so early. camy at EIGHT FORTY FIVE. mels idea.haha. i was like five mins late? not bad la. sam was there doing math. so i told him about vietnam. then went upstairs and 'jammed' today was a lil sian for me? haha we learnt how to do sound engineering. im quite dumb at it. im not exactly the sort. haha. im sure everyone knows that. then went lunch with jessie toh caleb. had the chicken rice at fareast. havent gone there in soooo long. then jessie went off. meet her friends celebrate someones birthday. so we three walked and walked and walked around. then we finally sat down at heeren the upstairs there. then sit sit sit. talk crap. then sit and wait for caleb to send smth to his friend. he didtn in the end. and we spent so much time sitting there. like 45 mins? gah. then calebwent off to PAYAR LEBAR to showhis friend a poster-.- haha. so i walked around with toh for awhile. went to the apple shop at cine. i never knew it existed. LOL=x then had to go down to changi to pick my dad up from overseas. so toh being nice offered to lend me his ipod. his precious ipod. haha. so i explored it on the way there. then went dinner at changi. then yeah. im home now. lala. thats all. im super tired.
NIGHTS ALL.
THIS WAS A LENGTHY POST.
I DONT BLAME YOU IF YOU DIDN'T READ ALL OF IT.
HAHA.

just so you know( jesse mccartney

2007-04-29T16:59:00.000+08:00

we got gold with honours for syf(:
i couldn't ask for more ( well i literally can't anyway. haha.) God is so good!
the following manner is a brief sequence of how i broke the news to charlotte and johann :
alot of schools got silver, alotof schools got bronze. alot of schools got cop(cert of participation). SIGH. we didnt get a gold.-pretend to be sad- then the person will go 'so what did youre get. silver?' shake head ' bronze' shake head' COP?!' shake head. 'THEN? ... GOLD WITH HONOURS ' smiles : D

i think im a hungry person. im so hungry all the time. and i always want chocolate. im HUNGRY. and i love whining. LOL. sorry, sudden change in subject. really dont feel like blogging about everything. im lazy!
grace and i stayed over at laura's house on monday night. so fun. oh but i lost my toothbrush. i can just hear myself telling myself 'LOSER.' i mean like, how can you lose a TOOTHBRUSH. i dont believe it. and fyi, i lost it AFTER i brushed my teeth okay.. and we did our misswee thing. sit around the speakers and listen to the syf song and like just get into the mood and all. kindof scary and eerie and i was really afraid considering what the song sounded like. for those who have heard it before you'd know what im talking about. okay then second time we did the dance sitting down, just upper body and arms, eyes close. its super cool. anyway during that exercise, someone called me and i took awhile to realise. actually pooie was the one who realised. then when i picked it up theperson hung up. then i got annoved. like aiyaaaaaa. then i was like whining. and so laura and grace found out i get annoyed. so they started prank calling me. use grace's hp and call. then when i pick up they hang up. and we were next to each other some more. annoying la! and of course i didnt know until they called like twenty times and they finally toldme before i slept. i found out who called me the first time in the end though. haha. and my cell is super encouraging. esp gaomin. msg me the night before syf and myes to tell me to jiayou and all. thanks gao gao! (: and oh my entire cell wore pink today. hahahahaha. it was planned. then our performance at ucc wasnt like our very very very best. but it was pretty good. i was hoping for high gold, sharon thought we would get bronze. and aiya. we watched a few schs after us. i thought kranji sec did really welldespite their costume malfunction. but they danced nicely.great performance! well if any of them ever read this.which i doubt. haha. anyway, mrs poh and mrs ang treated us to vila'ge on friday night. SO NICE OF THEM RIGHT. oh wait wait. myes first. on friday had midyears. lifescience was like superb or anything. chem was not bad i felt. i HOPE. haha. then took napfa 5 items. i got full marks for everything again this year. oh my 2.4 was last week. 13.17. disgustingly horrible. but its still and A. lala!:D hahaha. then had vietnam briefing. and grace and laura were super sweet. they waited in the concourse for my briefing-which lasted 1 hr, to end so we could go laura's house to bathe. then we somehow took a long time. then we cabbed down to cine. then laura the annoying dragged us to famous amos then subway then mrs fields and cldnt decide on the cookie she wanted. then grace 'aiya!' then bought a cookie for herself. then laura still 'ehh should i get a lalalal or lalalala' then im like 'OHMYGOSH!-.-' haha. so she bought a big fat cookie in the end. then we went earring shopping. and grace trusts my taste. she has decided on 3 pairs of earring at two different shops trusting my taste.haha. then we metup with jia, then walked over to heeren. then went to cactus and pine, wait for them to buy earrings and hairbands. then walk walk walk more. then went to vila'ge. wait wait wait for everyone. then went in. and mrs ang and mrs poh treated the whole syf group. everyone but charleen was there. so 23 people. plus jer-last years dance president. now in nj, and ms deborah ng. a temporary teacher who happens to take charge of dance too. then our table - my clique - grace laura jia charlotte and me, had a soup each, shared one squid and chicken saussage pasta.I DIDNT EAT A SINGLE SQUID. and a pizza. choose your own toppings. the 5th toppings was half of it (one side of the pizza) was green, red and yellow pepper/capsicum. the other half was squid. the capsicum side was my side. duhh. then the squid side was grace. everyone else just ate well. they ate from myside actually.HAHA GRACE. and we had drinks. i had a iced vanilla latte with WHIPPED CREAM.mmmm sweetly fattening.omg.haha. and two rostis. i shared with laura. and a choc fondue. and a waffle with strawberries and icecream. we invited the secones to someof our fondue. so nice of us right. and yeah i think thats all. cant believe we ate so uhm.little. but i felt super bloated.haha.but I WANT THE FOOD NOW.IM REALLY HUNGRY NOW. took lots and lots of pics. with their cams. i dont have them yet. then after dinner was over and thanking the teachers loudly and making the staff stare, we split up. so our clique went upstairs. cos laura and jia bugged and whined so much grace and i agreed to take neoprints. cos earlier on we said no cos we're kindof sick of neoprints and we hardly take anymore and its a huge waste of money and anyway grace and i have enough neoprints together. we took twice with laura as well. but never with jia. so yeah we took. so fun. and pretty.haha. we did like zaki poses. for two of the pics. haha. then we went home. got home at 10 plus. oh and jer bought us roses. haha.
then yesterday. camy jamming. i played for team 2 cos yiting's exams are not overyet. and then after that for my own team. it was much much more productive and fruitful than last week. i felt last weekw as well, kindof a waste. then went home. then today. elissa didnt come cos she sprained her ankle. then grace did too but she came and sat on a chair. then mel was feeling sick so she only came for service. then we all except for grace, sat on the floor and made get wellsoon cards for elissa and mel while doing our weekly sharing and thanksgiving. i love that part of cell. i always have alot, and well, the most to say. haha. i think no one is surprised. soldiers joined us cos their cell was super small. then service.
worship was really really nice. i enjoyed it alot. first time i sang 'blessed be your name' with so much .i just meant it so much and the words just were so real to me and i really encountered God and i felt worship was so rich today. not like half the time when you just sing without pondering about the lyrics. i really meant what i sang today and i like the song 'all i want is you' as well. then went up for altar call. and i shant say anything about that. kindof personal.

i really really love hugs. so uh everyone, hug me when you see me. applies to girls only. haha. but the girls who are in the closer group of friends to me already do everytime i see them and they see me. jessie amanda, dance clique. well, not my classmates. i see them EVERYDAY so its kindof uh. yeah. haha. only sometimes. and michelle wee. haha. hugs are just so enlifting and comforting sometimes yea(:

okay i think thats enough fornow.

lots of things going on

2007-04-20T22:05:00.000+08:00

hmm lots have been going on the past few days, and i really don't know where to start and all and i can't rmb how i feel. but i think this week my lesson was to try to learn to really and truly depend on God. havent really completed the lesson yet though, i dont think im there yet. but its amazing how through every circumstance we face, we see smth that will just pull us closer to God, that will reveal to us something wonderful about Him. He's really interesting and there's so many layers of Him, He's so intricate, there's just too much of Him i can contain, really.

alright ithink i'll start from weds. the past few days, i've really been dreading the days to come. because today i had 2.4, monday theres intense dance prac. then stayover at laura on monday night with grace too, wait this part i dont dread. i really look forward. haha. then thursday 5 items for napfa. i dont mind the 5 items, i mind that its just before midyears. tuesday mep exam after syf. wait i look forward to syf too. haha. kindof i guess. and friday is midyears.

so wed we met at church to discuss the stuff for camy training. cos we're supposed to come up with a full worship set, songs and all. and aiya its not gone very far. the harmony took up almost all the time, besides deciding what songs we'll do. the songs are all in diff keys accept for the first two. grahhh. we're going to church one hr earlier to work all those out. bleh. and so anyway i went to alexandra hospital in the afternoon for second treatment for that tooth that's giving me problem. it hasnt been pain but it requires two treatments. then after that uhm okay. this part is ridiculous. i mean i feel stupid, really. i called toh and asked him how to get to church from there cos AH doesnt have 111 or 132. he said take 51. so i took 51 on the side of AH. then take take take, then the bus went to commonwealth there. so i thought, okay must be wrong direction, cos i didnt ask him take from which side. so i got off, cross the road, and just missed 51. so i waited for the next 51, which took quite long. so take take take, pass AH, then guess what. the bus went to PASIR PANJANG. OMG I WAS STRANDED THERE. then i got off, and 51 passed on the opp side of the road justbefore i crossed. so i had to cross and i waited really really really long this time for the next 51. you know that feeling you get when yo umiss a bus is really horrid. yeah so i got to church kindof late. but tohwas nice enough to walk me to church from the bus stop. then discuss the songs. oh my team, team 1 consists of melong, jessie elizabeth, amanda, matthew sam and myself.and we dont exactly have a bassist so one of the laolaos will step in. then yeah. we're doing the set songs time has come, freedom we know, all the earth will sing your praises(we chose) mighty to save(also we chose) then at the cross. and all are in diff keys except first two so i dont know whats going to happen.
and then on thursday dance was well. okay la. we had zaki. our hair is going to be quite coool. like this silver flowery thing that you wind around your bun then continue one more round like a hairband around your head. its BEAUTIFUL, really. makes us look like greek goddesses. haha. thats what someone said. makeup is pretty. just lilac eyes. some glittery stuff around the eyes, normal blusher, pink lipstick. i think fake eyelashes. and a choker apparently but we havent got it from miss wee yet. yeah. and mg strings ensemble got gold. i mean its pretty good but theyre upset cos 5 out of 12 schs there today got gold with HONS. those are ri, dunman, st nicks acsi and i cant rmb what else. rg got gold only. so much pressure for dance. and miss kon and mrs goh and mrs yap came to watch us do the dance once today. for those who dont know, they're our principal and two of our FOUR viceprincipals.they said some smiling some not. but during prac i smiled alot so yeah. i think everyone was encouraging each other alot and everyone was really smiling, mostly genuine. it was lovely. and yeah. performance quality was much better. but not good enough for a gold. yet. well we're supposed to be in a blissful state of mind so im trying my best not to get irritated. LOL.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSIE: D
today's her birthday. everyone go wish her.haha. met her on the bus. boy i received like 50 smses today. everytime i take out my phone i have so many msgs. because of the meet for dinner thing, and some inefficiency in amanda liu. AHEM. and some classmates and some exclassmates. today is sms janice day. haha. so anyway, she got on 67 and then i boarded so we could bus down together to coronation at 5plus. then met sam there, then caleb came next,then finally toh. then we went to walk around. my first time in coronation. LOL. then we went to prince to eat dinner. some western place. i had uh chicken chop. i had absolutely no idea what the diff was between chicken cutlet and chicken chop. chop is grilled, cutlet is fried. now i know. haha. then ate. the food was alright la. i didnt really have much appetite so i finished last and ate the slowest. and i wanted to tell everyone this really funny joke but everytime i went 'so can i talk now' sam would purposely change the sub. so i never got to tell that. boo. im so hurt.
then oh we were going to go to sams hse to i dont know do what. watch the guys jam and use his com? haha. then anyway after we boarded the bus i decided i should go for the briefiing for adventure camp in may evern though i would be half an hr late. but i so guai, i went anyway. and pungsehed them. ooops. aiya i didnt want to make my mum upset. cos i told her i would go for her to listen. the hall was what half filled. so many empty chairs. so i just slipped in. they were showing us pictures and talking about our activites there. its in the middle of the jungle. smack there. but there are dorms. and the wildest animals there are wild boars, which we probably wldnt encounter. and there are alot of wet activities like river crossing and a monkey bar across water and if you cant make it across you fall in it. haha. and all the parents were so over anxious of their kids. i think mg girls are sometimes really, too pampered and their parents cant let go of them for four days and not communicate with them at all for 4 days. my parents dont exactly mind. haha. ohwells.
i think thats all. cant be bothered to write anymore.
my tagboards seriously dying and ohwell. life goes on. i cant wait for tmr. camy is always one ofr the highlights of the week. simply enjoy it. really great(:
and tmrs njc open house. and im not going cos we're lunching for jessies one day late lunch bday. so yeah. but haoqing and ervin asked me to go. and ohwell. i have to go for jessie. anyway, i dont plan to go to nj. haha.
okay, have a great weekend everyone, please get your rest and don't fall sick, midyears are coming up for most of us im sure.

thank God for adora.

2007-04-16T22:32:00.000+08:00

today was a bad day. kindof discouraging and disappointing.
and the word rotten just floated around my mind on the way home after followup.
but our God is amazing, His hand never fails to uplift, His spirit never fails to encourage.
adora just asked me out of the blue just now if i was fine and prayed for me and i just feel God hasnt forgotten me and He still cares.
thank God for adora, thank God for loving me(:

goodfriday, swisshotel, polkadotted dress

2007-04-08T12:56:00.000+08:00

good afternoon my darlings and dears(:
haha i just got off the phone with sam. so happy. i justfreaked him out about how Jesus suffered so much before He died. on wed during discover Jesus service in sch i finally realised how much He paid for us. its really touching. and scary.
went to swissotel after goodfriday service to stay over. went shopping: D and igot a polka dotted dress. ITS SUPER CUTE AND I LOVE IT!<3 dont="x">
because i was wearing that dress.
it all started during camy, before we sang toh's first bday song when joey went 'janice, how many months already?' he meant how many months pregnant. ahhhhhhh. then adora was like' whos the father' and i was continually suanned the entire day. until mep concert. nice mg people didnt suan me. haha. the nice people were lanz and chris who said my dress was nice. or maybe lanz just said it so i wldnt whine about not being pregnant. haha. oh yes then we took mrt to bukit gombak and went to get food cos the guys were hungry AS USUAL. then it was raining:( then took a bus to g2. worship was fun. but i felt kindof weird jumping around in a dress. haha. and an attention-seeking one at that. then left service early to go to mep concert. ate at cafe cartel at raffles again. bleh. i just had sandwiches. dainty pretty sandwiches. haha. then mep concert was by yongsiewtoh conservatory orchestra. the nus one. theyre not bad. i love their conductor. mrs chan got us better tickets for once. we got to sit on the first floor. haha. but third row. some super expressive solo celloist called qin li wei was there. and i love the principal celloist. her name is elizabeth tan. i just like her .and i think she's pretty.she's got a clear face. haha. the soloist played THREE ENCORES. haha. and the orchestra played an encore. POMP AND CIRCUMSTANCE :DDDD lovethat piece. they played that really well.and grandly.
im hungry and im going to eat now.
TOODLES(:

beauty

2007-04-03T20:56:00.000+08:00

beauty isnt always aesthetically pleasing.
half the things we see we do not think of as beautiful.
but the truth is - Jesus created all things bright and beautiful
everything, nature,animals and every single human is indeed a beautiful piece of art.
however unpretty or unhandsome we may consider a person, the person is still beautiful.at least the person was created beautiful and meant to be.
beauty is not all but skindeep. (my definition is that)it is rather the quality of a person, and the creativeness, sincerity and love by which nature ( including humans)was created.more often than not, it is innocent. innocent in the sensethat it was created out of pure and good motives and when it was first created, it was pure and right before God.
in my prayers, when im adoring God, i always tell Him he is beautiful. because i know He is so sweet, pure, Holy and kind. and He is salient. He is exceptional.
when you realise that its your beauty that makes you stand out from the rest.

