Thursday, June 29, 2006

pe!

oh dear, i actually liked pe today! haha
it was fun. we played games.my group won! yay. haha
and we took height and weight. i SHRUNK.two.one cm shorter. LOL.
haha. i think pe gets me awake and ready for the rest of the day, if not i would be sleepy and groggy.i haven't have enough sleep lately.gah
we had devotions in chinese, malay, and a wee bit of tamil this morning.haha.
looks like mother tongue week is coming along pretty well (:
haha.okay see yas.<3

Posted by jann at 22:35

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

just my luck & more abt pride

heys.
according to two ppl, i have tension stress.oh great.
oh and i went to watch just my luck with abby last friday.
for those who still havent watched it, dont watch it.
the plot is baseless and the storyline's plain, surface shallow and there's no substance to it.
the only thing is that it's funny. but its a pretty bad show i guess.
and according to five ppl, i have a lack of rest.which i so totally agree.
so i promised myself to get off the com by eleven tonight
and its ten fifty five now! haha
and more about pride.
pride is often one of the causes of conflict, in many ways.
pride in itself is not bad, but how it affects others, and is used, may be.
aiya, i think i'll just get off the com now.
will everyone else please get lots and lots of rest too?
sweet dreams (:
jan. <3

Posted by jann at 22:56

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

musical prac

everyone's tired, worn, weary, busy, tied up/down, stressed, over occupied.i need to be refreshed in the Spirit. the holidays didnt do much help. it was a definite improvement from the usual daily sch life, but not enough for relaxation and enjoyment.
matt just commented that i looked very stress on sunday and that it shows on my face. i wish i wasnt.
todays the first day of term three.okay actually its yesterday cos its past midnight now, but nvm.it started off pretty okay, and funny.its mother tongue week. so chapel and devotions were in half chinese!haha.so cool.but pretty ununderstandable for many.musical prac was good.the directors said it was better than they expected(: well done, musical ppl! but the part i hate most abt the tech runs is that they run late. and i dont like the reason more-the horrendously long briefings!it was like, an hour?
and i feel degenerated and physically worn worn worn out now.i have so many things i feel unfair, or that i can complain abt. but ive decided not too. i guess theyre ppl in a worse situation than i. some have a hist test tmr and they havent started studying because of the musical prac!
my shoulders hurt and are aching horribly. anyone wants to suggest any remedies?
oh i had mashed potatoes for dinner today(:
okay that was random.haha.
i woke up at five fifteen to bathe and do chi hw this morning.
i had BANANA PANCAKES FOR BREAKFAST.
see, my life isnt that bad. at least i have banana pancakes and mashed potatoes(:haha
so many other things i want to blog about. but im simply too lazy too do so now.and much to weary.

someone remind me to do qt tonight!
the handkerchief will wipe away her frozen tears.just where is that handkerchief?

Posted by jann at 00:16

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

amanda's party

yesterday was amanda liu's birthday.
HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY AMANDA <3
she invited a bunch of us to her hse for a party.
those from church were me, jessie, phyllis, nicole, sam, caleb, joshtoh, jemlim, kerpal, shawn, joelboey, lester, momo, hoho.
and deserie and szemin from her sch.
so we played some games.then had bbq.
but we didnt really do any bbq-ing
her mom sis and maid bbq-ed while we just lazed.
i like the swing outside her hse.
so nice.haha.
it was really fun.
too lazy to describe it in detail.
yea, happy bday again manda.
LALA.im getting seriously horribly lazy.
schs reopening soon.
AH.
(:

