Sunday, September 23, 2007

escape

i would love to escape right now.

Posted by jann at 20:54

bliss

tonight was the last night we performed bliss.
kindof nostalgic. this is the sixth time we have performed the dance in public. i've been in this dance for ten months.
we've performed it at syf, ulu pandan, dance fantasia, BUTS and twice for nus the next wave. guest performance.
it was amazing. tonight was one of our best for this item yet.
i really really miss the dance now.
its really an amazing dance. received so much praise. even from zaini himself!
the choreography is incredible, so detailed, so layered, so blissful.
it's been ten months of alot of sweat. alot of breathlessness, plenty of breathing during the dance.
ive grown rather attached to the dance.
and tonight, we've finally (quote zaki) 'buried it six feet under'
sigh.

ohwell. zaki became super nice today and bought us bouquets of lollipops from candy empire. there're like nine lollipops in my bunch. he must have spent a bomb. but ohwell. he's a diva. he's probably pretty rich.

the concert was amazing. the nus dancers have great technique. they all dance so well! all of them. and they're all super nice to us. i love them! i want to be like them next time.haha.

bliss has ended.
ended.
ended.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Posted by jann at 00:11

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

okay my blog is seriously dead.
okay i have one piece of good news and one piece of bad news.
actually two pieces of good news.
both concerning only myself. HAHA.
okay first. i am pretty pleased with my revision. more or less done.
eoys begin on oct 2. at least they had the heart to not start us on children's day.haha.
left with the bulk of bio to study for. ahhh. so much memory work.
digestion and the human reproductive system.
trust me, the human reproductive system is so much more easier to study. i mean. thats because we all already know most of it.
actually we learnt half of digestion in pri sch. hmm.
mr tay gave us this pic of davinci's statue of david yesterday. we were supposed to label everything we learnt on him. like all the digestion stuff and organs part of his reproductive system.

okay second thing.
i learnt today that.
I GOT MERIT FOR MY GRADE EIGHT PIANO EXAM : DDDDDDD
super super happy. thank God.
i seriously thought i would fail.
seriously.
as in i played about three times worse than practice. which is well. actually practice standard is pretty decent and would have gotten me a merit in my opinion. but playing three times worse? and still getting merit? now that's amazing.
and the more amazing part is. guess who my examiner was.
okay i think no one else even knows who he is but he's dennis lee. this really famous malaysian world-reknown pianist. he is super super super pro. performed at esplanade quite a few times before i think. yeah and i got a live performance by him during my exam. for free! hahahaha. actually no it was 308 dollars for the exam and it was just like 5 mins long cos it was my aural piece.
okay anyway. he gave me super encouraging comments. first time i've received smth so encouraging from an EXAMINER.
under additional comments, at the end of everything, he wrote : can see your interest (in music). just need to work on details generally. you can.
smth like that. cant really rmb what he wrote. but it was the 'you can' part. about being able to sort out the details and playing nicely after which.
ahhh

okay bad news. i broke my cup. my beloved precious cup from my bro. boo :(
amanda (yuen) msged me and i had left my cup on the table right behind me. when i turned to get my phone, my elbow hit the cup. the handle broke. the cup is still intact. haha.but still so saddening. not really fit for use now. i really really loved that cup. the designs on it were sooooo nice. soo well. me. i loved it.
oh well.
i want to get one exact same one.

exams are drawing near! everyone is getting stressed out.
i'm keeping everyone in prayer!(:

just feel like writing this down now. maybe it will have some meaning to someone who reads this. i hope it does.

'the fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge'
proverbs 1 : 9

Posted by jann at 21:58

Thursday, September 13, 2007

weird

okay i am turning weird. i feel weird again.
okay nvm.
had dinner with hann, mel liz and davidgoh last night at tiong plaza. we had thai express. my first time there. hahaha. we had like tomyum soup. like one small bowl. three pieces of fish and four pieces of mushroom and two small pieces of red chilli. guess how much. 8.20. ridiculous. and it was so spicy, but the soup was oddly clear and not red. ohwell.
we went to tiff's house on sunday to do ss project(: she ordered kfc for lunch. ohman, so fattening.haha. but really nice. hadnt had chicken in a long long time. we had to put in alot of effort into doing. its some sort of a collage? its about poverty. but the end product's effect was brillant. its really striking. proud of the job we did. and on wed right. amanda and i had a craving for kfc. so after sch she came to jurong : DDDDDD i didnt want to go to bukit timah plaza. haha. so i had cheezy meltz. second time. not as good as the first though. and i was so full. when i went home to eat lunch, i was super super full and i had lunch my mum cooked. soooo full.
okayokay i have to watch america's next top model now. blog another time.
bye!