anyone, if anyone ever calls you ugly, or not pretty, know that you were created beautiful, meant to be beautiful, and are beautiful.
to me, beauty outweighs superficialities like prettiness and handsomeness.

yesterday

2007-04-01T18:23:00.000+08:00

friday was my last ballet lesson. super super super sad. i went home and cried. and emelia gave me wormie. some cute thing. and huiming and clara got me chocs.ahhhh. so sad. theres nth i can do about it. but i do hope i get to do ballet again one day.
camy prac yesterday. last training session. next week onwards will be jamming sessions. so fun.haha. but i'll miss the lesson time. its more personal and smaller and yeah(:ohwell but im sure jamming will be fun too. after camy went to tohs house with jessie and davchoo. sit around do nth, then watch friends. i dont know why we watched it. then keith came. then we went to cine. ate at pasta mania. we were celebrating keiths bday. then went to heeren cos to find him a shirt for his bday. then dansoh appeared. then lanz appeared. then talk talk talk walk walk walk find shirt. go zara topshop espirit gap and everywhere. still cannot find smth satisfying. then lester appeared. then went to uh. i cant rmb where. i think espirit. or smth. a repeated shop.then finally got his shirt. 90 bucks=x ouch. haha. it was fun though. but by that time already six plus. then took a bus down to kap 'dinnered' with laura pooie and jia. i didnt exactly eat anything. just two fries from jia?haha. and my iced lemon tea(: i wasnt hungry. and they almost killed me for being half an hr late. actually forty mins. then walked to mg for dance dance. its this dance competition/concert. i voted for this group of four guys from cjc and sajc. two from each sch i think. called innocent boys. very coordinated, original, creative, impressive. it was a performance. there was an mg one from dance club. sa cher sharon candice ally vicky alicia yiling. they got second. innocent boys got first. rockefella, some acsi breakdancing group got third. yeps. it was quite okay i guess. then after that i found cherry and sam and cherry was going to meet some ac sec three guy whom shes never seen before in her entire life and added her on friendster cos he came for the concert too so she convinced me to go kap with her. so we met. it was so awkward. haha. meeting people like that is never a good idea. cos he had this big group of friends with him as well. blah.
played for cellworship today, gab lead. then service then street e after service. it was good. i paired with gladys we went to tiong plaza. then our dear uh. stalkers. no lah. toh sam sams cousin keith dansoh davchoo. went too.tohs great idea i think. but they didnt do street e. and all the people gladys and i met either rejected us nicely or listened attentively. there were two sec two girls who gave us their msn and yeah. so happy about that. but no one was free to make it for easter power praise. i think i'll be leaving early for power praise cos ofmep concert. then after that rachael treated all of us to sweet talk :D haha.
this friday is good friday service. g1 and 2. everyone please go.
sat 5-7 g2 is easter power praise. please go too.
if you want more, attend adult on sunday. g1 and 2.
thats all. haha.

pool : D and jess' and my lame convo

2007-03-27T19:31:00.000+08:00

we had mep today. and while the other groups were presenting their indian music stuff, jess and i were editing and beautifying our ppt. then she opened a word doc. and started typing stuff. so i replied. and here's our convo. she made me save it in my thumb.
(jess)Janice soon is a…… hmm.. WEIRDO ((:
Just joking
(me)Jessica lim is a …….. hmm. ……….. DOULBE WEIRDO : DDDDDDDDD
(jess)Janice is just.. A TRIPLE >>> SUPER DUPER WEIRDO :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
(me)I’ll settle this. JESS IS WEIRDER THAN JAN.HAPPY? : D EVERYONE IS! YAYYYYYYY. WHOOOOOOOOOOOLIKE REAL
(jess)-__________- this is not true.
I think the Janice soon is the weirdest person in the world.
Everyone is now happy xD
The Indian song is so cute
(me)But see right, we already established that you are weirder than I am. Therefore, you are, not a human = JESS IS A ALIEN FROM MARS XDWHY NOT JUPITER?XD
(jess)Janice is just a .. weirdo MARTIAN FROM>> PLUTO or SEDNA xDDYou are so weird Janice, you eat … diapers xD
(me)+jess you’re weirder.
You eat the stuff in the diapers?
(jess)UhThere’s no stuff in the diapers
You just eat it whole
(me)-pukes- VOMITS ALL OVER JESS’ NOW UNCLEAN HAIR.OH HOORRAYY
(jess)Vomits on Janice the weirdo too ((:
And ErmSmashes the diapers full of vomit and what not on her HEAD ((:
and in her MOUTH and in her EAR and NOSE and EYES? xD YAY
And the earth is now not threatened by the MARTIAN Janice soon who eats diapers anymore.
(me)You only made me look like a martian,or alien or wdv.
But im NOT . im HUMAN.
YOOHOOO.
Look whos talking, the alien’s calling the human alien.
(jess)BUTYou must see that the “human” Janice soon is an alien in disguise. And Jessica the “martain” is a human in disguise.

ROCK THE PARTY
BOMBAY ROCKERS

okay all that stuff is rubbish. and on sunday, we went to ps for lunch. adora escaped her cm meeting by telling them she's going lunch with me to 'talk' to me. hahahahaha. so we talked. but not about those scary serious stuff. haha. went with one whole big group. then after that went to meridian to play pool :D there was adora nicole jtoh davchoo dansoh jondave and me. and atfirst only the guys played. two games i think. we just sat on the chairs and watched? then nicole wanted to play, then she asked me to play with her. and im quite bad so i didnt really want to. but i played anyway. i tried breaking the triangle. it was horrible =x haha. but the game part was quite okay actually.
oh and they ate carl's junior for lunch. nicole and i didnt want to cos its uh. big and fattening. so we went around looking for food. then we found secret recipe. she had some choc cake. i had apple cheese cake. mms. then we wre still hungry, so we went to get fries. haha. and all through lunch, me her davchoo and danso were at the same table and we were talking about gory movies. haha. i watched final destination 2 on sat night. freaked me out like anything. its such a super thriller! plenty of gore actually, but it was censored. haha.
oh and sat camy practice was really really good. i learnt alot. we did second keys. so first i played i believe the promise first keys. that was quite hard, the timing is crazy. but anyway yiting played second keys for that. then she played church on fire and i played second for that. the second keys were so coooool! it was super funky.rather jazz, i got to mess around with it. then i played at the cross and she did second keys. and that was all. it was really uh, enriching and enlightening(: funfun. next week is our last camy lesson :( super sad. i really really enjoyed the seven lessons so far.it was what i looked forward to every single week.
i shall not blog anything that makes anyone or myself think tonight.
and today is the frst day in history since many many years( im not kidding) that we dont have any hw. anna went crazy over that after sch. haha.

im so sorry but i cant help myself. i need to write smth.
i think it takes courage to cry. its not easy.
i admire when people cry openly and outrightly.
its not easy, especially for guys.
i mean crying, not whining and such.

and we started film literacy! basically what we do is during langarts and hcl, we watch films and analyse them. every monday. so on monday we watched 'mother' by royston tan. those who dont know who he is, please check if you're a real singaporean. haha. its about this guy growing up. he was gay. he was very mean to his mum. and returned her love with hate, and rebellion. it is a short five minute film, just slides of pictures of little boys and girls. it goes in the format 'you blahblahblah, i blahblahblah' e.g. 'you love, i lust' 'you greeted me every morning, i never bothered to say goodbye' (he left home ten years ago) its like this voice over reading out all these stuff. this bad boy took cigarettes, went for orgies(or is it orgys?) and took drugs. 'you(his mum) believed in God, he blamed her' its really touching. some people cried. but it was too short for alot of us to cry, not enough time to build up the emotions and tears. haha.
but ohwell. laoshi enlightened me on issues and motion statements for arguementative essays today. i feel so. enlightened.

ballet, golf and lanz (:

2007-03-18T17:05:00.000+08:00

ballet exam last thursday. it wasnt as good as i could do.
golf pc test on friday. i passed, thank God.
yesterday no camy training :( cause there was abm so g1 was closed. and i didnt go for abm.
had lanz's bbq thing. for those who dont know, he's moving to new creation.
so amanda came over to my house cos we were supposed to meet, with jessie, at clementi at 4.30. i was still at home. and late late late as usual. then amanda stop at clementi still no one there so she came to jurong and i was still at home and so she came up to my place. then watch me pack then we cabbed to clementi to meet jessie, get the big vanguard sheet and buy caleb's cake. then we three cabbed to blossomvale at serene ng's condo. then i drew a super super hot& sexy cow! and okay it was quite ugly. but that makes it hot. okay. warped reasoning.then davidchooooo and keef drew like grass and a sun and butterfly and dragonfly to beautify my cow. haha. then we got everyone to sign on it and write well wishes for lanzthroughout the night. then we uh ate? and ate and ate? and we sat down and watched stars for a little while. cos there was this particular star that was really really pretty. then ps cuixian came later on. haha i helped bbq a few hotdogs and honeyed them. i got a big kick out of honeying hotdogs and chicken. they taste fabulous with honey. im really really hungry now(; and then put the cow on the floor somewhere nearby and put four sparklers around it. brought lanz and everyone around it and he was like' eh got sparklers' then he realised there was smth in the middle. then hepicked it up. and he looked touched(: it was such a touching moment(: then the inefficient us only brought out caleb's cake like five mins late. it was supposed to come out like after lanz finishes oohing and ahhing then we supposed to happy birthday caleb. but there was some uhm. problem in lighting the candles. partly it was because it was my great idea to get eighteen small candles instead of eight small and one big one. cos i thought eighteen small candles makes everything cuter. which it actually didnt. cos the cake no space. then yeah we went back to the shelter and bbq pit there and continue eating? and sit on the playground and talk. while sam played guitar and the guys serenaded lanz. but he was also singing la. then uh. we went home? haha. at about ten twenty we all left. i mean we started packing up and 10 10 but we were all super slow. and i had to be home by 10.30 or my mama would kill me. so dansoh davchoo jondave and i cabbed back .the jurong people. i alighted first. haha. cos i was already late. i reached home at ten 37. but i didnt get scolded. first thing i said was sorry mummy im seven mins late. then she mm. go sleep. thank God! amandas mummy came to pick her, lester and jessie bused home together, i think cuixian brought the redhill people back with her. oh yeah the people who went for the bbq were serene, amanda jessie jtoh sam caleb keef kenneth cc dansoh davchoo graceteh adora melong lester pscuixian and LANZ! haha of course. and me :D
and we had a great time.
and oh yes before i left i almost forgot but i didnt i passed lanz this GREEEEEEEEN:D card i made earlier on in the day. haha we cldnt hug of course so we shook hands. and aiya i dont know what to say. i wonder if i ever will see lanz again. well it w asreally great knowing him at all.

screwing things up, and how i feel

2007-03-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

i havent blogged in eons. 9 days already! haha.
today is justin wong's birthday and yesterday was caleb's birthday. for those who havent yet, do wish them a happy/belated birthday. hmm i havent talked to justin in the longest time. but he certainly was a dear friend to me. very nice to talk to, lots of encouragement and i find him very different from normal guys. in a good way. i mean im not saying he's abnormal or anything. haha.
and i guess most people already know that im stopping ballet. my mum thinks i have no time for anything else. which i agree with. and therefore i have to st op ballet to make time for everything else. which are syf, camy, church/cell, school, piano&theory, guit. and my personal life + social life.and most of these, by the way, are detioriating horrendously. gosh i dont know how to spell deteoriating. or whatever. haha. like oh syf is fine actually. we had dance day camp on tuesday and thursday and zaki finished the entire dance. its called bliss. we have duper pretty costume(which we havent yet seen but know the design) and the song is this chanting song. i think its religious. its called prema shanti dharma satya. which means uh. love of the creation of truth or smth like that. i just know it has buddhist stuff to it luh. which is not really good. sung by sheila chandra. who h appens to hve also written and sung some buddhist songs. so. aiya. my spiritual life isnt too good now. its been in the rocks for some time already. just that i dont knowif anyone has noticed. and i guess i havent really bothered about it. i mean much as i want to pull this whole act together again, i just can't seem to find the time and motivation and dedication to the Lord. and i wonder if the syf song is bothering it. and im in the syf intro. 11 of us are in. but we enter at diff times. and i have some of my own steps. like im the only one doing that step. standing then kneeling somewhere near the front. and the intros quite cool. cos its just like some draggy singing without beats so its free timing. we just do everything slowly. the feel of the dance is zen-like. like just floaty and heavenly.
hmmmmms(:
piano. ohwell havent been practicing much. but i havent last year either. which probably explains my lousy merit for grade 7. my cher wants me to get distincion for this grade, (8) which i think is possible. do forgive my overconfidence. but im quite certain that so long as i work for it. i will get my distinction. t hing is im not. working for it.
and there's no camy this sat cos its abm and g1 will be closed. im sad.
alright i shall just update on what ive been doing over the past few days.
even though i know and i realise that it is rather pointless telling the whole world in detail every scrutinizing detail of my out-of-shape life but. grah i just cant be bothered with all these purpose and direction stuff anymore. i want to stop labelling things. like 'if i do that, i'll be contradicting myself' or 'thats a fallacy' or 'if i tell my friend about how this person is gossiping about me, then i'll be gossiping about that person so i dont exactly have a right to complain about that person anymore'. all these labelling of situations, these rubbish about . LOOK AT THE WORD RUBBISH. i dont have a right to call it rubbish and its not. and all these moral and nonmoral actions, whatever is upright and stuff. its really getting to me and driving me nuts. i feel like i have one foot in my grave already you know. like i have a whole head of thinned white hair thats falling out by the minute. im a balding old woman who's frail frame cant support her dented brain and i just cant do anything anymore.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
there's too much pressure on me and everything i do. and i dont care where its coming frmo. from sch, teachers, friends, parents from MYSELF. and i know everyone goes like'shes barely 14, what does she know about the world and her stress is probably nothing compared to mine' and all. aiya the small fry shall shutup.

you know i always wonder what it'll be like when i grow older. and oh yes everyone. be nice polite respectful and gentlemanly to the elderly. you'll be one of them one day.

ohyes and so for last week's 'events'. cross country on thursday. haha we all got our new house shirts. mines totally blue. BLACKMORE :D i ran like. 30 mins? i dont know. i walked the last 1/3 the way cos i met graace. well grace met me. then we walked and talked. and ran some. then she h ad stitches. so i walked wi th her. and forced her to run the rest of the way.
and clarefong came in first for c div. crazy woman. haha. clare rocks!
blackmore got overall second. then went to kap with grace laura jia charlotte. had a quick lunch. we were one of the first to get there. like five mins later, at least fifty mg girls filled kap up. there were at least 100 in the end i thnk. aLOT of mg girls wearing colourful shirts all over. haha then rushed back to sch for zaki rehersal. then HOME!
and friday. last day of term one. can't believe a whole term has passed so quickly. we sure are getting on with age! haha.family night! after a relaly tiring misswee's prac, went downstairs. found gracecheah. haha she had bubble tea! yeah! so i koped. well she offered me anyway. haha. then we just sat with other twotee people and watched the secthree SLs set up the benches. then a te dinner. the food was not bad for once. the thing we all ate most was the fruit tarts. the were delicious. i love custard fruit tarts. then halfway through dinner bea and grace s tarted with makeup. so everyone started doing makeup. its sofun to go around drawing and messing up peoples faces with a tube of lipstick and an eyebrow pencilxD hahaha!
then we got ready for family night! my dad and mum and bro came. but my dad only came for awhile cos he had some talk thingy. then we sang songs, played games, then performances. two tee did GREAT. but clare bea and i forgot to do a 'channae' shoots i dont know how to spell it. its this type of turn la. then only chris did. but nvm. no one really noticed. haha. and i have this solo part in the front where i do a split jete. it was the best i've ever done. jumped higher than i ever have, and straight straight straight. thank God!
and we learnt this song called 'dumdum dee dee dee' its not really a song. its like this thing you sing to annoy the whole world! LOL.
and i gave everyone in our class a hershey kiss to reward them(: then we stayed back to cleanup. and my dad came to pick us. sent sam home. oh and we took coconuts that were kindof deccorative. but the teacher said they were edible. i think mama threw ours away. haha.

