Wednesday, January 24, 2007

worship

hello. just to let everyone know, my math isnt as bad anymore. factorisation now seems more understandable. im getting lots and lots of practice(: i do hope my grades are good this year. i really and desperately want good grades.
i've been free-er lately. as in there's still hw, five times a week dance, golf, cell and service, camy training, piano and guit and all. everythings in full swing. but now i have more time for God. God's giving me time. He's opening up time slots here and there are reminding me every so often that He wants to spend time with me.
God desires to spend time with us, and we shld too. its a really nice feeling. i've always loved worship, be it during service, chapel, camy or cell. worship is always so uh. enlightening. im not sure thats the best word but i worship really makes me concentrate on God. i mean if i pray myself in my mind, i lose focus half the time. if i sing or pray aloud, its easier to stay on task. worship is great!
and i'll be leading scream's first officiall cell worship this saturday(: we had last last sat but it was regional, and it was led by scsm ( the other cell in my region, which stands for spore chi st margs)
we have a scream clap. it's ohsocool!:D and this super scream thing. scream seriously rocks my mgee socks.
anyway, the theme's on faithfulness. and i havent really finished choosing my songs yet. ahh.
i think so far i have sort of decided on
forever, and i'll dump in the bridge of the 'we worship you, hallelujah hallelujah we worship you for who you are' not very sure of the title. but the bridge goes ' you are good all the time and all the time you are good' and i really really really want to use centre of my life but it doesnt really suit the theme i suppose?
OH I KNOW. I SHALL USE SO CLOSE. mannn i really really love that song. one of my gathrillion favs(x
and blessed be your name
okay. shld i have made me glad or through it all or both?
okay i think i'll use both?
so it'll be :
1. forever (the forever God is faithful, forever God is strong one.hillsongs apparently has another version)
2. blessed be your name
3. dump in the bridge somewhere.
4. SO CLOSE!
5. made me glad
6. through it all.
shld i knock out anything?
ahhh.
okay i still have work left. i have to type out some philo thing. GRAH. and read sarah's xiaoshuo. and send my xiaoshuo to someone to print for me. BOTH my printers are apparently dead.
ohdear-

Posted by jann at 21:18

Saturday, January 20, 2007

sigh.

for without Him, i am nothing.

i'm reallyreally really bad at math.really.

we all know it's the politically correct answer to not seek for money, and instead for meaning and happiness in life. we all know that we shouldnt desire so much of a nice landed house, and plentiful pocket money, and all we desire. we all know we should be content with what we have-we're already so so blessed. we all know what we should do and what we shouldnt.we all know we shouldnt lust. we all know we shouldnt be greedy. we all know we shouldnt be moneyfaced. we all know money doesnt make the world go round.
we all know all these, but we do do all these.
we want to be financially rich. we want social status. we want more, despite having more than enough.
we know it's not part of our morals to, but still, we do.
we 'can't help' wanting all these.
human desires are sometimes just so overwhelming.temptation is always so deceiving, and always has some cool incentive. forbidden fruit is always so lovelily sweet.
i do realise how blessed i am.
i also do realise how i still want more.
we'll never have enough, we'll always one more, hence someone came up with the saying 'be content with what you have'.
but STILL,
it's so hard to not desire those of the world, isn't it?
i mean, there are rich christians.