Posted by jann at 22:13

Sunday, June 18, 2006

VBC

vbc was a hit!
i went there carrying a super small bag.haha.
it was fun. there was this guy in my group, gerald, whom i already knew from last year vbc cos he was in my grp last year too. EUNICE WAS IN MY GROUP.eunice liang, rafael's sis.i love her.haha.i was agl.sis nancy was gl and bro rodney was the other agl. i loved the ppl in my dorm. the other teachers there were always dissappearing, so i was the only teacher there.they called me sis janice.WHOO.haha.and i slept in the bed in the middle of everyone.haha.the games were fun, tiring, and bro raymond (he's in charge of games)has a vry complicated mind.his games super hard to solve.at night was fun. the youths who went was sam, hoho, momo, yong bing, caleb, dansoh, justin yeo, jeanie, darren and me. but sam hoho momo yong bing caleb dansoh and me mostly stuck together.and it was pretty fun. there were some moments which werent quite so pleasant among our group.but.let's not talk abt it.and caleb and sam weren't happy with children's church style of worship.cos they felt the pace was too fast, and its not focused on the words.and i feel that the children's church teachers dont respect us as teachers.we are not considered teachers, but as youths, even though our responsibilities and position during camp is as great, or greater than the teachers.anyway, we led morning exercise for two mornings.pretty fun. and on the last night, which was for the kid's entertainment, we put up a fifteen minute skit.with a few songs.sam on the guit, me on keyboard. justin was the main character.and we all had parts to support him.it was about how this 'bad boy' turned good after accepting Christ.
then after that had rage choir prac.i couldnt sing considering my horrible throat now.
i lost my voice during vbc.
anyways, after choir prac jessie came over to my place.after awhile we were both so tired we went to sleep.haha.
played for worship for presch today morning so didnt go for cell. i cldnt really sing for service. i drag natania, keith's sister along for youth.so excited.shes psix and joining us next year.i so like her.she was inmy dorm for vbc.haha.after service, enzheng, matt, jessie, amanda liu, mich, momo, hoho, hch and me went to sams hse.his cousins were there too.they so dao la.haha.
my sis maked durian crepe just now.SUPER NICE.
okay, enough liao.
bye (:

Posted by jann at 21:44

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

MY PILLOWS (:

i just found out i have seven pillows, ten stuffed toys, one blanket, and one purple alarm clock which i dont use.
at night, its plus me.
wow, what a squeeze my bed must be.
haha.
vbc is TMR (:

Posted by jann at 13:52

Sunday, June 11, 2006

pride & sunday

today is sunday. (duh)
sunday is the greatest day of the week.
cause church is on sunday. okay i think im high now.haha.
anyways.
today was breakfast cell.
when i was walking from bus stop to tanglin mall
joshua toh was walking there for breakfast cell too
and i totally daoed him.
and i just got scolded for daoing him on msn just now.haha.
anyways.
i got a slab of cake. belated bday (: yay
service was good.it was by matthew wai.
went up for altar call.
i have touched God once again.
i have come to that level of worship once more, and the last time i was this close to God, was about four months ago. i find it hard to focus during worship.
sometimes its just us worshipping on the outside.
the mind & heart just isnt there.
had vbc briefing after service.
im musician and assistant grp leader.
and im actually underage to be a teacher there, but. nvm.haha.
cant wait for vbc. (: so exciting
theres aircon and hot water for bath this year.haha.
its at gb campsite.
after service went to fareast with sam momo and caleb for late lunch/tea.
they had long johns
i absolutely refuse to eat long johns. haha.
i had shilin taiwan street snacks.
my lovely crispy chicken. (: haha.
oh i was added a dota convo just now. last night too.
tonight was sam jtoh jliew jemtoh kerpal lanz kendice junwen andrew zee
i was the extra one in the convo who had no idea how to play dota.
and sam and joshua were telling lanz that im vry good at dota and i pwned them
WOW.haha.
i cant play dota for nuts.
and i finished my lang arts project already. FINALLY (:
and on to chinese now.
the only hol hw i have left is hcl one.
everything else is DONE.
im only one third through ai de jiao yu.
AHH.im so slow.