alright. then camy was so so on sat. not really eventful. chooooo didnt come cos he was at jc orientation :( sam taught yiting and i. we kindof revisedthe previous week's second keys cos yiting wasnt here. then learnt tritone substitution. its like subbing in those weird johnmayer-like chords instead of the usual major nice sounding chords. yeahh. then golf. did chipping and bunkering. horrid. okay no one knows what im talking about right? so i shall shush up. haha.
then cell at night. it was super funny cos we were in the preschool room where they run the kindergarten and there were so many ants and millipedes! then we kept screaming. and gaomin caught a few and threw them away. cell was really enjoyable. and once again, i love scream<3
then after that we went outside g2 to wait for hilarys parents and cos during cell gladys and i were talking about what we want in our future husband/boyfriend so we had the convo on the way down and while wa iting for hilarys parents, then walked to busstop and continue. with gaomin and ga too. then gladys' bus came. then we three talk and talk and talk until my parents came then i sent them to mrt station. so fun luh!
okay here's what i want in my future bf/ husband:
1.he must love God, and be serving in a ministry
2. he must be really sweet and love me loads
3. taller than me, and preferably my ageo r odler. i prefer older actually
4. great sense of humour!
5. he doesnt have to be the best musician in the world but he cannot be tone deaf or no sense of rhythm or smth like that.haha.
6. appreciate my dancing mindlessly in the house
7. family-oriented guy
8. preferably educated at at least same level or higher than me. that means if i have a bachelor's degree in smth, he had better have at least a bachelors in whatever he wants too. if not masters or doctorate. LOL. so demanding right. cos if hes dumber than me, then im afraid i'll look down on him.
9. CHINESE! sorry call me racist or whatever you want. actually im not racist but still, i want a chinese man! mixed blood maybe can.
10. not too tall, not too short. uh not fat or flabby. not stick thin either. just average.
11. romantic!
12. HE MUST CHASE ME COS I WONT CHASE HIM. and do everythign a gentlemen is supposed to - pay for movies, open the door, let me walk first through a doorway or smth.
13. an un-shallow person
14. he must want to have kids. cos i want to.
15. not petty, hot-tempered nor short-tempered
16. i will not not not turn into his slave. he must respect me.
17. he must be warm, talkable to, listens to me when i have smth to say and my soulmate.
18. he can never ever ever ever ever EVER lie to me. OR ELSE.
19. know how to play sports. but he doesnt have to like be a pro at everything.
20. tell me to not wear miniskirts and never encourage me to wear miniskirts. (speaks alot about the guy)
21. not gossip
22. it doesnt matter if he can't cook or sweep.
23. i hope he can drive
24. i hope he's not a spendthrift. i mean i dont mind if he shops, but i mind if he buys everything he sees that he likes.
25. i know its off, but he can't be homosexual, transexual, bisexual or impotent.
26. not selfish or stingy
27. he can't look at other girls the moment we start going out. i mean he can s till have female friends though.
28. careful, not careless
29. love me for who i am, and think that im beautiful ( doesnt haveto think im pretty)
30. it wldnt hurt if he were goodlooking.

haha i think im quite demanding. but ohwells. its not that its impossible to find a guy like this actually.
okay and i think i shall continue another day. cos jessie amanda and i are conferencing now.
toodles!

stopping ballet

2007-03-07T20:57:00.000+08:00

it was official yesterday that janice soon has to stop ballet after learning it for six years.
thats just sad reality.
big girls do cry.

tribal dance

2007-03-03T20:16:00.000+08:00

okay i think i've more or less settled the tribal dance.yays(: just have to clean it up here and there. another wise the dance is done, the poses set, the music ready, and ive chosen a name. its to be called cocopah oglala. it means the river that scatters its own. i know its not the best meaning ever,but nevermind. haha. i like thename, it sounds cute(x
and to the whole world out there, you shld listen to 'quixote' by bond. its great! haha.
and i think this thing is good, cos it sortof bonds our class more(: actually i think twotee is alot more bonded than we were last year. and i realise i havent blogged in almost two weeks i think=x haha.
and its really encouraging when i hear like christine tell me 'jan!i practiced the dance:D' and then she showed me her whole part fluently. its really encouraging. and clare went' thanks for buying the shirts jan, i really appreciate it. its like. i mean it just feels so good to draw all of us closer and encourage one another with just a dance. okay i think my logic is errored but never mind. haha.
and i think ihave a competitive streak, which is driving me crazy.
i want to be exceptional, not just good.
im going nuts.
ahhhhhhh.
but really, i really really want to be exceptional. but of course icant be that in everything i am. and im beginning to wonder, am i really talented in any areas? i mean yes there are plenty of things i can do but i think of me as talented when im exceptional there. and really, im not exceptional anywhere, and that really gets me down.

i wrote a poem last night.
i really think im going cuckoo.LOL.

love quixote<3
xD

oh and ps everyone, my tagboards dying, so please tag when you read it(:
thanks dears!

oh and camy prac w as great today.yiting wasnt here:( so it was sam and me one to one. fun. i learnt plenty. and i tried second keys. with brass sections and strings. the strings sounded whoopers.

cny

2007-02-21T22:14:00.000+08:00

ohyes. and i forgot to blog about cny yesterday.
it was fun, i love my relatives. i was assigned to teach my nephews chinese. im a pretty good teacher.haha!
then eat eat eat. but not as much. not as much festivity as previous years i guess. still the new clothes and all. haha i wore my skirt witha crown on my butt -its a me and jessie joke-
then yeah. quite sian.
i have alot of great ideas on essays to write for myself to read. very unfortunately, i the ohsobusy woman will probably never get down to doing it.
sometimes.
no alot of times, i feel like i dont have a life. i mean things move so fast, you dont have time to stop and catch your breath, and just enjoy nature in its ravishing beauty. all you get is manmade stress. whats the point of life then?life moves too quickly. time also moves quickly, but my life is paced at such a tempo that. oh i just want to collapse. life just becomes a chore. waking up going to sch, hw, piano, dance, everything. i mean theres laugther and fun. but looking at things as a whole, it does seem rather restrictive and SAD. sad life?
and grades worry me alot. sometimes i wonder, why do i even worry about my grades. why do i want good grades. is it because i want to strive for the best ican in everything? yes i guess thats a goal for everyone in everything we do but does it partially have anything to do with society's pressure on us as the only resource being human and our brains to study study and study till studying becomes a necessity to survive in this environment, and if you dont conform and just play along the rules of society, you'll become trash? haha chinese - yellow trash.
okay for those who dont get it, this is in reference to 'poor white trash' the phrase.
for those who still dont get it, forget it.
for those who do get it. i loveyou man.
okay im going nuts again.
so point is. society demands and requires us to study study study and essentially have a good education, be learned and smart people. but WHATEVER FOR?
i mean how far will education get us?
philo teaches that science is crap
sch teaches that we have to do science
the world stresses that science in nano tech and whatnots are our future
smart top learned raving big humans say that we have to do philo and they all have big life philosophies. and they think deep like anything.
so . aiya. society's just nuts.
but we do have to conform dont we?
where else can we live but earth (besides heaven and hell)
so the only i see it is that we have no other alternative but to 'just follow law'. even if we arent following blindly, we're still ultimately following. we all have to follow.
why isnt anyone doing something about this whole horrible situation?
well maybe i should be that someone. but i dont know what to do. i dont have enough capacity. or so i think.
its alot of peoples dreams already actually, if you look at it from certain perspectives. like in all american movies, the theme of 'heroism' and 'individual vs society' and 'extrinsic vs intrinsic' and all are apparent in their movies. perhaps they are dreams.
i mean yeah theere are people who have stepped out to make a difference. like for example. bush. i mean whether you like it or not, he does make a difference. but his 'making a difference' doesnt necessarily allow us to not conform to society in many ways, does it?
so maybe those moves are just macrofied versions of the directors dreams.
afterall martin luther king junior did have a dream
for those who dont understand, im referrng to his i have a dream speech.
and OHYES. he did make a difference. in some ways he allowed blacks to not conform to the whites ideals of them. all the slavery and freedom stuff.
hmm.
so people have done it.
its just not happening in singapore.
yet.

ohwells. i guess i feel alot like the little prince.
im sure all of you know the story.

JANNY'S NOTE: LAOLAOS WHO READ THIS WILL PROBABLY HAVE A LOT TO SAY. im taking 18 and over as a rough gauge for the term 'laolao' in relation to this post. so if youre a laolao, sorry for making you read all these. it was really my nonsense and alot of views just pouring out cos i really have to say them somewhere and once i get started i dont stop.so yeah.
laolaos will probably . might . have alot of things to say about what i wrote. but sorry. this is a little kids point of view. so dont mind me.

the little princess(:

michelle wee called me this afternoon and we both decided that we should shift to xanga. haha. im still deciding.

ahwells.
nights everyone(:

fhps pics(:

2007-02-20T15:41:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAOQING!

today's haoqing's birthday, and we've been friends for let's see. this is the sixth year. uh thats like. almost half my life. ohman=x

haha.

here's a little thanksgiving for haoqing:

it's been great knowing you, with all your crappy random nonsense. after knowing you for so long then do i realise you can be emo and sensitive and all. and its nice to see your softer side once in awhile. but all that aside, you're fun and really really crappy. stay pretty dear(: haha!

pic we took last fri at ntuc. haha.

and happy third day of cny everyone else!
i think this is going to be the first time of the entire history of me and my blog that i've posted pics. haha. i feel so accomplished cos ive like uploaded all my pics from mep concert and friday.(this is a terribly big feat for janice soon, for those who dont already know)

so on thursday we went to old ford factory at night. it was where we signed the papers of surrender during world war two at 6.20 am on 15 feb 1942. it was a good exhibition. with the real board room and all where they signed it. a guided tour, lotso f pics and exciting info. and since the day we went was also 15 feb, the SPI ( singapore paranormal investigators ) were there and had set up all their equipment. they had a recorder and some sensors in the board room, with the whole screen showing what was in the room outside the building. and an altar with candles and offerings and all. on this table. set up outside the building. to attract the spirits there. and after the tour the people from spi told us some freaky stories and all. and mrs chen was afraid that we would be disturbed. cos they did show us pics of some supposedly 'orbs' and some freaky stories about little kids following you, third eye and all. so mrs chen prayed for us before we left.

im so glad to be in a mission school(:

but actually after a discussion with my dad after that night. i realised that spirits can and probably exist. i think ive mentioned the holy ghost thing before. and how else do angels and demons exist. they are spirits and they do exist in some form. i guess orbs are just some stuff of the heavenly realm. but of course the angels/ demons have to choose to reveal themselves to us first before some will get to see them. after all angels did appear to mary and those people in the bible.and we do hear of people who are demon possesed. so these angels and demons have to exist i some form, and they might just be the orbs some people see.

aiya dunno luh. but i think its highly probable.

then friday we had cny celebrations in sch then went back to fuhua. new principal there already. shes malay. miss taha. then met jolene jillian zengxue ervin haoqing wenxuan clarice kaisan angeline shiteng weichen and we went to jec kobayashi for lunch. i just had chawamushi :D then we went to take neoprints cos shiteng and clarice wanted to. ji and jo refused to. haha. then after that ji jo and zengxue and wenxuan and weichen went back first.

but i managed to catch a pic with ji jo and zx first(:

here they are

us four, outside the neoprint centre. i love all of them to bits<3

from left : zengxue, jo, ji me.

ji and me(:

shant post all of them here, just those i look nice in. LOL.

then we - clarice angeline hq erv kai and me watched just follow law. quite okay luh, the show. i liked the themes jack neo poked at. about not always following the law, the restricitions and 'ineffeciency' of our society. how we always suckup to those in higher positions. basically a number of problems our society faces.mm yeps

then after that we took some pics, then went to library and took more pics in front of the no photography sign at the lift on the first floor. and got scolded =x haha

we met ying there<3

and we all walked into the fourth floor girls toilet and took a pic of our reflection!

ervin and me at ntuc

haoqing wanted this pic taken.

and sherri and me at mep concert!

twotee peeps at mep concert!:D
from left : roxanne, yu, suat, viv, me, anna, jess, sherri!

yesterday!

2007-02-11T15:46:00.000+08:00

ohmann. yesterday was great! and i keep using the words 'ohman' today. haha.i think it came from yiting. she keeps calling joeltay oldman.
so we had camy practice. i was like two mins late? haha (x then i brushed up on my minimelody skills. which apparently are quite lousy.haha. and then we learnt how to replace the normal major resolved and nicefitting sounding chords with funny weird chords. that somehow still fit. its quite cool.haha.so im supposed to go away this week and go figure out more funny chords for any song i want. we ended at like. one. then we went to ikea. well i went with all the laolaos. those in my generation went home to study.haha. the laolaos referring to yiting(we two were the only two mentees there, the rest are our trainers) sam(lim) vern joel johann jonwong and ricky. we went to ikea. in two cars. joel/johann's parents and rickys. ohmannnnnn they drive out to eat after church. the rest of us have to bus normally. i felt so. like its like with your parents likethat, take car.haha. went to ikea. most of us had meatballs.haha. i love the gravy. then yeah i enjoyed talking to all of them. they're all so nice and yeah.haha. it's not really hard to talk to laolaos actually. i kept stressing on the generation gap thing and yeah most were like 'wah she's only sectwo' im so young : D they're LAOLAO. the youngest among them is like vern 19, and oldest is joel, 26. so im like. at least five years younger than all of them. actually five years is not alot. but 26 and 14 its like twelve years. yeah that makes him an old man!
then i rushed off for golf. i was well. late. no surprise luh. haha. then after i bathed there then my parents dropped me off at raffles city. met tiff bea van viv yu michchan chris sherri and roxanne for dinner at the cartel. aiya dumbdumb me. i got of the car and walked right past starbucks and into raffles city and walked the whole entire one round of the first floor then i calledtiff cosi couldnt find cartel. turned out cafe cartel was rightnext to the big starbucks.haha. so we all had pasta.and chris was telling us about how she got robbed and there was a blueblack on her arm. it was areally convincing story, we all believed her. tried to pull her bag, ran off with only a silver keychain cos she was tugging the other way. haha she later told me it was some made up story. her blueblack was makeup. cos they were testing out colours for our tribal poster for family night.ohmannn.haha.
see, the ohman again.
cartel was good.our bill totalled 144 or smth like that. so scarily ex=x haha.
then we walked over to esplanade and couldnt find our sculptures for art. and we were kindof late anyway, so we didnt have time anyway.the concert was rather good. the first half was so so. i mean we've watched sso like ten times so nth too surprising about their standards. then after the break was RACHMANINOFF. he's my alltime favourite. i love him. ib et he was a cute old man. for those who dont know, he's DEAD.haha. he's a russian composer. really good pieces. i love his prelude in g minor. those who have never heard it should go hear it. wel li ve never before either but my teacher gave me the piece. my ex teacher. when i was in like grade five or six. so obv i couldnt really play it well. its like dip/post diploma standard. and it was a piano concerto so valdimir feltsman was the pianist.he's like really good. the piece is scarily hard. jess was so shocked about how he memorised 40 mins of that crazy rachmaninoff piece. i love rachmaninoff. OH RACHMANINOFF, RACHMANINOFF, WILL YOU BE MY VALENTINE? haha just kidding. i wldnt want an old man for a valentine, even if he were cute. haha.
oh and my valentines are christine and michelle wee.
how fun! : D
i got like this really really nice big heart shaped cookie from amanda today. with a LOT of m&ms, silver metal kind of chocolate balls, and those rice chocolate on it. its really good. and a card. and more chocolate from other people. amanda's one was the sweeetest. cos it had this big P on it. standing for PRINCESS i guess. haha(:
and this inverted J.
i feel really bad. i didnt finish any valentines cards so i cldnt bring for them today. and i was running late for church so i cldnt get them flowers either. im supposed to get flowers for sch people anyway so i'll get it later today.but i cant keeptheir's till next saturday, so i guess i'll have to give them smth else. :(
WHAT I LOVE MOST ABOUT VALENTINE'S DAY IS THE CHOCOLATE.
okay maybe not that. its all the love i give and receive. feels really good getting so many hugs(:
toodles! i have to do xiaoshuo and personal recount NOW.
then i'll go out for dinner with my china relatives whom i visited in china during dec hols last year later. actually we jsut went for lunch. they're at science centre now, which is like across the road. haha. with my parents and their dad and selina ( my SINGAPORE cousin) haha.