here's what im going to do. i'm going to make a list of how God has blessed me. and i'm going to try to be satisfied.
i thank God for :
1.being God.
2.my parents
3. siblings to quarrel with and learn from those quarrels
4.discipline
5.my age.
6. every problem He has ever put me through
7.having the talent to dance nicely (sorry, thats what i think)
8.being allowed to take ballet class
9.zaki and miss wee
10. all my friends.
11. all my 'friends'
12. my pocket money
13. my brains.
14. my beautiful body
15. any and every physical defect
16. people who love me
17. loving me
18. a super fun and encouraging twotee
19. my handwriting
20. for the physical defects i do NOT have
21. making me make this list
22. being able to play the piano
23. giving me a chance to learn the guitar
24. such a lovely piano teacher.
25. my schedule
26. miss yeong, mrs sandiran and mrs azmi
27. the special kindergarten i went to
28. r-age
29. ps ronald and ps cuixian and suhui jie.
30. my own study room
31. that i even have a hp
32. that i love myself
33. for making me so special and different and unique.
34. for the freedom my parents give me
35. that i live in singapore
36. that we're not at war
37. that girls dont go to ns
38. for making me a girl
39. this day He has made
40. the past 13+ years of my life
41. being the greatest teacher anyone can ever have
42. teaching me to be patient
43. giving me great ideas on how to not lose my temper when i get annoyed.
- pause at this point. i'm kindof. correction. very irritated by someone and something now.
janice is seriously irritated and at the highest point. irritate me one more time and that person
will.
HEY, I MEAN IT'S HARD TO LOVE PEOPLE WHO ANNOY YOU SO BADLY.
44. a conscience
45. letting me have my blog. note : THIS I MY BLOG, I CAN SAY WHAT I WANT. IF YOU DONT AGREE, DONT BOTHER CONTRADICTING ME ON MY TAGBOARD. JUST LEAVE.annoying comments are unwelcome.
sorryyyy im a little in a bad mood now. mostly annoyed.
46. time in the morning for quiet time and worship
47. camy. even though im not officially in yet.but i thank God for them.
48. that i have a large capacity to love.
49. the way i learn
50. creating this thing called 'love'

okay i'm done with that. i'll try to be satisfied now. haha. really, there're so many things to thank Him for. the list just flowed so naturally just now.
let me tell you a secret.
if you want to be satisfied and you're not, learn this: HE SATISFIES.
i mean really, He does. you could try making a list. and just think. think and ponder about His love for you. His perfect love that never fails. think about how good and great He is. think about how wonderful He is that He's indescribable. and think about how YOU have this ohsoincredible God.
i believe you'll be satisfied.

Posted by jann at 23:27

Thursday, January 18, 2007

randomness.

randomness.
we went to chinatown heritage centre today.
so super fun.
i seriously love my class.
twotee is way cool.
and mrs ng's amusing.
I MISS MRS YY LIM <3
twotee really really rocks.
laoshi is cute.
and mcdull. ahems. goldfish is called UMBANANA.
so super cool luh.
i shall attempt my mep listening journal now.
im sure i'll survive.
i shall begin with haydn.
and i love amanda. seriously.
oh yes and macs garlic chilli is the greatest. (chilli in the world) besides belacan. that is so super nice!
so super - is such a ohsocute phrase.
zehnice thinks she has ugly feet.
and split soles do make a difference to the world.
and two things make the world go round.

zehnice loves who?

Posted by jann at 21:24

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

theese days

hello everyone!
HOW'S LIFE?
i tried squeezing in followup on monday. i made it! haha. so monday after sch was dance, then run to kap (actually i took a bus for that one pathetic stop) then met beryl and sharon there and i squeezed two lessons into one hour. power! whoopees. haha. then i rushed across the road for ballet.yeps.
and on tuesday. WHOA. its like the happy day of my life. yes. haha. i slept at like. 9.55pm.WHOOPEES. i felt so great this morning.i had lets see. seven and a half hours. longest sleep ever since forever (not including weekends and holidays)
and i have a toothache. actually teethache.its two teeth. pleaseplease do pray for me. im seeing dr kenneth on 1feb.lalala.
quite alot of hw tonight. like hw thats not due tmr. and i think math is seriously killing me. its so. hard. its so. i dont know. it annoys me. MATH! grah.
i think i need to desire quite time more. i need to look forward to it more. im not committed enough yeah.my uhm. theory is that once you've experienced God and been so close to Him, you'll want to experience it each day and therefore will look forward to quiet time and prioritise it.but somehow, i dont.i mean i want to but everything else always takes over.this is horrid.
have you ever had a day when everything that happens is all overly passe and cliche and all you want is a break. and yet you want smth eventful. your life is busy, too eventful i suppose but yet it's mundane cos the events are all the same. life is a cycle i guess. yeah thats my day, thats my life.
im suddenly remembered of the poem i did for my langarts oral last year for eoys. it was entitled 'night shift'.
it begins with 'another night' and ends with 'another day'. its really nice.
ohwells.
and life just goes on.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR SATURDAY:D that's all i can look forward too and all i feel like looking forward to i guess. saturday - camy training. plus i get to see amanda. how nice. i really want to see amanda.i need a hug from super amanda.
LOL AMANDA YOU SHLD BE UBER HONOURED.
tatas!