okay so matt (tan,) asked me to blog about pride.
here goes.
definition(wiki):Pride refers to a strong sense of self-respect, a refusal to be humiliated as well as joy in the accomplishments of oneself or a person, group, or object that one identifies with.
i shall focus on pride as a barrier between God and us.
pride can prevent us from truly experiencing God. pride can make us think we are as good as God, or better, like lucifier thought, that we are so good that we can replace God. and we might think, what's the point of worshipping God, because our pride gives us the impression that we are as good as God.
pride can also hold us back from God. sometimes we dont dare to go broken before the Lord. we dont want to show ourselves to God. we are too proud to admit to God that we are sinners, or that we are humans who cannot rely on our own strength, but on God's.
pride can also be in the form of self-consciousness.during worship, in front of others, we sometimes dont dare to cry out to God, to fall to our knees, or to look 'distorted' in front of friends. we put our pride before our relationship with God.
i have sometimes been the third point. self-consciousness and not daring to be 'distorted' before God.in previous service, i tried to worship God but at the same time look good too. this is sometimes not possible. its sometimes just one, or the other. during service today, i just gave up my pride, my self-consciousness. ive decided my relationship with God is more important. how about you?
there's so much more ways that pride hinders us from God. but im trying my best to let go of it before God. but i have to do hw now.haha.yea.
more about pride will be on matt's and hoho's blog. but im not sure if theyve written abt it yet.their links are on the left.
anyways everyone,
all the best for your own hol hw.haha.
and rmb, it's good to have pride, pride in our work. but take note of the limits.
when God isnt pleased with your lvl of proudness, thats the limit.
im sure God hasnt been pleased with mine many times too.
but hey, im working on it. and you shld too. (:
CHEERS. (:
jan, <3

Posted by jann at 23:15

Saturday, June 10, 2006

hols

it's been a really really busy hol so far. sch everyday since last monday until two days ago.
on tuesday we got a break from two to six pm. then at night was full run.
so during the break, yiyi, gabbie, brean, annie, laura, pooie rona and me went to far east.
i saw haoqing there with his bro. haha. we daoed each other, then later smsed.
they got me a personalised tote bag for me, that says janjan (: and sang me a bday song while we were waiting for gabbie to come. then we took neoprints twice. they were CUTE.haha. and we SANG grace at the chicken rice stall upstairs. good to know that we're not afraid of proclaiming that WE ARE CHRISTIANS.
'Jesus said 'if you are ashamed of me before man, i will be ashamed of you before my Father in Heaven.'
forgot the reference.haha.
yesterday. -
had piano lesson in the morning. i was wearing a white blouse and it was raining hard. the back i was carrying was dyed.cos it wasnt white.so it 'tuo-ed se'. then stained my blouse. so i went home and told my piano teacher i would come half an hour late. on the way to piano class, while it was raining so horribly heavily, the song shine Jesus shine kept coming to me. so i sang it aloud. i like singing christian songs when im moving about alone and theres no one around me. esp from home to central and home to busstop.haha.the last time it rained, to me it was cleansing of sins, cos i was asking for forgiveness then.but yesterday.the part of the chorus goes ' FLOW RIVER FLOW, FLOOD THE NATIONS WITH GRACE AND MERCY.' and the rain was flooding the carpark.haha.i think its like a sign. and God has been so graceful and merciful to me.
lately i havent been doing my quiet time much. and my life hasnt been revolving around God. its been me. whatever gave me the idea i can live off my own strength? no, i am not enough. i need God. without Him i am nothing. and God has been flooding the nations with His grace and mercy. so many times. but we all take it for granted. we dont realise it.we imagine it to be God's duty to forgive us time and again. but we will all be judged. we cant say we're sorry and do it again. there's no middleground in this. im not disciplined enough.each time after confessing my sins, i find i always do it again and again. maybe my efforts arent my best.
oh and about quiet time. to me, reading the bible and prayer is quiet time, but i dont think its the MUST way to have quiet time. whats wrong with just being silent, reflecting on what God has done for us, having a nice long talk with God and just singing songs of praise and worship to Him. even a walk in the park alone while praying and dedicating the walk solely to Him is spending time with God. who says we must pray, read bible, then pray again. i agree its good. but the main point is to spend time with God and let the relationship progress, isnt it? i dont think its all about studying the bible, but sometimes we should quieten down, and listen to what the holy spirit has to say to us instead.
i also find that sometimes, when i have troubles or doubts, i tend to seek for answers which are earthly. answers from man. answers that come from man and apply to man. but what about God? i try to include Him in my life. but its not enough. i want Him FIRST in my life. not number five. five is no good. second is not there. its ONE, FIRST. after all, Hes the one who will always be there, who is PERFECT. who can compare to Him?
i really thank God for all the peace and comfort He provides me with. everytime theres smth, humans provide it, true. but its all TEMPORARY. God is ALWAYS, FOREVER, PERMANANT. God is indeed good (:
OKAY. back to yesterdays stuff (im so super unorganised, can)
so in the afternoon went out with fuhua ppl (: joe clar hq yl ken wx yj.
supposed to meet at fuhua gate at 12.30.
i reached at 12.41, and i was the last person to arrive.
why is everyone so punctual? or am i just super late.
well anyways, went alicia and i meet its much worse. that time we were meeting for lunch, i was forty five mins late and she was an hour and fifteen late. LOL.
so we had a quick bite at entertainment centre then went down to town.
watched shes the man at cine. it was good (: and really really funny. and its pretty meaningful too. i think viola and duke are so pei together. haha.
was supposed to play bball today.
but i overslept. as usual. haha.
one more thing, i was reading sams blog just now. and what he said about living on his parents faith really struck me. how strong is my faith? i know my parents really love God. i believe God is there. i try to live the christian life. i attend church regularly. i try to serve in church. but deep down. do i really believe? i want to believe. but there are things shaking those pillars of faith. i sometimes wonder, how can i be sure the bible is true? how do i know my God is really real? every religion claims their God is real. Christianity has its miracles. but there are miraculous stuffs happening in the lives of people of other faiths to, arent there? so how can i be sure. how do i know heaven really exists.
i really dont want to be so doubtful. but my roots arent rooted deeply enough maybe? or when i start thinking about the matter, and questions arise. anyhows, i shall not close the matter. i believe God will send people to confirm HE IS REAL. i know God is real. i want to believe God is real.
I BELIEVE GOD IS REAL.
how convincing am i?
sigh.
suhui once told me. ' do not doubt that God is real, because God IS real.' thats one of the things shes told me that ive rmbed so clearly now. well. GOD IS REAL.
i have to do hw now. on a beautiful, saturday afternoon like this. bleagh. probably going out later tonight though. yay (:
cant wait for tmr. anticipate. tmrs drawing closer.
TMR IS THE SUNDAY, I SHALL REACH OUT AND TOUCH GOD. I SHALL BE RENEWED IN SPIRIT. AND I WILL BELIEVE GOD IS REAL.
i love sundays (:
but hey. who says i can only experience God on sundays?
ill go spend some time with God later. i always find i do work better when i begin with worship and prayer, which i hardly do, cos i tend to neglect God in my studying life alot, except when exams come. but when i do pray before studying, im much more effecient.
anyway, it was my dear JOLENE TAI, who brought prayer before exams and told me to thank God when i received my exam results. i think that was in p5 or p6, when we became besties. shes still my bestie now.
once a bestie, always a bestie (okay that line is so unoriginal.haha.)
THANK YOU, JOLENE. <3
okay. time for work.
GOD BLESS EVERYONE.
AND EVERYONE, BELIEVE THAT GOD IS REAL. COS GOD IS REAL. (:

Posted by jann at 13:46

Sunday, June 04, 2006

happy bday to me (:

bday was good.
the night before i was talking to justin on the phone and i cried for quite a long while.
cos i didnt want to leave childhood.haha.
and i wrote an essay about my past year and feelings on monday and read it to sam and justin. haha.so spent bday at changi chalet.
invited some church friends. didnt go do anything.just walk here and there. go to beach. go arcade. and walk alot.and sit in the room alot.talking. making fun of em.hoho's center parting hair, haha.and gossiping.haha.so mean right.haha.IT WAS FUN.some ppl stayed over.abby came second day and stayed till after second day bbq. then i tried sharing the gospel with my cousin and after one hour i was only at the part where adam and eve were chased out of eden cos of sin and how sin affects our relationship with God. cos she kept interrupting me.then she went to watch da chang jin.i went to talk on the phone. then she watch ghost story after that. and i countinued talking.haha.until my phone no batt. then we both go upstairs to sleep. so i never finished sharing.haha. but i enjoyed the whole chalet loads. and today went to sch for musical rehearsal.then on the way back i was on the bus to central for music lesson
there was this lil girl about five - seven years old. she was singing inaudible syllabes but there was a tune.but quite out of tune though. after listening to her for ten mins. i found out the song she was 'singing' was my humps. i was freaked seriously.shes only like six years old? and shes singing that kind of song loudly on the bus. so scary.haha.
and there's church tmr.YAY.haha.
see you (:
and happy bday ji <3