2007-02-09T23:24:00.000+08:00

i dont like hypocrites. i dont mind when you point out a mistake of mine and you dont do it yourself. i think its big-time hypocritical to tell me that im lalala and do the same stuff as well.
that's the biggest joke ever, except no one laughs.
okay this is not supposed to be funny.
i wonder if anyone actually reads the posts when they come here, or just skim.ohwells.

everything just feels wrong.
and im really really really hungry right now. theres this empty pit deep down in me which really desires to be filled.
literally and unliterally.
literally to my STOMACH.
unliterally to my soul. i mean its not like i havent been praying or anything. todays prayer meeting was good but still. i dont know luh. dance was fun today. it was parent's sit in week. means the parents get to sit in and observe our ballet lessons. and we gave mrs ng feedback on how we're given too much to do at one shot.
i mean like, we have six projects. six BIG projects running simultaneously, three tests this week and three/four next wee, depending on whether you take hcl.
my mum just told me i have no EQ. which i honestly outrightly disagree. violent objection.
that is pure. nonsense.

cherry :( and tribal dance!

2007-02-07T18:47:00.000+08:00

we are the ohsogreat tribe of tikitiki!
so i started teaching my group three people their part of the dance yesterday after school.i would say it was quite a success. bea and suat came to watch cos they had nth to do.haha.the people were quite enthu about the steps and cooperative. i really have to thank God for that. i mean i was afraid those weird steps i came up with for the dance might not be very well accepted by some people. and today we tried to brush up on it? and i gave them their final poses. and after sch i taught rox anna mich chan viv and van.but only one part.they're the partner people. okay nvm no one knows nuts about what im talking about. except for those people whom i explained the entire dance to.then yeah tmr after sch i'll teach gracecheah clare chris suaty bea and myself our parts. ours is the opening. the four one bar solos. and a duet by grace and suat. im making them do centre splits. evil me.hahaha
deborahh invited us to her house for cny on second day!yays. but i dont know if i can go.
you know come to think of it, i guess it is understandable why we uhm. kissup to america.i mean theyre big and powerful.we're quite small you know.and yeah we opened our port to them and they let us fly in arizona. we support their war but i think the whole point is that we are allies. and if anyone goes to war with us, we do get some help i hope? but the whole war for democracy thing going down in iraq. i mean yeah i support democracy. but i dont know about war. even though the bible says there is a time for war but still. i dont like war. well im sure no one does. but i sometimes pity bush. he will never please everyone.well of course no one ever will. but look he's responsible for the most powerful and influential country in the world. everything he does is all under pressure. and to addto the US, he now has to take responsibility for iraq. its not easy you know. all the pressure and stress and theres simply so much to do!

i miss cherry:( she was such a great classchair, even if it were just for a month.i'll be praying for her!
finally be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power! ephesians 6:10a

updates

2007-02-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

hello people. i decided i'd better update before this starts to rot.
i'm feeling so lousy now. really really lousy. ever had one of those days where the world 'comes crashing down on you' well im not exactly crushed now. not yet. but still, the night has been dissappointing.
anyway, i got a new phone on thursday evening :D its some lg slide phone. and its not the chocolate one:( i went to the dentist at AH before going to get my phone. second time this month. again he did nth. cos my tooth is still alive and he doesnt want to kill it by doing a root canal. ohwells, two wasted trips there. so i'll just leave it to heal by itself. its an inflamation.
pe is getting funner and funner. its been wayy good so far this year. ive enjoyed each session. we played rugby today. so super fun(:
and its charlottes birthday today
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLOTTE.
and alicias birthday tmr
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE ALICIA<3
so i bought charlotte my fav cake from prima deli yesterday on the way home. the hazelnut indulgence. its heavenly i tell you.
i was really too overworked to have dance just now. it was simply horrid.

oh and i had three tests this week. geog, hist and hcl. they were okay i guess? then we had some presentations as well, and alot of presentations next week. its like they give us so many projects to do simultaneously, we're dying! grah.

ss half page (font size 12) on what we're going to write for our animal rights research paper was due today. i wrote it last night. it was amazingly long. longer than half page definitely. and the most astonishing part was, i wrote it all, totally and completely onehundred percent of my own words. i didnt refer to anything. i wrote my pure opinions after reading a huge chunk of info. i am so pleased with myself. so so pleased.

oh for sec two family night (its a level concert) we have to perform a tribal dance per class. im solely choreographing my class' dance(: so excited. its such an opportunity.the theme is survivor. so each class names themselves some tribal name. we're two tee. so we're TIKITIKI :D haha.

sometimes, we can't turn around and walk backwards. we'll just turn into salt, and fall to the ground as next-to-nothings. some things just dont work out.

worship

2007-01-24T21:18:00.001+08:00

hello. just to let everyone know, my math isnt as bad anymore. factorisation now seems more understandable. im getting lots and lots of practice(: i do hope my grades are good this year. i really and desperately want good grades.
i've been free-er lately. as in there's still hw, five times a week dance, golf, cell and service, camy training, piano and guit and all. everythings in full swing. but now i have more time for God. God's giving me time. He's opening up time slots here and there are reminding me every so often that He wants to spend time with me.
God desires to spend time with us, and we shld too. its a really nice feeling. i've always loved worship, be it during service, chapel, camy or cell. worship is always so uh. enlightening. im not sure thats the best word but i worship really makes me concentrate on God. i mean if i pray myself in my mind, i lose focus half the time. if i sing or pray aloud, its easier to stay on task. worship is great!
and i'll be leading scream's first officiall cell worship this saturday(: we had last last sat but it was regional, and it was led by scsm ( the other cell in my region, which stands for spore chi st margs)
we have a scream clap. it's ohsocool!:D and this super scream thing. scream seriously rocks my mgee socks.
anyway, the theme's on faithfulness. and i havent really finished choosing my songs yet. ahh.
i think so far i have sort of decided on
forever, and i'll dump in the bridge of the 'we worship you, hallelujah hallelujah we worship you for who you are' not very sure of the title. but the bridge goes ' you are good all the time and all the time you are good' and i really really really want to use centre of my life but it doesnt really suit the theme i suppose?
OH I KNOW. I SHALL USE SO CLOSE. mannn i really really love that song. one of my gathrillion favs(x
and blessed be your name
okay. shld i have made me glad or through it all or both?
okay i think i'll use both?
so it'll be :
1. forever (the forever God is faithful, forever God is strong one.hillsongs apparently has another version)
2. blessed be your name
3. dump in the bridge somewhere.
4. SO CLOSE!
5. made me glad
6. through it all.
shld i knock out anything?
ahhh.
okay i still have work left. i have to type out some philo thing. GRAH. and read sarah's xiaoshuo. and send my xiaoshuo to someone to print for me. BOTH my printers are apparently dead.
ohdear-

sigh.

2007-01-20T23:27:00.000+08:00

for without Him, i am nothing.

i'm reallyreally really bad at math.really.

we all know it's the politically correct answer to not seek for money, and instead for meaning and happiness in life. we all know that we shouldnt desire so much of a nice landed house, and plentiful pocket money, and all we desire. we all know we should be content with what we have-we're already so so blessed. we all know what we should do and what we shouldnt.we all know we shouldnt lust. we all know we shouldnt be greedy. we all know we shouldnt be moneyfaced. we all know money doesnt make the world go round.
we all know all these, but we do do all these.
we want to be financially rich. we want social status. we want more, despite having more than enough.
we know it's not part of our morals to, but still, we do.
we 'can't help' wanting all these.
human desires are sometimes just so overwhelming.temptation is always so deceiving, and always has some cool incentive. forbidden fruit is always so lovelily sweet.
i do realise how blessed i am.
i also do realise how i still want more.
we'll never have enough, we'll always one more, hence someone came up with the saying 'be content with what you have'.
but STILL,
it's so hard to not desire those of the world, isn't it?
i mean, there are rich christians.

here's what im going to do. i'm going to make a list of how God has blessed me. and i'm going to try to be satisfied.
i thank God for :
1.being God.
2.my parents
3. siblings to quarrel with and learn from those quarrels
4.discipline
5.my age.
6. every problem He has ever put me through
7.having the talent to dance nicely (sorry, thats what i think)
8.being allowed to take ballet class
9.zaki and miss wee
10. all my friends.
11. all my 'friends'
12. my pocket money
13. my brains.
14. my beautiful body
15. any and every physical defect
16. people who love me
17. loving me
18. a super fun and encouraging twotee
19. my handwriting
20. for the physical defects i do NOT have
21. making me make this list
22. being able to play the piano
23. giving me a chance to learn the guitar
24. such a lovely piano teacher.
25. my schedule
26. miss yeong, mrs sandiran and mrs azmi
27. the special kindergarten i went to
28. r-age
29. ps ronald and ps cuixian and suhui jie.
30. my own study room
31. that i even have a hp
32. that i love myself
33. for making me so special and different and unique.
34. for the freedom my parents give me
35. that i live in singapore
36. that we're not at war
37. that girls dont go to ns
38. for making me a girl
39. this day He has made
40. the past 13+ years of my life
41. being the greatest teacher anyone can ever have
42. teaching me to be patient
43. giving me great ideas on how to not lose my temper when i get annoyed.
- pause at this point. i'm kindof. correction. very irritated by someone and something now.
janice is seriously irritated and at the highest point. irritate me one more time and that person
will.
HEY, I MEAN IT'S HARD TO LOVE PEOPLE WHO ANNOY YOU SO BADLY.
44. a conscience
45. letting me have my blog. note : THIS I MY BLOG, I CAN SAY WHAT I WANT. IF YOU DONT AGREE, DONT BOTHER CONTRADICTING ME ON MY TAGBOARD. JUST LEAVE.annoying comments are unwelcome.
sorryyyy im a little in a bad mood now. mostly annoyed.
46. time in the morning for quiet time and worship
47. camy. even though im not officially in yet.but i thank God for them.
48. that i have a large capacity to love.
49. the way i learn
50. creating this thing called 'love'

okay i'm done with that. i'll try to be satisfied now. haha. really, there're so many things to thank Him for. the list just flowed so naturally just now.
let me tell you a secret.
if you want to be satisfied and you're not, learn this: HE SATISFIES.
i mean really, He does. you could try making a list. and just think. think and ponder about His love for you. His perfect love that never fails. think about how good and great He is. think about how wonderful He is that He's indescribable. and think about how YOU have this ohsoincredible God.
i believe you'll be satisfied.

randomness.

2007-01-18T21:24:00.000+08:00

randomness.
we went to chinatown heritage centre today.
so super fun.
i seriously love my class.
twotee is way cool.
and mrs ng's amusing.
I MISS MRS YY LIM <3
twotee really really rocks.
laoshi is cute.
and mcdull. ahems. goldfish is called UMBANANA.
so super cool luh.
i shall attempt my mep listening journal now.
im sure i'll survive.
i shall begin with haydn.
and i love amanda. seriously.
oh yes and macs garlic chilli is the greatest. (chilli in the world) besides belacan. that is so super nice!
so super - is such a ohsocute phrase.
zehnice thinks she has ugly feet.
and split soles do make a difference to the world.
and two things make the world go round.

zehnice loves who?

theese days

2007-01-17T21:51:00.000+08:00

hello everyone!
HOW'S LIFE?
i tried squeezing in followup on monday. i made it! haha. so monday after sch was dance, then run to kap (actually i took a bus for that one pathetic stop) then met beryl and sharon there and i squeezed two lessons into one hour. power! whoopees. haha. then i rushed across the road for ballet.yeps.
and on tuesday. WHOA. its like the happy day of my life. yes. haha. i slept at like. 9.55pm.WHOOPEES. i felt so great this morning.i had lets see. seven and a half hours. longest sleep ever since forever (not including weekends and holidays)
and i have a toothache. actually teethache.its two teeth. pleaseplease do pray for me. im seeing dr kenneth on 1feb.lalala.
quite alot of hw tonight. like hw thats not due tmr. and i think math is seriously killing me. its so. hard. its so. i dont know. it annoys me. MATH! grah.
i think i need to desire quite time more. i need to look forward to it more. im not committed enough yeah.my uhm. theory is that once you've experienced God and been so close to Him, you'll want to experience it each day and therefore will look forward to quiet time and prioritise it.but somehow, i dont.i mean i want to but everything else always takes over.this is horrid.
have you ever had a day when everything that happens is all overly passe and cliche and all you want is a break. and yet you want smth eventful. your life is busy, too eventful i suppose but yet it's mundane cos the events are all the same. life is a cycle i guess. yeah thats my day, thats my life.
im suddenly remembered of the poem i did for my langarts oral last year for eoys. it was entitled 'night shift'.
it begins with 'another night' and ends with 'another day'. its really nice.
ohwells.
and life just goes on.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR SATURDAY:D that's all i can look forward too and all i feel like looking forward to i guess. saturday - camy training. plus i get to see amanda. how nice. i really want to see amanda.i need a hug from super amanda.
LOL AMANDA YOU SHLD BE UBER HONOURED.
tatas!

camy training and cell

2007-01-14T22:01:00.000+08:00

i have not blogged in such a longlong time. i feel like, cut off from the world of. msn and blogging. haha. school has been really really tiring and busy. i believe God'll help me manage.
my God is big. way big. bigger than hw or anything else.
i'll survive(:
haha yes.
we had camy training yesterday. the first for my batch! whoopees(: we started like half an hour late.we had intros, icebreakers, making music. like everyone makes a weird sound and joel conducts.then we listened to some music and identified the instruments. and that was all. quite fun. there're two keyboardists this batch. suzanna and me(: my mentor/trainer/whatdo you call it? will be either sam(antha), joel or both. or smth. i dont know luh. then after that we went to lunch. we went to anchorpoint kfc.quite fun. and then jessie and i went to ikea to get a clock for my classroom! haha and the guys went to queensway arcade. then we went to join them. and we played daytona. lanz sam and caleb against me me and me. so unfair. anyway, its quite obv i came in fourth. well its all the buggy incident. lalalala.
then i went home. then i went for cell. cell was fun. really really fun. we laughed and nonsense-d aLOT. then yes we all went home. i love my cell(:
SCREAM ROCKS :D
and this morning i didnt have to go for cell. cos we had it last night? haha. i was uhm. one min late. i arrived at 11.16. i checked. and apparently they'd already started the first song everyday. i couldnt really concentrate during the sermon. i dont know why.maybe i prefer pastor ronald's preaching. hahahahai had my ebi rice burger for lunch today at mos burger ps. i really love the sauce. and they're chilli sauce isnt to my liking. and neither is kfcs. only macs chilli rocks. garlic chilli rocks big time.YES! haha.
and i got a new guitar pick.its luminous. how interesting. haha.
yes thats all.
i know i'll survive this week and i hope all the rest of you do too.
lots and lots and lots of love(:

tiredd

2007-01-10T21:58:00.000+08:00

whoopees.
camy training starts this saturday[: like finally!
sch has been tiring. actually not sch. life has been tiring. and im in desperate need of sleep. grah.
and i have no idea what to say here.
haha ive feel closer to God now(: but my devotion is really horrible. i seriously need to do devotion. all i can bring myself to do is pray pray pray and worship. i cant do devotions cos i want to sleep. i mean i can, but im always way to tired to.
sighs.
and yesh i still dont know what to say.
we had really really great intellectual discussions in lang arts yesterday and today. i really wish mrs ng was our philo teacher. well mrs chew's better this year i suppose.
and after our discussions, i have come to the conclusion that there will always be elites, and non elites. and the elites sometimes cant help it. i mean it's not their fault for being blahblahblah-inclined.and if there was no elites, we'd be like, communist ( i mean in the corporate world)and having elites around are just natural uh, phenomenons. i mean theres a good and a bad, theres an elite and a non elite. there'll always be people who are smarter, or work harder than everyone else, or just dare to do this and that. there'll always be different levels in society and we just have to accept that elitism will exist no matter what. and we cant really expect the government to do smth about it. not much i guess. i mean the government is elite. it is. and the people in there are more or less accademically inclined. so elites will, i assume, understand the unhelpable presence of elites in society and i suppose they cant really empathise with the non elites either because they themselves are elites and so are their families most of the time.
elites.
elites.
elites.
rj is an elite sch? i want to gothere and be an elite. haha. in fact, mrs ng says we're the elites among the elites. she says mg is an elite sch. CLAPCLAPCLAP :D and we, being the sbc, are elites among elites. yays.
and that adds alot alot of pressure.
no room for mistakes, no room for failing.
only space for success.