Posted by jann at 21:51

Sunday, January 14, 2007

camy training and cell

i have not blogged in such a longlong time. i feel like, cut off from the world of. msn and blogging. haha. school has been really really tiring and busy. i believe God'll help me manage.
my God is big. way big. bigger than hw or anything else.
i'll survive(:
haha yes.
we had camy training yesterday. the first for my batch! whoopees(: we started like half an hour late.we had intros, icebreakers, making music. like everyone makes a weird sound and joel conducts.then we listened to some music and identified the instruments. and that was all. quite fun. there're two keyboardists this batch. suzanna and me(: my mentor/trainer/whatdo you call it? will be either sam(antha), joel or both. or smth. i dont know luh. then after that we went to lunch. we went to anchorpoint kfc.quite fun. and then jessie and i went to ikea to get a clock for my classroom! haha and the guys went to queensway arcade. then we went to join them. and we played daytona. lanz sam and caleb against me me and me. so unfair. anyway, its quite obv i came in fourth. well its all the buggy incident. lalalala.
then i went home. then i went for cell. cell was fun. really really fun. we laughed and nonsense-d aLOT. then yes we all went home. i love my cell(:
SCREAM ROCKS :D
and this morning i didnt have to go for cell. cos we had it last night? haha. i was uhm. one min late. i arrived at 11.16. i checked. and apparently they'd already started the first song everyday. i couldnt really concentrate during the sermon. i dont know why.maybe i prefer pastor ronald's preaching. hahahahai had my ebi rice burger for lunch today at mos burger ps. i really love the sauce. and they're chilli sauce isnt to my liking. and neither is kfcs. only macs chilli rocks. garlic chilli rocks big time.YES! haha.
and i got a new guitar pick.its luminous. how interesting. haha.
yes thats all.
i know i'll survive this week and i hope all the rest of you do too.
lots and lots and lots of love(:

Posted by jann at 22:01

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

tiredd

whoopees.
camy training starts this saturday[: like finally!
sch has been tiring. actually not sch. life has been tiring. and im in desperate need of sleep. grah.
and i have no idea what to say here.
haha ive feel closer to God now(: but my devotion is really horrible. i seriously need to do devotion. all i can bring myself to do is pray pray pray and worship. i cant do devotions cos i want to sleep. i mean i can, but im always way to tired to.
sighs.
and yesh i still dont know what to say.
we had really really great intellectual discussions in lang arts yesterday and today. i really wish mrs ng was our philo teacher. well mrs chew's better this year i suppose.
and after our discussions, i have come to the conclusion that there will always be elites, and non elites. and the elites sometimes cant help it. i mean it's not their fault for being blahblahblah-inclined.and if there was no elites, we'd be like, communist ( i mean in the corporate world)and having elites around are just natural uh, phenomenons. i mean theres a good and a bad, theres an elite and a non elite. there'll always be people who are smarter, or work harder than everyone else, or just dare to do this and that. there'll always be different levels in society and we just have to accept that elitism will exist no matter what. and we cant really expect the government to do smth about it. not much i guess. i mean the government is elite. it is. and the people in there are more or less accademically inclined. so elites will, i assume, understand the unhelpable presence of elites in society and i suppose they cant really empathise with the non elites either because they themselves are elites and so are their families most of the time.
elites.
elites.
elites.
rj is an elite sch? i want to gothere and be an elite. haha. in fact, mrs ng says we're the elites among the elites. she says mg is an elite sch. CLAPCLAPCLAP :D and we, being the sbc, are elites among elites. yays.
and that adds alot alot of pressure.
no room for mistakes, no room for failing.
only space for success.

gah. i dont want to blog anymore.
TOODLES(:

Posted by jann at 21:58

Saturday, January 06, 2007

school

hello everyone!
its three days into schooling and schools been rather tiring. most of our teachers are still the same though. except for chem - miss tan sc, and ss - mr seow and. yeah i think that's it. oh and hcl - i forgot her name but i know who she is. oops. haha.
we have chinese four days a week. thats really really scary.hahahahaha. and i officially am lousy at algebra. anything beyond basic algebra is nuts to me.
i've been sleeping at around eleven or twelve the past few nights. really really tired out. i guess the holidays have made school days a tad bit too trying? well we'll see what happens once stuff go into full swing. it'll be a living. well. not hell. i hope i'll love my life and schedule. haha. so i hope it'll be a living heaven(: but yes i'll be really really busy. just for the jan-has-nth-better-to-do(actually she has)-but-for-no-apparent-reason-is-doing-this sake of doing this, okay that was messy. just for the sake of nothingness, i shall post my schedule here.