Posted by jann at 22:29

Friday, September 07, 2007

sept hols:D

whoa.
hols have been pretty good.
but i don't know why, i feel all funny inside. its like. a feeling of unrest. not like. worry but just funny. i feel funnny.
smth is holding me back.
seriously, i don't know how to describe it.
okay mm. last few days have been full.
i'm on johanns team! (for camy) (:
super happy. so we went for dinner at redhill before rehearsal, then had dinner. i had like. damai cos i wasnt hungry. then walked to church. then had rehearsal. and we had to do this intro thing and we were all forced to say we were very happy to be in his team(: hahahahahaha.
then went through the songs. aiyo so tiring one. but it was good. it felt good when we moved on to the next song each time. we ended pretty late though. 1015. okay so i was super tired. so i bathed and went to sleep.
okay then on thursday. that was a super super long day.
piano at 10 in the morning. okay actually its not piano. its theory. i dont have piano lessons anymore cos i already took the exam. looking for a good dip teacher now. anyone know of one?
do let me know.
okay so theory. i did quite a bit. compared to previous months. haha. okay then after that took a bus to bb mrt, took mrt to esplanade. went to library. met jessie davchoo and keith there. study study study. tried to study. then toh and lester appeared. then cont study. then i was trying to prepare my hcl oral. and seriously, i needed a chinese dictionary. all my ideas were in english. so i walked around the library looking for one. hahahaha. there wasnt one.
okay so i asked lester. then he was like. what? then toh lent me his phone's dictionary.
okay so i settled 'ethical implications' in chinese. hahahaha.
then blahblah. thenamanda and deb appeared. then went down to eat lunch with amanda. well she didnt eat. she convinced me to eat at mrs fields. i had two muffins. the muffins are pretty bad if you ask me.haha. sorry i just have high standards of muffins. i like blueberry(:

OH AND I BAKED STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE ON TUESDAY: D its niceeeeee(:

okay sorry go on. and then went to marina square to find a bday present for michelle wee. then i walked around for half an hour, met with some terrible people and got super freaked out, and walked on. killed my feet. and walked one entire round to get to esplanade busstop again-.- i walked all the way to suntec and back. because i cldnt find the bus stop with buses that go to bukit timah. so anyway i got to her house an hour late. at 5. when everyone else came. she asked me tocome an hour earlier. ohwell. then her dad drove me all the way into her house. so far in. i walked all the way out once before. sooooo far. haha. and then hung around the pool. talk talk talk. met her church friend and sec one aunt. haha. and then her mum and her told me to come back after my guit class. then she drove me out. then went for guit class. then i didnt go back cos i went home to study.
okay i think i should say this. theres this cjc guy in my guit class. (he normally wears uni so i know he's in cjc. i did NOT stalk him) hahahaa. and he lives in ivory heights too! okay point is. he wore this really really nice shirt yesterday. hahahahahaha.
okay then went home. memorised emily. then uh. watched america's next top model eight(:
i really really really don't wnat to get hooked on the show but i love it so much. last night was the first episode anyway. then aiya. i workedso hard to not watch the seven oclock and nine o clock show so i wont get hooked so i can concentrate on studying everynight. how can i give in to watching this show? ahhhhhhh.
okay then aiya. i hate blogging about things that happen. its like. so low level. no thinking involved. and besides this, why write one who load of stuff for people to read about WHAT I DO? i am such a letdown.

okay anyway. i havent blogged about egig. it was AWESOME! super super super super super good. i brought emelia(:
super super super super super good.

okay i shall blog about my feelings. its better to do that.
i still feel funny. i feel on what hand accomplished for finishing my hol hw so quickly. but i feel. like there's so much more work to do. its like. stress. i dont know. i mean i've been studying quite a good lot this week. pratically spent all my time (besides during like piano lessons and camy reh and all) studying and hwking. but i still feel like there's so much more to do. and im really really scared of the exams this time. do you know that i have FORGOTTEN how to study? i mean, how can you forget how to study. its like, forgetting how to walk. bah. but seriously. im not sure whether what i've drummed into me so far is staying in my brain. im afraid i'll just lose all the info and freak out when i realise i have to restudy everything. oh dear:( this is so worrying.
okayokay theres this really nice verse amanda (tan) gave me last year. i love it. and i wrote it for tiffanie for her birthday.
ohoh btw, its tiff's birthday today!