gah. i dont want to blog anymore.
TOODLES(:

school

2007-01-06T22:24:00.000+08:00

hello everyone!
its three days into schooling and schools been rather tiring. most of our teachers are still the same though. except for chem - miss tan sc, and ss - mr seow and. yeah i think that's it. oh and hcl - i forgot her name but i know who she is. oops. haha.
we have chinese four days a week. thats really really scary.hahahahaha. and i officially am lousy at algebra. anything beyond basic algebra is nuts to me.
i've been sleeping at around eleven or twelve the past few nights. really really tired out. i guess the holidays have made school days a tad bit too trying? well we'll see what happens once stuff go into full swing. it'll be a living. well. not hell. i hope i'll love my life and schedule. haha. so i hope it'll be a living heaven(: but yes i'll be really really busy. just for the jan-has-nth-better-to-do(actually she has)-but-for-no-apparent-reason-is-doing-this sake of doing this, okay that was messy. just for the sake of nothingness, i shall post my schedule here.

i, janicesoon, am going to dance five times a week.it's goingto be a killer.

monday : end sch 1420. SYF zaki 1500. ballet 1845
tuesday : end sch 1340. piano 1630
wed : end sch 1355. camy training once every three weeks. i think.
thurs : end sch 1340. dance 1445.guit 1830
fri : end sch 1400. dance 1445. ballet 2015
sat : golf. golf. golf.golf. and cell.
sunday: CHURCH!(:

yes thats it. my horrible horrible schedule.
surprisingly, i dont hate my life. and im glad i dont(:

okay tag replies. and i dont think i'll be online as much as l ast year anymore.

caleb: haha. im glad i have someone to talk to(:yeah i know but i cant do anything about it.
deb:HELLO! haha. okay thanks(:
amanda:haha i shall msg you now(: cos i want the coffin is too big too. haha.
jenn: yesyes!:D
caleb: you'd better teach me sometime soon
amanda:amanda's the nicest(:
deb:haha alrights.
choo:OKAY.haha

aiya. my posts are getting less and less sentimental. but i realise im thinking more and more. i just dont write it down anymore. lazy to i suppose?
oh yes and i have a whole long list of resolutions. i shall put on here what i can from memory.haha.i wrote them on a paper and stuck them on my noticeboard.

-no gossiping
-spendat least half an hr with God a day.
-bathe everyday
-dont stay angry at anyone for more than five minutes
-try not to get annoyed at anyone.if someone's too unbearable, take atwo min break
-get no demerit points
-no shouting
-study for tests more than one day in advance
-smile with the joy of the Lord, and not forced smiles
-stay focused, no multitasking(except on msn)
-respect everyone, esp those who are younger than myself.

i cant rmb anymore. i think all these are keepable(:

i can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.

two really beautiful songs.
'think about his love' since about three years ago, i keep thinking 'he satisfies, he satisfies'. but i never figured out what song it wasfrom, cos it was so old. but i kept telling myself He satisfies whenever i feel unsatisfied. its really really beautiful.
and the other i was singing and playing today.
MY GOD IS SO BIG,
SO STRONG AND SO MIGHTY
THERES NTH MY GOD CANNOT DO(for you!)
x2
THE MOUNTAINS ARE HIS,
THE RIVERS ARE HIS
THE STARS ARE HIS HANDIWORK TOO.
MY GOD IS SO BIG
SO STRONG AND SO MIGHTY
THERS NTH MY GOD CANNOT DO (for you!)

my God is big!

sometimes old songs, or songs we learn in kindergarten, are the most assuring, make the most sense. even though in kindergarten no one really understood it fully. maybe the teachers justwanted to drill it into us, so that when we grow older, we'll have such songs to help pull us through(:
maybe.
what a great idea(:

town with grace.scared of sch

2007-01-03T22:16:00.000+08:00

i was crying last night. yes tearing and weeping. i was scared, somehow of school. talked to toh for awhile. helped calm my nerves. this morning was scary. i woke up, prayed, then realised i lost my mg badge. my second mg badge. so i have no badge. so i officially freaked. i didnt scream.haha. but i freaked. i searched frantically. cannot find, sms michelle wee. thank goodness she could br me an extra one. then i started crying. and hyperventilating. hahaha. as in not really really, but bad enough. then i kept rmbering phillipians 2 :3-4
do not be anxious about anything. but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. and the peace of God which trandscends all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
i was reciting it to myself luh.

miss janice soon is : NE coordinater.
like HUH? yeah we all have really really weird jobs this year. haha.

new seating arrangements, im in between suaty! and grace chua! yays.
went to town with grace chua after sch. heeren and cine. we were supposed to buy each other bday presents(like sixmths and 3 days belated for me) and i have to buy her a christmas one cos she alr got me one. so yeah in the end we didnt. we cldnt find anything satisfactory. so yeah. we just took neoprints. thats all. haha and wasted alot of time walking around.

yeps.
i shall sleep early from now on.
and i seriously need to catch up on piano practice.
oh dear.

goodbye 06

2006-12-31T17:43:00.000+08:00

hello everyone.
i suppose this will be the last post of 2006.how sad :( haha. i revived my blog after last year youth camp upon some coaxing. before that i murdered it.yes.haha. and before before that i had a blog, one those not from youth wldnt know about. 2006 has been a really trying year for me. i feel time has passed so quickly, and i'm growing up so fast this year. more duties, more responsibilities, less time, less play, more work. i've gone through so much : sbc, dance night, syf pracitices, ballet exam, classes twice a week, piano, theory, guit, swim meet, china, the recent accident, countless tests, eoys, intense mugging, unhealthy diets, the worst schedules, followup with beryl, new friendships, broken friendships, lost friendships, strengthened friendships, and best of all, i've come to know God much better. the time and quality of time spent with God this year was so much better than the previous. i would like to thank each and everyone of you whom i have interacted with this year, maybe we only spoke once, maybe we're close friends, all of you have played a part in making me the me i am right now.

to some special people :
sam : i really cant thank you enough for our friendship. it was fun knowing you during vbc last year.haha.i really enjoy this friendship. its like.so true. we've had a good share of quarrels, times when we drifted and times when we drifted back. but i suppose that's what makes the quality of friendship even better.thanks for being there for me to talk.i know you'll continue to bring your hc friends to r-age. jia you!(:

jessie : ahh. i really like your style of dressing. even though it revolves around. ahem. your denim skirt and long sleeve tops and your halter bra.LOL. hahaha. it's always nice to hear that you're in cf and you lead devotions in sch and such.it's encouraging(: i hope you've been encouraged by me (x and that you'll encourage others around you as well. it's been great having you around, i know i can share any thoughts on my mind, my feelings with you.even though we're not in the same cell next year, we're still in the same region, so its not that bad. and anyway, our cms want to combine cell.haha so maybe it'll work out(:

amanda : amanda! you're really fun to be around, with all your nonsense, randomstuffs, singing and high-ness. thanks for all that. i know that under all those uh, crap, ahem. there's a spiritual side of you. a side that seeks after the Lord. it's great to have a balance! haha. however, know what to put first yea? and ohoh. dont go for ***, trust me **** is better. at least he's serving. rmb what cx said, find a guy to serve with(x LOL. haha. thanks dear, for touching me.

abby : hey! thanks for being such a great friend, and honestly sharing your stuff with me. i'm always glad when i see you worshipping in church or camps. i pray you'll grow stronger in Christ as the new year comes around, and build good friendships. God bless(:

sharon : i like talking to you. i really like talking to you. it's like, i can just tell you my dreams or hurt, and not be afraid to be laughed at or feel lousy. thanks(: i hope you'll be more consistent in going for cell. i know you love the Lord, i pray you'll love the Lord even more!(:

TOH: thanks for just being you(: for putting up with all my uh. rubbish, especially with the latest one. i'm sure you know which. haha. and i know you dont really mean it evertime you insult me :D LOL. i'm sure. i prefer it when you're nice. but then again, if you're too sweet, it won't be the real you ya. haha. it's not like you to not suan people. anyhow, i hope we'll grow closer next year and i know you'll be a good cm. have fun in ac, and set a good example for your boys. and i realise im in no position to say i can drive:(

lanz : mm i dont know you as well, but really, thanks loads for your advice on that matter. it was a great help. i'm sure you'll be a fine cm next year. you have a fabulous capacity of leadership. use it for His glory. lead the boys, and lead your sister(: and well. don't be so accident prone. i know you beat me hands down getting into accidents but try not to get into so many ya? you dont want to land in hospital (touchwood) haha.

davidchoo : CHOOOOOOOO. your surnames so cute. haha i've only known you for quite a short period of time but i cant tell you have plenty of passion for the Lord. dont run out of passion yes? burn for Him, and spread the passion around! and thanks for putting up with my choo-ing.haha.

nicole : haha sorry for all those times we've teased you about being short! hahahaha. thanks lots for praying for me during rhema. it really touched me(: i pray you'll grow stronger in the coming year, and you'll enjoy school, however much you dislike hw and all(x haha

hoho : thanks for all the help in the homework! haha xD it's nice to see someone so enthu about philo.haha. i hope you'll use apologetics to bring more people to know christ! and you're always such a help to others, you're a blessing, you know? [:

caleb: thanks for all the care, and the guidance. you've helped me through in my spiritual journey. you're always ready to help others, and thats good. however, dont let the things of the world keep you away from God. you drum really well too. use it for the Lord! and teach others to drum as well (x

emelia : haha. i love all the crappy times we've had together. i like your earnest-y. i pray you'll have a desire to want to know God more. dont just be content with being a christian by name k? love Him, love Him with all you've got. and all the best for the ballet exam(: haha

michelle wee: thanks for all the bimbo-ing. haha. it was fun. and thanks for always listening to all my whines. and i'll always be here to listen to your troubles. haha. i like your fire for God. i like the way you seek Him. thanks for always praying for me(: it's been a great encouragement. i hope you'll soon get over apple, and know what God has really prepared for your life. loves(:

okay i've really got to go now.
happy new year's eve everyone. and God bless.

BYE 2006! (:

second time blogging.

2006-12-30T01:15:00.000+08:00

i just realised that my posts are rather wordy. haha.
if anyone has got comments about anything about my blog, do feel free to tell me, tagboard or msn's fine.
however, if it's negative, please tell me really really gently, tactfully and diplomatically.
do not upset princess janice or the consequences will definitely be too heavy to bear.
unless you're samuel tan.
i think he's mastered the skill of bearing the consequences.
LOL.
oh yea and whilst making your comments, no vulgarities, please?
vulgarities will be strictly dealt with. way worse than not telling me your ugly comments nicely. let's see. utterers of vulgarities will suffer. well. you'll be judged by God.
and God, if you're reading my blog,
WELCOME WELCOME WELCOME! :D
i know you're reading this even as i blog(:

for those who don't know about my Daddy up there and would like to, feel free to tag it. or ask me on msn. i would only be happier than happy to tell you more.

JESUS' MY HERO!

new skkin

2006-12-30T01:01:00.000+08:00

this post has been edited.

oh yeah!
i finally got a new skin.haha. i hope it's way easier to read now. i miss the old skin though, it was lovely(:
well went to the driving range today. it turned out i'm not as bad at golf as i thought i would be after not playing for TWO YEARS.haha.

went to malaysia wednesday to thurs. drove a buggy at their golf course and didnt swerve in time at a turn, hit the curb, i thought it would stop then. but no it didnt. the buggy went OVER the curb and went down this uber uber steep slope about five metres down and landed in muddy water. about knee deep only.the ride down was freaky. it was so fast i only saw green(the earth) rushing past me. i guess my hands were on the steering wheel. my mom and sis saw it and screamed. i somehow somehow didnt. i think i was too shocked.i somehow miraculously landed on my feet in the water when we landed. the entire seat cover was thrown out the buggy to the other side of the buggy. camera and water bottle etc etc were floating down the river. everything was retrieved. first thing i did was shout 'I'M OKAY!' after recovering from 5 seconds of shock. i was really so scared and panicking. i mean, janice soon doesnt get into this sort of accidents. well, DIDNT. now i do. really miraculously, i was safe and not much hurt. the lit book i was reading and had put on the seat beside me to drive was on the floor, more or less dry. hp keys and watch were safely on the buggy. everything else flew out. it was really a miracle from God! the song 'how great thou art' kept ringing in my head after that.
it was really hard to climb back up, really really steep. i clutched on to the veins and stuffs on the ground but they all started breaking.but well, i got up in the end.
it was really an encounter with. i dont know. death was possible. i mean, it was entirely God's work that the buggy did not overturn. i was so sure it would once it went over the curb.
thank God, thank God.
i'm fine with a few minor injuries.
three patches of scrapes on my left knee. those are quite bad cos i was limping for some time and it hurt to bend or straighten my knee. i had trouble bathing last night luh. this big gross blood clot under my chin. and the rest of the underneath of my chin is swollen. and one bruise on my right arm, that ones hardly noticable unless i hit it. and this really small cut on my right leg which doesnt really matter.
so overall, i'm fine(:
thank God!
of course, all prayers for speedy recovery of my injuries are welcome :D
and i even managed to go for SYF dance prac this morning! haha i managed to dance like normal on the whole. except for some strains. or some parts i just didnt do it so sharply i guess.

oh yes, and i forgot to mention, in all the panic, shock racing down the slope and lousy driving, the ohsogreat- janice soon, did NOT press the break.
someone scream at me.