i, janicesoon, am going to dance five times a week.it's goingto be a killer.

monday : end sch 1420. SYF zaki 1500. ballet 1845
tuesday : end sch 1340. piano 1630
wed : end sch 1355. camy training once every three weeks. i think.
thurs : end sch 1340. dance 1445.guit 1830
fri : end sch 1400. dance 1445. ballet 2015
sat : golf. golf. golf.golf. and cell.
sunday: CHURCH!(:

yes thats it. my horrible horrible schedule.
surprisingly, i dont hate my life. and im glad i dont(:

okay tag replies. and i dont think i'll be online as much as l ast year anymore.

caleb: haha. im glad i have someone to talk to(:yeah i know but i cant do anything about it.
deb:HELLO! haha. okay thanks(:
amanda:haha i shall msg you now(: cos i want the coffin is too big too. haha.
jenn: yesyes!:D
caleb: you'd better teach me sometime soon
amanda:amanda's the nicest(:
deb:haha alrights.
choo:OKAY.haha

aiya. my posts are getting less and less sentimental. but i realise im thinking more and more. i just dont write it down anymore. lazy to i suppose?
oh yes and i have a whole long list of resolutions. i shall put on here what i can from memory.haha.i wrote them on a paper and stuck them on my noticeboard.

-no gossiping
-spendat least half an hr with God a day.
-bathe everyday
-dont stay angry at anyone for more than five minutes
-try not to get annoyed at anyone.if someone's too unbearable, take atwo min break
-get no demerit points
-no shouting
-study for tests more than one day in advance
-smile with the joy of the Lord, and not forced smiles
-stay focused, no multitasking(except on msn)
-respect everyone, esp those who are younger than myself.

i cant rmb anymore. i think all these are keepable(:

i can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.

two really beautiful songs.
'think about his love' since about three years ago, i keep thinking 'he satisfies, he satisfies'. but i never figured out what song it wasfrom, cos it was so old. but i kept telling myself He satisfies whenever i feel unsatisfied. its really really beautiful.
and the other i was singing and playing today.
MY GOD IS SO BIG,
SO STRONG AND SO MIGHTY
THERES NTH MY GOD CANNOT DO(for you!)
x2
THE MOUNTAINS ARE HIS,
THE RIVERS ARE HIS
THE STARS ARE HIS HANDIWORK TOO.
MY GOD IS SO BIG
SO STRONG AND SO MIGHTY
THERS NTH MY GOD CANNOT DO (for you!)

my God is big!

sometimes old songs, or songs we learn in kindergarten, are the most assuring, make the most sense. even though in kindergarten no one really understood it fully. maybe the teachers justwanted to drill it into us, so that when we grow older, we'll have such songs to help pull us through(:
maybe.
what a great idea(:

Posted by jann at 22:24

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

town with grace.scared of sch

i was crying last night. yes tearing and weeping. i was scared, somehow of school. talked to toh for awhile. helped calm my nerves. this morning was scary. i woke up, prayed, then realised i lost my mg badge. my second mg badge. so i have no badge. so i officially freaked. i didnt scream.haha. but i freaked. i searched frantically. cannot find, sms michelle wee. thank goodness she could br me an extra one. then i started crying. and hyperventilating. hahaha. as in not really really, but bad enough. then i kept rmbering phillipians 2 :3-4
do not be anxious about anything. but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. and the peace of God which trandscends all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
i was reciting it to myself luh.

miss janice soon is : NE coordinater.
like HUH? yeah we all have really really weird jobs this year. haha.

new seating arrangements, im in between suaty! and grace chua! yays.
went to town with grace chua after sch. heeren and cine. we were supposed to buy each other bday presents(like sixmths and 3 days belated for me) and i have to buy her a christmas one cos she alr got me one. so yeah in the end we didnt. we cldnt find anything satisfactory. so yeah. we just took neoprints. thats all. haha and wasted alot of time walking around.

yeps.
i shall sleep early from now on.
and i seriously need to catch up on piano practice.
oh dear.