'no man shall ever be able to stand before you. for as I was with Moses, so I will be with you. I will never leave you nor forsake you'
Joshua 1:5
i think that's how the verse goes. can't rmb the exact words. and this is nkjv version anyway.
my beautiful bible is nkjv. which is kindof weird la. because i prefer niv. but i don't want to change my bible! i love it.
okay anyway,
i hope everyone has had a good holiday.
and got plenty of rest.

Posted by jann at 09:41

Sunday, September 02, 2007

the truth

i can't live with the horrible annoying frightening disgusting stinky truth.

Posted by jann at 19:55

Saturday, September 01, 2007

camy, syf dinner, and my usual mindless thinking

don't you just love oxymorons? see the title 'mindless thinking' what a splendid oxymoron!
i like them. honest lies. made that up myself. haha. and shakesphere - ' oh brawling love, oh loving hate!'
few lessons ago, mrs ng asked if we were juliet, who would we prefer as a husband. romeo or paris. i was the only person in class who said paris. i mean bea manda anna and i were discussing among ourselves (as usual. bea manda and i talk super super alot every lesson. bea sits in front of manda. i sit next to manda. anna sits across the aisle from me to my right) i mean. romeo is really really romantic and he's superb at whispering sweet nothings. but at the same time, no offence to all those who are looking for a husband just like romeo, but romeo is a total wimp. i mean. he's a sissy. he is far from a man. he's kindof like a snag. only he emos way too much. he changes his object of desire every few days i mean. he was like being lost in the woods and causing the whole world to worry for him because he was 'out of love' cos rosaline (his then 'love) didn't like him and he was going how sad it is that she has sworn to chastity. for when she dies, her beauty dies with her. and what a pity her store will go to waste. like, whatever romeo. and all he could ever think of was her 'straight leg, quivering thigh and domains that there adjacent lie' what a creep. i mean a husband who can think of only sex?
paris on the other hand. he actually loves juliet. he does not want to marry her so she can have his kids. i mean okay he's kindof old. probably ten years older than juliet (juliet was thirteen or fourteen, romeo was about fifteen or sixteen) but so? at least he's a man. and he really seems nice enough. he seems to care about her. ohwell.

i'm on johann's team! :D just found out yesterday. yays.
okay. mm syf dinner was really really really fun. went out with grace to town after sch. she wanted to get a leotard. the dbl front one was 44.90 or smth like that. she almost freaked. i made her get single front instead. 36.90 or smth like that. sonata prices are exhorbitant i tell you. my dbl front was like 26 i think. from costumeshop. see. she lazy to go all the way there.
tsk.
then we went to far east. and i combed every single shop which looked like it sold nice white tops -my new obsession. then i found this dress i really really really really liked. and i told my mum. i think she's going to get it for me. i hope so.
and then we just walked around alot. oh and it rained so we cabbed there and when we were waiting for the cab under my puny orange umbrella we got our feet totally soaked. it was gross. so when we got back to sch we went to the toilet to dry our feet. haha.

syf dinner - the food was good. there was sushi! punch, cheng teng, noodles. which were really nice. friend rice. chicken drumstick. that fish and pineapple and green pepper and onions dish and that curry puff thing in the shape of a triangle and can't rmb what else. oh veggies. not many dishes but it was nice. and we played some games. scavenger hunt. uh queen of sheba. i got sent out for 'the sexiest...' then they asked for sexiest pout. so there was this whole long row of girls. (one rep from each table) so the teachers table sent mrs yaps son. who was still in ac uniform. i think he's our age. and duh he won. he didnt even pout. he just posed.
haha.
and we got ikea hangers with stuff written on it. and we had so much fun at our table. it was our clique. plus the crazies. plus gracechan, sheryl ng and sharon. (we had the new president and vice at our table!) haha. altogether we had five (the three sec threes plus laura and i) com members out of seven at our table. jamie the secretary was with her classmates i think. and yiling was super late. it was super fun anyway. and grace(lee) showed her caring side for once. she insisted on sending us down the hill cos it was late when we ended and refused to let me walk down the hill alone (my dad was overseas) so yeah. haha.s o nice of her.

okay then yesterday. it was the coolest. our class went as MEN IN BLACK. it was be yourself day(this newpaper event) and teachers day celebration. so we all sat in the quadrangle. and the president came! whoohoo. but before he came we had our performances on this stage they set up in the quadrangle. dance performances, songs, this gym girl who was uber good. she did a cartwheel on one hand. twice. and her dance technique is good too. shes in primary smth. and yeah. okay so our class was doing men in black right. and roxanne jess and maddie have short hair so they gelled their hair. THEY LOOKED SO GOOD. we called jess shuai ge. she seriously looked hot. in the guy way =x and the newpaper and sph photographers and reporters were there. and they came to us to take pictures. so our whole class got taken by one of the papers. and then each class had to sent up two reps to show the judges the costume. so the three criteria was most in character, most dont know what and dont know what. so basically its the best dressed. and the irony is everyone was dressed up in the weirdest. like there were pirates, fairy creatures and princesses(primary girls) salt and pepper, pajamas(2e) superheroes (2m) hippies, oliver twist. our class really stood out! oh the irony. it was supposed to be 'be yourself'. yet we were supposed to dress up with a theme. which would of course draw us away from our true characters. so everyone dressed up as someone who wasn't themself in the end. blah.