I LOVE THE WOLRD :D
sorry, but I LOVE GOD MORE!xD

2006-12-26T14:20:00.000+08:00

MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS EVERYONE.
i'm sorry i don't feel like blogging about anything.
okay time to tell the funny funny story about the mrt and david. and me of course.
so one fine day ps cuixian asked me to go down to church to help out with rhema ceedeees. so i agreed.and called jessie and elizabeth to go along too. so i took the train there. and it so happened that there was leaders training too. which she was taking. so i was at the train station waiting to board. before i boarded, i turned around and LO AND BEHOLD. it was david choo like two metres away. so we went into the train, turned around and faced the door. he was standing right in front of me. like thirty cm away kindof RIGHT INFRONT. okay so standstand stand. then at this stop more ppl had to get in, so we moved to make space. i stepped back and to the side, he stepped back and to the other side. so we were standing side by side. stand stand stand in silence. i didnt dare to talk to him. haha cos if he doesnt know who i am he'll think im some weirdo? so yeahh we stood in silence and after we got off the train, walked to church in silence. hahaha. turned out he knew who i was and he lives in jurong too.
ohwells.
and i'm PRINCESS JANICE. or so everyone addressed me in christmas cards.
i feel so loved(:

CAMY :DD and christmas party

2006-12-21T11:08:00.000+08:00

there are two things which i must absolutely post about right now, even though i'm supposed to be doing chem hw =x
oh and i think the word absolute is duper cool, its just so .. absolute. its like, there. okay nvm. and anyway, that wasnt one of the two things.

oh yes and sam and sheryl tan are in korea right now. (also not one of the two things)

alright, FIRST THING:
we had a christmas party on tuesday, for 1t people only xD (we're elitist) it was a tiff's house. her house is really really nice. like huge. on cluny hill. haha when i asked her for her add she said ** cluny hill (pronounced clue-nee) LOL! okay anyways, her house has like her private swimming pool, jacuzzi, koi fish? , cabanya, foyer/ lobby, home theater system, wine cellar ( with aLOT of expensive wine) and the list goes on and on and on. so we went there, and we sat down and talk talk talk first, then we went to the living room ( which happens to be the only place in the house with OUT a teevee set, and even the kitchen has one so.. yeah) which is next to the pool. so chris changed into her swimsuit and jumped in. only her and bea brought their swimsuit. i was supposed to. tiff and bea told me to but, i guess im growing old. forgot all about it. haha. tiff lent me a swimsuit. she has alot. i borrowed a GREEN one :D the water was freezing cos it was drizzling and yea we didnt really swim much. just talk and talk and talk. then after that bathed then played polar bear. it was quite amusing cos we were eating biscuits so we wanted to keep on eating during the game then the game master ( jess) said we can only eat during the day time. haha. i guess everyone was hungry. then after that we went to eat dinner. it was ham ham ham and tempura. and kebabs? alot of meat. meat balls. and on and on. quite nice. then we went to watch SHE'S THE MAN :DDDD haha bea was going on about how hot channing tatum was. halfway through the show i kept going 'he's so hot!' haha. but jess and chris had not watched it yet so we cldnt reveal the plot to them yet. it was funny as usual. yeps.haha. third time i watched it.
then we went back up to eat tissue prata[: eat eat eat, then we went home(:
it was great, and after finding out that most of my classmates have done less of the hw than me, i feel more assured (x hahahahahaha. oh yes and of course there was gift exchange, and cherry gave all of us candy canes, and chris gave us honey from australia(:
thanks for the party tiff!

thing number TWO:
i, miss janice soon have passed.
I GOT INTO CAMY ! : DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
YAYS, THANK GOD(:
i was like uberly nervous. see, i was talking to kerpal on the phone on monday and telling him about how i asked sam about camy results but she said she cldnt tell me and i had to ask joel tay instead but joel tay wasnt at service somehow so i cldnt ask him. so kerpal helped me sms him on monday night but joel didnt reply. and neither did he on tuesday. so caleb knew about this and last night(wednesday) they had camy rehearsal and so he helped me asked joel and he said i passed. and he also said he saw kerpals msg but didnt reply. blehs~

okay that's all. i think i seriously have to go do chem now. and i have to bake coooookies soon. LALALA.
MY GOD IS GOOD, all THE TIME, RAIN OR SHINE!

rhema!

2006-12-17T19:15:00.000+08:00

hello people i'm back from rhema and my blog's dying.
i think the intro of 'our God is an awesome God' is like a peace giver, even though it's in the minor key. its just so heartening [: and indeed, our God is awesome! actually, God is better than awesome, He's indescribable. which brings me back to a conversation i had with caleb some time ago. it was on msn and we were just talking and got to the song, indescribable. and after sharing some stuffs, each 'stuff' we shared brought us back to the fact that God truly is indescribable.

alright so rhema.
rhema was good. the everyday's events were mostly devotions, breakfast, morning worship, rhema workshops, lunch, rhema rush(which i didnt go for), dinner, night service. sleep.
so the psixes and sec ones cld stay overnight, and the sec one cms too. we had games apart from all the other stuff, which the sec twos and above did not get. what i enjoyed most about rhema was the worship. i think the worship was really really good. the bands were like full and big everynight. 3-4 vocalists, 1-2 keyboardists, acoustic, electric, bass, drums. that makes ten people on stage? wow. worship was long, and great. i believe many people had fresh encounters with God during worship. the guest speaker monty hipp was funny. i think he has a thing for telling stories xD honestly i feel rhema wasnt as good as upward bound. i think the sec twos and above didnt get in a sense 'enough'. they didnt get anywhere as much as what we received in upward bound, they didnt get as much as us during rhema. yea so i feel they've been under-given? which i feel isnt really fair to them but the conference as has been explained to me is directed at psixes at sec ones so 'naturally' we get more and they get less. sigh. then i'll probably feel malnourished next year? hope not.
anyways, cliqued with jessie abby and gladys during the whole camp mostly. and sometimes gabrielle wai joined us, or we went with psixes. anyways, i love the new batch of psixes. glad tht i knew most of them before camp, so it was much easier to connect with them during the camp.and we bought the black princess shirt.
royalty is so cool.
everyone, listen up! JANICE IS ROYALTY :DDDD 1 peter 2:9 says for we have called to be a blahblahblah, a ROYAL PRIESTHOOD! so right, if we're a royal priesthood, if God is a King, if God is my Father, that makes me a princess! YAYNESS. ( dont i sound like amanda?)
i know this reasoning sounds warped, but see nownow, i shall be addressed as princess janice.
yea, in my dreams perhaps (x

went out with amanda nicole phuisee alex debs tiff eunice today. we went to fareast. we brought the psixes to the chicken rice stall! haha. and we ate and ate and ate. glad i talked to amanda today. we havent talked like one to one for 10 mins straight for a few weeks now.
BTW AMANDA, JUST GIVE *** UP AND GO FOR ****. wo zhi chi ni! and so will nicole luh! :D
and we brought tiff and eunice to the turkish icecream. super super funny. we made tiff go first! hahaha. then went shopping. i brought nicole and amanda to the shop from which they needed to buy lanz's christmas present from. the p sixes were like giving us that 'look'. hahahhahaa. so they went off to walk first while we stood there laughing laughing laughing. it was hilarious luhh. then it was time for all of us to go home after walking more and more. everyone took mrt but i stayed at fareast cos i realised the rest of my family went there afterwards too.
so they made me walk around myself cos they were buying christmas present for me i think. my sister. i felt so loner luh.grah.haha. but i felt so glam wearing what i wore today.with my hair and earrings and shoes and nicenice nails and all.hahahahaha. sry, jan is vain-ing! for those who dont know, my toenails are painted black and my fingernails are painted white(with white nail polish, not liquid paper for nuts sake) on the outer part. you know the part the grows long, above where the blood is. the part that sticks out. yeahh.haha.
and and i suddenly felt like going to this shop but i cldnt find it cos its like those shops upstairs thats super behind and super hard to find so i spent like half an hr finding it and i was super satisfied when i found it cos i rmbed that shop and i think theres smth in there i can get for jtoh for christmas which will be just perfect for him. but first, i shall go check if hes getting me anything. cos that thing is quite ex. haha.

oh and yesterday michelle and i went to UCC to watch 'Jesus take the wheel' some christmas musical by Queenstown Baptist church. suaty(my classmate) was performing and she gave me free tickets! (fifty bucks each!) yeahh so we went to watch michelle convinced me to wear a long skirt. third time im wearing the (same) long skirt in public.haha.the musical was not bad. michelle gave me a mini tiara from hong kong.its really really sweet. but i dont know when i can wear it.haha. i mean no one wears a tiara to church, and not even to wedding dinners. sigh. maybe on my wedding day luh.hahaha.i bought her a flower but i left it in the car. then i wanted to give them (i bought two) to church ppl today but i only realised that i forgot when i got home just now.haha. i put them in a vase and they're blooming really really really beautifully now(:
i bought a pinkish-red rose and a white one.i like white roses(: but i have no idea what they signify.haha.

oh yes and i dont think i'll ever transfer my china reflections onto here.oh wells.haha.
and i bought quite alot of christmas presents alr, there're plenty in my room. but none have been wrapped.but i havent bought for sam and abby and emelia and like almost all of my close friends. except for jessie and michelle and sharon.haha.

i love receiving, really! i guess i have to learn to love to give now.

and anyways, i've starting writing the actual xiaoshuo. i'm so pleased with myself! haha.

when, oh when, am i changing blogskin?

GRAH. thats it for now.

toodles(:

mixed feelings

2006-12-09T22:02:00.000+08:00

whoa.
i've been lazy to blog in a really really long time (x
lots and lots of things happen and i tell myself i want to blog about this and this later but i somehow never get round to doing it.bleh.i like this place as its a platform for me to voice out anything i want, and talk the daylights out of myself. but i more than half the time im lazy to blog and also, there are quite some stuffs which im not comfortable with to post it in such a open place.afterall, anyone can access it and if i want to get emo or show my weak side or breakdown, i can't exactly do it here. washing dirty linen in public.

i read sam's blog just now and realised that he analysed his character at some point. and i was thinking just now and started to 'analyse' myself too. i've discovered that at times i dislike being around alot of new people, despite being seemingly so overly loud, outspoken and scarily friendly. seriously. and i think i know why. when all the 'new' people know each other and i dont know anyone of them say maybe two or three 'old' people who all know the 'new', i'm not in control. i like to be in control of things, of what happens to me. i dont like to just 'let nature take its course' . i want to steer it.
which sometimes, of course, is not possible. and this stubborn dominant character of mine is a possible roadblock in my relationship with God. because i have to let God take control.

i dont feel like completing that subject >.< i want to change subject.haha. when i got to the control part, i thought of the perfect and permissive will, which lead my thoughts to brother david's lesson.

two [thousand] long long years ago, long before all your times, there lived a girl in singapore, in the province of jurong, a girl named janice.
sorry. lousy imitation of moses lim. i have failed as a comedian. i have no intention of being one anyway.haha. oh just curious.
DOES ANYONE OUT THERE IN THE HUGE WIDE WORLD THINK IM FUNNY AND ENTERTAINING?

okay so two years ago, when i was in children's church, one of my two wonderful sunday school/children's church teachers was brother (doctor)(professor!) david. (he's actually eunice, the sec one cm's daddy! xP) so there was one particular lesson he taught one particular sunday that i remember veryvery clearly up to this day. i think it was a good lesson. the catch line was

'seek for God's glory and man's glory will fall into place'

until this day i still remember this sentence, and i'm very very thankful that i learnt that.

BROTHER DAVID, IF YOU EVER EVER READ THIS, THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH, YOU HAVE MADE A DIFFERENCE IN MY LIFE.

oh. maybe i shall make him a christmas card. i can always get eunice to pass it to him for me.haha.

yeps and i think that line is really encouraging and a backbone for a person like me - one who bases her self esteem more or less on interaction with human. interaction being : how they treat me and react to whatever i say/ do. and such. mainly that.

well actually, i think im growing out of that phase[:

but still, thanks bro david!

OKAY. rhema starts tmr for me cos im staying over. i partially am not looking forward to it.dont dont dont ask me why. personal reasons.haha. more like a problem with janice soon and her brain. but im looking forward to it more than im not! so let's keep that going :D and guess what?

GUESSGUESSGUESS.let me guess, you're not guessing.

okay this is lame.

I HAVENT PACKED MY BAGS YET. its ten smth and i have to pack my bag, cleanup my room(its in the horribliest mess you've ever seen in your life, i broke my own mess record) and bathe, and write bro david's christmas card. then i shall go to SLEEP. nono quiet time first. and if im still alive, i shall continue reading to kill a mocking bird.

AND I STILL HAVE UNDONE HOLIDAY HOMEWORK.

God, im so stressed. help me.

OHOH YA.

abbys back! she contacted me just now.haha. and we talked about tmr. TMR. what clothes we're going to bring and such lalalala. and there's no cell tmr but im jessie says to meet her gab wai and ong at eleven to go up together. so we shall.

WHY AM I EVEN TELLING WHOEVER'S READING THIS ALL THESE?

oh and i think my blog has some silent readers-people who read but dont tag. so i dont know you read. but to all of you guys, THANKS FOR READING MY BLOG(: really makes me happy.

and this post is quite long so it's going to be rather hard to read. i really have to get down to changing my skin one of these days. but most people say its nice lehh. BLEHH.

ohoh and today : ps cuixian asked me to help her at g1 so i dragged jessie and liz along. gabong cldnt make it :( then we went there and printed cd labels, cut cd inserts(lyrics) and burned cds. GUESSS WHAT CDS. smth produced by CAMY. samantha(lim) wrote the lyrics. ITS A REALLY REALLY NICE SONG. ohmy i like it! its called 'apple of you're eye'(: then cuixian had to go down to g2 for some meeting so we went with her. just me and jessie cos liz had to go. then continued there. and went home at er.4? and i told my mum i was going home for lunch. so i went home and ate. -.- hahahaha.

OKAY THATS IT IM FINALLY DONE.

I REALLY HAVE TO PACK NOW.

I LOVE EVERYONE, I LOVE THE WHOLE WORLD. AND i dont really like math THAT much but. YEA.

LOVES(:

CHINA TRIP

2006-12-01T11:57:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE IM BACK FROM CHINA.
MISS ME? OF COURSE!
hahahaha this is probably going to be longlonglong cos i spent lots of time there. i wrote like reflections on the hotel ppr almost every night so i shall transfer it here and add in my own other stuffs.
IT WAS A GREAT TRIP.

but im too lazy to blog about it now. and im super stressed cos theres still so much HW!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

tag replies :
emelia : YES. i copied koped the thingy from you. and i cant rmb if i called you that night anymore.hahaha.
melfam : hey. thanks(: i didnt design it though.hahahha.see you soon : D
okok : you're welcome. but who are you?
jw : thanks, i did!
cat : haha yeps. i will!
claud : HEY. okayokay i will.
jenn : okay thanks! whats fatalistic?
rachel : hey(: ehhhh. NO? hahahahha. what kind of question is that.
alex: sure. haha thats so fetch is kinda. bimbo? oops.haha.
michelle wee: thanks! have fun in hk!(:
deborah : HELLO DEBORAH
suhui : thanks for missing me? hahaha. see you soon(:
amanda: SHE DAOED YOU. hahahahhaha.
jill : hello. thanks. same. ITS BEEN ONE YEAR. blah. we're laolaos alr.haha
emelia : hahaha im back now! yea i changed it cos YOU inspired me to. be honoured!(x I LOVE YOU TOO!
caleb: haha yeps you're the first.

fear of the Lord

2006-11-20T21:35:00.000+08:00

the bible says 'the fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge'.
everytime a preacher or a christian mentions fearing the Lord, i wonder, how do i fear the Lord? what is fearing the Lord?
a couple of nights ago, i wasnt feeling too good. my body was topsy turvey. i was at the 'climax of pain' when i thought of crying out to God. then i thought, is it God's wrath or is it like in the case of Job. i decided it was God trying to catch my attention. lately i've been doing smth i know i shldnt do. smth absolutely no human knows, except myself. (it's not that scary!haha) and each time i hear the holy spirit, for a few brief moments, trying to tell me to stop. i hear, but i don't obey. i had not really been honoring God. for honouring means to obey.so yea in plenty of pain, i promised that i would stop doing it. and since then i had not. well but it's just been a few days.

previously i did tell myself i'd try to stop it, but now there is smth stopping me from doing it, which is good. cos i like the feeling of keeping promises [:

had first dance prac for the hols today. it was miss wee, not zaki. miss wee isnt as fierce as we thought she was after all. she's rather nice. we did alot of stretching and strengthening. it was good! she's coming tmr too. and on wed, i think it's zaki. then i'll miss two more lessons next week and come for the one next thursday cos i'll be overseas. my plane lands on thurs at 7.55 and dance is at 9am. haha. rather tight.

i shall be going overseas to china for holiday + visit my distant distant rich china relatives :D
guangzhou, from 23 to 30 nov. thats this thursday to next thursday.
all are welcome to miss me xD

zibei

2006-11-16T20:48:00.000+08:00

OKAY.
i think im zi-bei-ing now. i just read someone else's very um. well written, detailed, organised, easy and nice to read blog. and i know that my blog is uber hard to read. so.. yeah.

1.i should change blogskin. the long blog kind. i think it's way easier to read.
2. i should not be so random in blogging and just jump into topics or rant about well, 'nothing' (of much real value)
3. and i shouldnt crap. i should talk insightful stuff, use proper language and blahblahblah.

yea. i mean that'd be nice. but. would it really be me? okay i mean i guess its mostly me, but sometimes i just need to let go and type whatever thought that comes to my mind immediately.
okay i think i'm saying quite a good lot of junk.
and whoever's reading this, if anyone is, probably thinks i'm weird.
haha but the word weird has become part of me and i've come to accept it? okay now, saying all that is really rather weird in itself. haha.
but honestly, i think i'm very different from people. and i'm just well, different. different not as in i was born on mars but different as in not mainstream?
first of all, i'm not conventionally pretty. which most other girls are. my interpretation of the term 'conventionally pretty' is that (if you think i'm pretty) i'm not the way other girls are pretty. which means that some people will look at me and say pretty. some people will say ugly. whereas for most girls. most people will agree that she is either pretty, or ugly. okay so thats my interpretation and if you dont agree with it, i suggest you re-read the disclaimer :D

okay i think i'm a little nutty today xD

and i'm kind of debating whether i should spend more time on my blog posts. i was talking to my piano teacher[ as i do about almost everything from shopping to politics every lesson. really thank God for someone who's willing to bear with my million questions and explain to me everything i want to know and a minute later, ask me about what i bought whilst shopping yesterday. SHE'S THE BEST!(: ] as i do every lesson, and we got on the subject of blogging. she said that it's rather pointless and well, stupid to blog about things which only concern you, you and your personal life which no one else will really care about. like going ' oh today i daoed so and so cos she was so bitchy and she has two pimples! i got a new zit today and i think my hair's more and more oily and i broke my fingernail' that kind of stuff? she thinks blogs worth reading are those that talk about stuff that can 'help' or are useful to others. i find thats rather true to some extent.
BUT, the point of a blog is to update everyone else about your personal life and talk about how you feel. or so i thought.
AIYA. dont know luh.haha.

anyway. i really like watching wang zi bian qing wa. its so. fairytale-like. wonderful. haha. and after watching it i start feeling all i-want-to-marry-a-guy-like-mingdao! hahaha. okay i think i'm nuts. and weird agian.
and on several ocassions i've asked my mummy 'do you think i'll get married' haha. i'm afraid i won't get married. or that i won't find a guy who meets my expectations. but then another point to note, for people with minds like mine, having high expectations of their future partner, think about this : do YOU meet your own expectations of another?
if not, like myself probably, the OT of the bible does provide some guides to what virtues a good wife should possess. don't know if there is for husbands.

okay i shall do heymath now. HEYMATH. ahhhhhhhhhhhh.

shopping with michelle and quiz

2006-11-14T22:06:00.000+08:00

emelia made me do this.
One. Think of 15 short bits of interesting stuff about yourself. And they've gotta be true.
Two. Come up with 5 false statements regarding yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.
Three. Jumble them all up together and list them in any order.
Four. Post them on your blog and let people guess which the five false ones are!
Five. Get 5 others to do the same.
1. my parents wanted to name me CHRISTABEL
2. they wanted me to be a boy.
3. i have ten pairs of shoes
4. i cut my own fringe
5. i got best in science in p4
6. swiss cottage sec was my fourth choice for sec schs after psle
7. i used to live opp current nhps
8. i cant stand red licorice
9. i brush my teeth three times a day :DDD
10. i hated sharks fin a few years a go.
11. i love my tan
12. i sit with my legs on the chair when using the com
13. i love vegetables <3
14. i hate vegetables BOO
15. i think this quiz is pointless?
16. i was born in NUH
17. my favourite colour changes every few weeks
18. im a christian
19. i dance to the walls at home.
20. i dont like LOTR

five people to do this too:
1. clare fong!
2. LHM
3. stephy
4. deboRAH [liu] (:
5. caleb? (x

okay, the five false statements are
3. i only have NINE.
5.it was in p3. haha.
9. only twice luh
11. i am NOT tan.haha. i want to be tanned.
14. as said in 13, i LOVE veggies xD

went out with michelle wee to town today. it was fun(: but im lazy to blog about it now.haha. bought quite alot of stuff and spent quite alot of money.bought each other belts for christmas! mines this crown buckle and its brown strap and hers is totally silver. and button earrings from mini bits. and ate at pastamania. i didnt really eat much. about 1/4 a pizza? and drank minestrone. walked around aLOT. bought socks? dont ask me why. and this floober ball for APPLE. it was her idea anyway.and a strawberry milkshake from mos burger which i drank on the way home.
sry everyone, that was two minutes wasted on how i spent my money today.

humansforsale + human cocktail

2006-11-12T18:09:00.000+08:00

this is the first time in a very very long while that im blogging more than once in a day.

How to make a janice

Ingredients:
1 part intelligence
3 parts crazyiness
3 parts beauty

Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Top it off with a sprinkle of emotion and enjoy!

g2 movie marathon cum night bazaar.

2006-11-12T17:50:00.001+08:00

hey[:
sheena and emelia came over on friday:D we didnt do much. went to watch step up with emelia. sheena wasnt interested so she went home first and we met her at imm for dinner after the show.
step up is a great dance show. as in, the dancing is great. the plot's so-so. i wldnt mind a lil more dancing though:D
haha watching it made me realise the impact of probably not being able to achieve my dream of becoming a dancer.
hard to understand?
same here!
see, i like to dance. i dance a lot. and i want to be a dancer when i grow up. but i know its highly unlikely. and hence is sort of like a-dream-that-doesnt-come-true. which is really quite sad. i mean i really really want to dance. then learning all these dances now if i'll nvr be able to do much with them is pointless. i want to perform!i dont want to grow old and teach:( but im really serious about dance. yea but to get the standard of dance i want, i probably have to go overseas, which i'll not be allowed to anytime soon cos i'll have to forfeit my studies. i mean in america they have plenty of arts schools and scholarships and people recognise and appreciate dance there.not so much in singapore i suppose.
guess i'll just stick to something academic which will suit me and studying perfectly well. like becoming a professor or smth. BLEH.
and my toe is stuck in ice now cos it hurts horrubly so i wrapped it with a hanky with ice pressing against my toe.
my dear dear toe!

IMPORTANT IMPORTANT. ATTENTION EVERYONE.
for those not in grace AOG : my church is having a movie marathon at grace 2, the new building. its a movie marathon cum night bazaar. TO THE NON CHRISTIANS. you are veryvery welcome!(:

everyone : im involved with publicity and will anyone with suggestions(reasonable ones) on how i can convince you guys to bring your friends for it, do tell me about them. you can tell me on msn, or email me for those who have my email. for those who dont, on the tagboard.THANKS LOADS[:
and for those who can, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO BRING YOUR FRIENDS.
if you want, i have a list of reasons why you shld (x

for those interested, details regarding Movie Marathon cum Night Bazaar.
date : 24-25 november.
day: friday to saturday.
time: movie screening starts at 11.25pm, but there will be treasure hunts hourly from 7-10pm. 7-8pm, 8-9pm, 9-10pm.
venue: Grace 2. bukit batok west ave 4. opp cdans.

IF YOU'RE INTERESTED, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE SIGN UP NEXT WEEK AFTER SERVICE. for any non-christians interested, contact me, i'd be more than happy to help you register:D

MICHELLE WEE'S DEDICATION

2006-11-09T21:29:00.000+08:00

hello hello (:
i always think of blogging this and that along the road and all but somehow i dont rmb to do so by the time i come online.haha. im kindad lazy to do all the signing in and all.
didnt really do much the last few days.
mm i watched guarden with wenqiang, went for alot of piano classes. went to claras hse. and. not much more i think. followup with beryl,
WATER BAPTISM CLASS.that one was nice. ps ronald conducted it.learnt plenty.it was a rather small class though.only 12 ppl or so. my sister, sharon ye, michelle ye, joey choi, mel fam, gaomin, rachael lim, suzanna, serene tan, bradley kunjie, and ME. haha.

okay i promised to do some lil dedication for michelle wee on my blog. so here it is.
those who dont like michelle wee, please bear with it. LOL.
michelle is nicenicenicenicenice.
she listens to my troubles, always tries her best to cheer me up. rather innocent? shes a good friend, she prays for like so many ppl every night, she has plenty of potential as God's servant. mm shes willing to learn, she keeps promises!
michelle, continue to be everything good you are and everything else good that youre not YET.
loves(:

SURVEY THNG.

2006-11-03T12:03:00.000+08:00

GRACE CHEAH MADE ME DO THIS [x

in the past 24 hours, have you
1.cried? nopes. in the past 48, yes.haha.
2. worn jeans? mm yea.piano class yesterday.
3. met anyone? my family? piano teacher. i shall meet alot of ppl later(:
4. done laundry? nah-ah
5. went hungry? hahaha yea.not starve, but hungry.
6. talked on the phone? yea of course!
7. say I love you? ehhh. no?
do you believe in
8. yourself? mm.kind of? as in i believe that i exist and blahblah? :S
9. your friends? mm some of them? not that i dont believe the rest exist..
10. tooth fairies? haha never before. by the time i learnt abt it i was too un-innocent to believe in them anymore. sad yeah.
11. destiny/fate? everything that happens is part of God's will.
12. ghosts? HOLY GHOST [holy spirit :D]
13. UFO? hmm.not flying saucers of aliens or smth. but flying stuffs like rocks or whatever in space. i mean they can be unidentified, flying, and an object. okay i dont get what im saying!
friends and life...
14. Have you ever wished of having another name? mm.when i was younger, a few times. but mostly no. cant think of any other name i'd rather have than JANICE. my parents wanted to name me christabel though, cause it rhymes with annabel(my sister's name) but can you imagine me, a christabel?
15. Do you like anyone? OF COURSE. i like. the person who made me do this, the people im going to make to do this survey, and well. alot of ppl luh[:
16. Which friend of yours acts most like you do? hmm.my brother? even though he's not exactly a friend.haha. i guess hes like what i was when i was younger. none of my friends act like me!
17. Who was there with you, when you cried the most? GOD! He was always there. if you're talking human, then mummy(: and maybe joelyn but that was during pri sch.
18. What's the best feeling in the world? to see someone smile after doing smth nice for that someone? to love, to be loved! to eat ben and jerrys. shopping spree! TO SEE GOD FACE TO FACE. i imagine i'll be smiling till my jaws crack. i hope (x
19. What's the worst feeling in the world? when i cant handle myself. when i screw up everything, i break down, and i have the mindset that the world hates me and i dont let God comfort me.
20. What's the time now? 12.09

which is better?
21. Chocolate or Vanilla? BOTH.
22. Coke or Pepsi? they kinda taste the same to me.hahaha.
23. Love or Lust? LOVE
24. Sprite or 7-up? again, they taste the same.
25. Girls or Guys? both. im not sexist!
26. Scruff or clean-shaved? does it matter? eh somewhere in between?
27. Movie in the day or night? day or night, the theater's still dark.
the last time...
28. you took a shower? yesterday.
29. cried? when i was watching sinking of japan?
30+31. Who makes you smile/can make you smile no matter what? alot of ppl make me smile, but no one can make me smile no matter what, sadly :(
32. Are you in love right now? YES. with God.

do you ever...
33. sit by the phone waiting for calls? noooooooo
34. save AIM conversations? whats AIM?
35. wish you were someone else? never.
36. wish you were of opposite gender? NO! i love being a girl. being a guys so.. mm. : DDD
37. stay online for more than 8 hours? think so
38. gotten stuck in a lift? nah
39. gone out with people you don't know? my friends friends.but at the end of the outing, i know them already.
40 hate a person to the core that you wished they were dead? once. but i dont wish that person was dead anymore.
41. swear at your parents or siblings? yea. when i was sooo angry.
42. read comics until you cry? hahahaha no.
who was the last person...
43. that you saw? my mum.shes like. twenty metres away from me.
44. that you talked to? jevon?
45. you hugged? mm.i think amanda.
46 who instant messaged you? clare/ wq. they pressed enter at the same time?

do you...
47. colour your hair? spray dyed during minifair last wk?
48. have tattoo? yea the fake kinds when i was younger (X
49. have piercing(s)? mm. one on each year? [:
50. put on lipstick? mm. wedding dinner.
51. own more than 10 flip-flops? no.i only wish.
52. like someone? same as qn 15!
53. hate someone? yea. ever.
54. have any money with you now? yea. in my room?haha. i just got my allowance yesterday[:

5 people to do this
1. AMANDA DEAR [liu]
2. hohohohohohohohohohohoho. (x
3. EMELIA [:
4. michelle WEEEEEEEE. too bad apple doesnt have a blog xD
5. ERVIN CHEONG(:

wan mei jia ting

2006-10-31T21:20:00.000+08:00

完美家庭
我真的很想要一家完美家庭，但完美是那么难地得到的。每次，家庭快要达完美时，都会发生什么事。完美家庭，是那么难得的。
haha dont know why im typing in chinese luh. and i dont know why im using the word 'luh'.
HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE :DDD
and i think i shld change my blogskin soon, the words are so small.

dear Lord, help me do my part so i can have a 完美家庭!

GRACE TWO CHRISTMAS CARNIVAL

2006-10-28T20:58:00.000+08:00

our cell's idea for grace two's christmas carnival [231206] got selected. so went to show norman the idea today. but the idea was pretty similar to scream sec two's ( im in scream sec one) so we decided to change our game. we came out with several ideas before settling on one. this one's a little used before but not super cliche or anything. its quite cute la.haha.but gabrielle and i were racking our brains on what prizes to give earlier today.haha.

went to meet sharon and beryl ( sharon's sch friend) at clementi macs today for followup. sooweijie did it the last time but she cldnt make it today so i taught. quite fun, but i did digress a little at certain points.haha.thank God for giving me this chance to teach. after that sam came down and we just sat around and did nth for awhile. then sharon beryl and i went to grace two cos my cell had to show norman our idea and yadadada.i wrote it up there already.

sometime's its so hard to obey God. sometimes i just want to say certain things, or ding zui, or just say my piece, because i dont think im in the wrong and im being scolded. but i know God wants me to just remain quiet. its so hard to obey. just this morning i was telling beryl :
when we accept christ, we have total ability to resist all temptations of the devil. we do not have to submit to satan. we have to just REN!
application is way harder than conceptual knowedge i guess.i want to obey God, and yet i dont want to when im stuck in such situations.
i know God wants and has in store only the best for me and right now it is because i am in the situation, i am part of it so i cannot see things from the way He does. but sometimes obeying Him means giving up pride, dignity and what is supposedly correct to let things happen His way just so that someone else can learn the lesson.
am i willing to do so?
i mean everyweek for worship at youth service i sing songs about how i want to make my life a prayer, how i lay my life down at His feet, how i am His. and pray that i commit my life into His hands.
i guess words without action is nothing.