oh and we sent jess roxanne maddie and clare up. the looked sooooooo good. they looked like secret service agents. i'll post pics when i get them. and they walked like guys. and when asked what they represented, clare went 'it's top secret' haha. and when they walked offstage, they got interviewed by one of the journalists! so so cool. and when the president came. as expected, we won the lower sec best dressed class prize. and they got to shake hands with the PRESIDENT. omg when he walked past us i was within like uh. four metres of that guy? cool beans. anyway they called the president mr president. which is the american way. and mrs ng thinks its embaressing cos singaporeans should not do that. presidents in singapore are always known as 'his excellency' don't they know that? grahh. -narrows eyes-
anyway. we won, we got full marks. and the president took pictures with them. two 'bodyguards' on each side. ahhhh! then we had our mass recess. we ate under the linkway. sooooooo much food passed around. i was super full. dismissed at twelve. i wanted to go home but amanda didnt so i, being the nice person i am, went out with her. went to westmall. bought tiffanie's birthday present(: and walked around. ate dessert at the foodcourt. i had cheng teng. i love chilled cheng teng! i love longans. :D
and i love jessie and amanda so much!<3
okay that was random. but hey i do.
and i love beatrice and amanda- the one who sits next to me, and christine and yuting and sherri and roxanne and suaty and anna and jess and michelle chan and just about everyone in my class.

okay and now the mindless thinking part.
ignorance is bliss.
i used to think that way. now, i have to define ignorance.
not knowing that you don't know is bliss. in that sense. esp for someone who will worry about what you don't know. you still stay happy, unaware and in your own world.
knowing you dont know can be torturous. well, depending on the situation. if it was a birthday surprise or smth, knowing you don't know is fine. haha.
but sometimes, not knowing, even knowing that you don't know, can be bliss. the truth can hurt alot sometimes, can't it.
everytime i see the words 'ignorance is bliss' its on someone's personal msg now. can't rmb whose. oh its on my pri sch classmate's. i think of the chinese words
无知也是一种幸福
there is alot of truth to that saying.

oh and i didn't go back to fuhua yesterday.haha. i called them after i was on the way back after going out with amanda. and they were going out to central for lunch and i was full beyond words so i declined and went home. and had lunch. ohman. i ate too much yesterday. and then we went to keppel country club. that place is beautiful. the jaccuzzi is huge. like four times the size of the one at temasek country club. and its like a semi circle. and keppel country club is next. and i mean next. the fence is next to the end of labrador park. you know the part where theres the red thing at the left end of labrador park. the red thing thats caged up. just after the hideout / lampost thing where the brit soldiers shot the japs coming in by ship during WW2. does anyone know what im saying? and yeah the fence is next to the fence of keppel cc. i can see the red thing from the jaccuzi. so the jaccuzzi is slightly elevated. like five metres above the swimming pool level. you have to climb up some steps. and it looks beautiful. its sheltered so it's like three 'walls' the fourth side just faces the beautiful open sea. its breathtaking. so scenic. and i love it love it love it. anyway i swam. didnt count the lap. its olympic size. so its wayy bigger. and i swam at least twenty. i just swam and swam and swam until i was certain it was more than twenty i stopped, went to the jaccuzzi. and stayed there (alone) so nice. so much space. and stretced. did centre split stretching in the water. goodstretch man. until it suddenly rained. so i went to shower. then we went the billard room. it was actually snooker tables. it was empty. my parents and bro were playing on one table. huge table. there were two. so we just used the other table as well. without paying. haha. there was no one else there. i played pool with my sis on a snooker table. well. technically she won. cos i shot the blackball in. TWICE. hahahahha. but i shot more balls in altogether. then went upstairs to the peranakan restaurant for dinner. i insisted cos we're sudying emily of emerald hill for lit. which is actually sad in my perspective. but everyone else criticizes her. but really, i have to admire that woman.
okay anyway. had dinner. went home. read emily again. and slept at nine thirty.haha.
going out soon, meeting bea amanda and sherri at cathay starbucks to study(:
then, its EGIG!:D

Posted by jann at 09:33