ONE TEE CLASS BONDING<3

2006-10-25T19:21:00.000+08:00

ahh.i havent updated in quite a while?
last few days have been pretty fun(:

friday : skipped ballet to go for staffrm RA.had industrial visit in the afternoon to KAP. some kinda industrial visit eh.haha.we went to the macs kitchen.quite cool.but not very appetizing inside.we got to walk into the fridge and freezer.uber cold!funfun:D but if you stay inside for too long (its -22degrees c or so the guide said), your ears will turn red and drop off or smth.haha.
staffroom ra was really entertaining, funny, and relaxing. the chers were soo cute.mr lim dressed up as paul twohill(xhaha.and mrs gan did this 60's dance with the long fluffy things, and butt shaking.haha.mrs thory chew acted as this wildcat and flirted with the PASTOR. he was the judge for the singing competition.hahaha XD

saturday : my cousins wedding.he was the groom.bride's name is TRANG, born in vietnam, went to switzerland as war refugees, and studied in australia uni where she met my cousin.she's nice!haha. my bro was the bellboy.and my uncle lent my daddy his convertible which we rode in.duper cool.if you put your hands up will driving the wind pushes against it VERY STRONGLY.
and i found out that my cousin knew, and invited amanda yow(she was the emcee), pastor ronald and family(he did the exaltations for the church thing) and jenn and xiaowei. and caleb was the photographer's assistant or smth.i didnt notice until my bro pointed out.haha my clever bro.

sunday : CAMY AUDITIONS.we were soooo nervous.according to cant-rmb-who, 24 signed up.surprisingly only three for keyboards.phyllis, abigail sin and myself. abigail sin didnt turn up. we were all freaking out before it started.i was first for keyboards which was in level 3 hall. other instruments were in other rooms. waiting room was sound rm lvl 3 hall. which means every one SEES but cant HEAR the keyboardist while auditioning. mine went fine. a few messups here and there. had to play two compulsory songs, shout your fame and all for love. then third song is own choice. i chose STILL (: sam was my 'examiner'. after the three songs she tested some other stuffs. then i got a ppr with comments. and she kept those with the 'grades'. the comments said (from memory) 'i like that you did fillups, confident, accurate chords, and i cant rmb the rest' rm for improvement was 'chords too broad'. quite satisfied i guess. just wait for the results.if i dont get in, i guess i'll be sad, but its God's will la. but i really want to serve in CAMY.

i honestly dont rmb anything abt monday.

tuesday: went to the BIRDPARK. cos my bro claimed he'd never been there before. he has la, when he was much younger. and he said that for his EOY oral and got scolded by my mummy.haha.it was quite fun i guess. then at night went to vivo city.well its huge alright, the shops are mostly open, high-end, class. but not all that spectacular i'd say.

today. MINIFAIR. oh and my piano teacher and her friends came down to do this indonesian gamelan music performance thing.i cant really appreciate it. minifair. the food were all ex.we had korean bbq.quite nice. and i also had blackmore sling. some cocktail thing. i guess its sparkling water, passionfruit juice, and some jelly at the bottom. its nice.and of one t, cherry, rox, yu, jess, nicole and me dyed our hair. i did mine ORANGE. i wanted green but the person said my hairs too BLACK. i thought it was lime green but it turned out the green wasnt that nice so nvm.haha.the orange looked like pinkish-red. and we played POLARBEAR, muderer and the matthewmarklukejohn game in class.we had 'classparty' tried hitting the piniata but it wldnt break.so we played monkey with it until it broke.haha.mrs gan and mrs ng played that one too. then we played a LOT of blind mice. sooo fun laa.and dbl wacko. and focus. it was really a great day of class bonding today. and we ate in the canteen as a class after the minifair was going to close. and we were all already bloated. i brought mango pudding, made last night. it w as CLEARED. yay.so happy everyone finished it.though at first not many ppl dared to cos i didnt bring spoons.-.- so someone started using a cup to scoop it..haha.then the rest followed suit.interesting ehh.

i realise this blog post is kinda hard to read.sry!
baked cookies just now.DBL CHOC CHIP.yumyum.

okayokay i shall link everyone i promised to link since many many weeks ago.
HAPPY EXAMS-ARE-OVER FOR-THIS-YEAR EVERYONE! :DD

results

2006-10-18T22:32:00.000+08:00

i did pretty good for EOYs. really thank God. indeed He satisfies.

and i did smth tragic. i mean like. bad. wrong. reckless. am i ever so dead.actually ive been deader before. but im really afraid of the consequences. i mean i cant just ask God to imagine i didnt do anything and just forget about it. actually its not that serious but i feel horrid.
like horridhorrid.
at least until she replies my sms.
oh wells.
shall i wallow in self pity in the meantime.
AHHHHHHHHHHHH.
someone decapitate me. pleaseeeeee.
actually, dont.

EXAMS ARE OVER:DDD

2006-10-13T11:50:00.000+08:00

lalala.
EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER.
boy, have i ever felt so good(:
bio: i didnt really know how to do the essay qn.
chem: okayokay laa
math: killer!
lang arts three: relaxing(:
hcl listening: WHOOPEE.
donedonedone.LALALA.
went high(x
went to pizza hut at btp after exams were over with classmates.
then went home.
then went to claras hse. taught her freemovement dance, then just crapped at the piano and danced danced danced cos she moved all her furniture aside to create space:D haha.then she let me try her mum's mooncake. her mum made baked ones, snowskin, and agar mooncakes.really nice.haha.
mooncakes make me fat, though.
went to for backbone checkup at sgh yesterday.the curve increased by ONE degree. third time i did an xray.haha.killing the cells in me.anyway at first the doctor was like, its more or less stabilising, so just come back in one year's time (normally its six mths) then after awhile he was like, aiya nvm la, you can be discharged.
WHOOPEE. THANKS GOD :DD
oh you know xray is like radiograph right.so you cant be pregnant if you want to do an xray cos you'll kill the baby.so chemotherapy is a heavier form of radiography.so what if a pregnant woman has cancer?forfeit the baby?
ahhhh.
okay i shall stop worrying about useless things, cos even if i worry, it wont change the world.
lala.

i shall pick my bro from his sch later and bring him out for lunch.
im the nicest sister on this earth.
yeahh.
(:

EOYs

2006-10-05T18:34:00.000+08:00

hello.
i just realised i havent been online in a long time, more than a week.boy, am i lagging behind technology.
EOYs started yesterday, it was lang arts and hcl essay. i chose stars for lang arts, i wrote that my dad found a cure to cancer, but it was some complicated plot, and the cure only came in at the end unexpectedly. chi was some touching story about mu ai. haha so cliche ya, but i thought the plot was pretty interesting, if i do say so myself.
today was lang arts ppr two. compre. okayokay la. then hist. DIE. tiff called me yesterday afternoon and we historysized for at least two hours, i didnt read THAT much, but i was more or less prepared cos today before that everyone was testing each other like anything and i could ans everything. 1/3 of the qns i half didnt know, so just smoked through. haha. there was so much writing. pure writing for two hrs minus fifteen mins reading time.
tmrs geog and hcl ppr two.
monday chem and bio
tues math and math
wed lang arts and hcl ppr threes.
six down, eight to go.
guess i'll survive(:

Jesus is the answer, yes? :D

badbadbad

2006-09-25T18:01:00.000+08:00

hello hello(:
havent updated in a duperbly long time. been really really busy with eh, everything.
mm ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE FOR EOYs. just pray, study, pray, study. yeah. haha.
oh had eng oral today, it went pretty good(:
and im kinda in a rush now so i cant write emoemo. haha.

my spiritual relationship with god has been really really really bad, way down the drain. im doubting God for the first time in my life. i cant believe it. i was walking down the slope with sam(lim) the other day after sch, then she told me that she's also going through the same. last few weeks whenever i doubt God, i just told myself He is real, He is there, He exists. but thats just the quick way out. but do i really believe? i went nuts and cried several times because of this. i want to believe, i want to have that faith, and i know that God is living. but i cant bring myself to BELIEVE that God is real. its so so hard laa. then i told sheryl(my cm!:D) abt it yesterday cos i was really in a loss. she said that Satan tempts you when you are at your strongest.and reminded me that it was me who once told her that sometimes, we just need to believe, even without first seeing God. its just that blind faith, that faith that's so innocent thats just like: i tell you, you believe.
I WANT THAT FAITH.
and i think i really need it. i mean, i still pray everynight, but after i pray or smth i cant convince myself He's real.howhowhow. so scary:( she said i can like do qt for like one hr or smth after exam, and really meditate. but im so afraid of this time before the exam, during these two weeks. WHAT IF I BACKSLIDE DURING THIS TWO WEEKS?
i so so so do not want to.
AHH.
someone pray for me, please?

my relationship with God & mich's bday

2006-09-10T20:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MICHELLE (wee) :D
wed was her bday, met her and aly at ps.
we took neo, and aly and i secretly went to get her ripple flipflops she wanted.
and i bought her a mini cake aly suggested on the way there.
went to watch devil wears prada. duper nice(: it talks alot about current issues, like girls going all out to get the right clothes, shoes, and stuff.
then her dad came and drove us to her hse. we slacked in her room for awhile, then everyone else arrived.
waded in the baby pool to take pics with everyone else, bbq ( we didnt do the bbq-ing) ate, went to her hse. had like her four diff cakes. her mom made strawberry cheesecake with oreo at the bottom. WAY NICE(:
then we were making prank calls, lame, yes i know. they called this guy and let me talk to him. i was like 'heyy, what time's our date tonight? ... huh? youre not david? omg! ahh srysry. 'then i supposedly put down, everyone started laughing like anything and they said 'go jan' and then janell realised i didnt put down properly! and he heard my name. then she slamed down the phone, but he called back so ichanged back to my normal voice and went like 'who are you?' haha then janell clicked off again and switched off the phone. it was sooo funny. everyone made lots of prank calls. oh and when me and mich and aly went to pick her cousin up, we had truth or truth, all the deep dark secrets came spilling out(x haha.
then i went home.

okay next thing. recently, my spiritual life has gone down the drain. way way bad. i hardly do quiet time, no bible reading. i pray for like half a minute and i lose focus. and i dont really care for praying anymore. and i just feel so spiritually weak, like im so far away from God. today's worship was good. i decided i have to pull myself back. my relationship with God = commitment(i know jamie koh hates that word) and its not surprising because commitment is such a big word.i made that commitment last time, and i was committed before. now im so busy, tired. but if others can do it, so can i! i mean i WANT to have that relationship, iwant that relationship to grow, but its so hard, so hard.
today during worship i really put aside my distractions and what joey said ' worship God for who he is and not who you think he is' really struck me. maybe i havent been thinking of God as God, but as a friend, and not a friend who is God at the same time. i havent been giving him enough respect, returning him what he gave me. when you think about who God really is, you'll realise he is so great, you cant find a word to describe him. He is so so big, and i just feel like a small child again, which i am in His sight.it's so wonderful to be God's child(:

and i put my name down for CAMY recruitment. still have to go through audis. hope i get in. my mom doesnt want me to take up so much stuff. she wants me stop ballet even, cos it's twice a week now. i really want to be in CAMY. i put my name down for keyboard. but im afraid i have to go for dunno what during exam period, which i dont want to, and i cant anyway. after exams is fine. but can i bring myself to give up ballet? i really really like dancing.

aiya, dunno what to do la. pray i guess.

tag thingy

2006-09-07T22:53:00.000+08:00

AMANDA YUEN MADE ME DO THIS. haha.
Skin colour: beige
Hair colour: stark raven black (a teacher once asked if i dyed it black. haha.)
Eye colour: dark brown
Clothes colour: white, red, black, blue, purple
Wardrobe colour: blue and brown. i have two.
Seven memorable things this/last month: 1) teacher's day celebration (dressing up) 2)crossroad 47 3) visiting mrs yuen with jo hq and kai 4) going back to fuhua 5) planetshaker's concert 6) bibiana's nicenice dance 7) rachel's funny vandalism thing
Six people you talked face to face this week(since thursday) : 1)michelle wee 2) alyssa 3) jan (my twin!janell) 4) emmeliene 5) megan 6)rachel choe
Five things you bought recently1)buble/milk tea! kiwi and mango 2) icecream at raffles 3) chocolate 4) ticket for the mep concert? 5) new top
Four people you saw today: 1) my family 2) everyone at youth center 3) everyone i walked past 4) some ppl sitting at the busstop/in the bus. wayway more than four ppl, i know. haha.
Three people you want to talk to now but cant: 1)jolene (i was busy when she called. grr) 2) sam (he owes me alot) 3) mummy : IM HUNGRY!

Two things on your mind now: 1) what food there is in my house 2) when am i finally going to do qt. Here's the second one:1. grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18 and find line four: dou dong si le, cun min dou hen ku nao. its my bros chi tb. haha.
2.stretch your left arm out as far as you can. the empty air.
3. last thing you watched on TV? now the TV's on to the channel u show.forgot the title.
4.without looking, guess what time it is: 2243
the actual time? 2350
6.what can you hear with exception of the computer? teevee,some sound from the other com.
7. when did you last step outside?what were you doing? piano lesson this morning, then went to crossroad47.
8. what did you look at before you started this survey? talktalktalk?
9.What are you wearing? michelle's shirt and blue fbts. haha.
10. did you dream last night? some scary thing, that's sorta personal. haha. its about my sis, nth to do with me (i know you're thinking how that's personal)
11.When did you last laugh?er plenty on msn.
12.what is on the walls of the room you are in? clock, speakers, some big picture. PAINT! :D
13. seen anything weird lately? nahh
14. what do you think of this quiz? time-consuming. grahh. (why am i even doing it?)
15. what is the last film you saw? devil wears pradaXD
16. becoming a multi-millionaire overnight,what would you buy? alot of things, including choclate : D aiya dont buy so much la, dump in the bank or invest.
17. tell me something about you that i don't know. i have nvr read or watched harry potter in my life. how interesting.haha.
18.what one thing would you change about the world? er, world peace! xp haha!
19. do you like to dance? YES(:
20. George W Bush... american? yea i guess
21. if your first child is a girl,what do you call her? smth nice ( aduhh)
22. if your first child is a boy,what do you call him: some hot hunky name.
23. have you ever considered living abroad? considered, but i dont think i want to. anyway i wldnt become some ambassodor of spore, i dont want to study political science. haha.
24. what do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates? WELCOME :D
25. 20 people who must do this in their journal or blog. i'll go tag you (x

GHOST

2006-09-01T18:53:00.000+08:00

ghost.
this word has many er, negative connotations for most.
actually i was thinking about ghosts.
do ghosts exists?
how come people always mention of seeing ghosts, and/or ghosts haunting them?
how come i've never ever seen one myself?
i asked hoho and his dad this once. his dad pointed out that the Holy Spirit is referred to as the Holy Ghost too. therefore, is spirit = ghost?
ghost in chi is gui hun. spirit in chi is ling hun. both also have the 'hun'. do they share smth in common?
God is a spirit. is He a ghost?
i suppose i'll never see a ghost in my lifetime. as i'll never get to see the Holy spirit. so those people who see 'ghosts' are lying? or just hallucinating.

wiki - A ghost is an alleged non-corporeal manifestation of a dead person. It is often claimed to be a manifestation of the spirit or soul of a person which has remained on earth after death.

according to wiki, the Holy Spirit is not then a ghost, because the Holy Spirit isnt a dead person.
so, believe man or bible? but believing the bible is based on faith after all.

will i come back and be a ghost after i die?
nono, according to the bible, i go to heaven.
therefore, according to the bible, wiki is wrong.

grr. i hate asking questions i cant answer myself. wait, isnt that the point of asking questions in the first place?

grah.

my week

2006-09-01T18:36:00.000+08:00

MY WEEK.( the most interesting thing on earth!)
monday : class chapel. its nice that one t is really bonding spiritually as well. chapel was good. the weather had this cool effect, that just made me focus. it was so still. it reminded me of psalms 10 : 41 (i THINK thats the reference) 'be still, and know that I am God.' we did worship, sharing, praying, praying. and most of us cried. it was really emotional. but nice(:

random line : my hair is in a (neat, nice) french braid : D

yesterday (thurs) : teacher's day celebration. four themes to dress up for for the sec side. my class got aloha. i wore this purple top, white shorts, flats - bea helped me stick a (real) flower on each one, let hair down and put this huge blooming lovelyily beautiful hibiscus behind my ear, and this aloha-ish yellow hair tie thing on my wrist (viv's). i think one t looked really aloha-ish. pity we didnt win the best dressed class prize. the celebration was pretty nice. the chers wore mg uni. two male teachers did it too! it was hilarious! haha. went back to fuhua, met most 6a 05 ppl. went to ec to eat, then take neo prints (uber squeezed, not my idea anyway) ate chocolate, bought present for mrs yuen then went to visit her with jo, hq and kai after the rest went back.

random line two : HAPPY TEACHERS DAY(:

random line three : i love chocolate: DD

random line four : my room is now (cucumber) green!

random line four : i love being random.

politics

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i am firmly set on not becoming a politician anytime in the near future :D