Sunday, April 29, 2007

just so you know( jesse mccartney

we got gold with honours for syf(:
i couldn't ask for more ( well i literally can't anyway. haha.) God is so good!
the following manner is a brief sequence of how i broke the news to charlotte and johann :
alot of schools got silver, alotof schools got bronze. alot of schools got cop(cert of participation). SIGH. we didnt get a gold.-pretend to be sad- then the person will go 'so what did youre get. silver?' shake head ' bronze' shake head' COP?!' shake head. 'THEN? ... GOLD WITH HONOURS ' smiles : D

i think im a hungry person. im so hungry all the time. and i always want chocolate. im HUNGRY. and i love whining. LOL. sorry, sudden change in subject. really dont feel like blogging about everything. im lazy!
grace and i stayed over at laura's house on monday night. so fun. oh but i lost my toothbrush. i can just hear myself telling myself 'LOSER.' i mean like, how can you lose a TOOTHBRUSH. i dont believe it. and fyi, i lost it AFTER i brushed my teeth okay.. and we did our misswee thing. sit around the speakers and listen to the syf song and like just get into the mood and all. kindof scary and eerie and i was really afraid considering what the song sounded like. for those who have heard it before you'd know what im talking about. okay then second time we did the dance sitting down, just upper body and arms, eyes close. its super cool. anyway during that exercise, someone called me and i took awhile to realise. actually pooie was the one who realised. then when i picked it up theperson hung up. then i got annoved. like aiyaaaaaa. then i was like whining. and so laura and grace found out i get annoyed. so they started prank calling me. use grace's hp and call. then when i pick up they hang up. and we were next to each other some more. annoying la! and of course i didnt know until they called like twenty times and they finally toldme before i slept. i found out who called me the first time in the end though. haha. and my cell is super encouraging. esp gaomin. msg me the night before syf and myes to tell me to jiayou and all. thanks gao gao! (: and oh my entire cell wore pink today. hahahahaha. it was planned. then our performance at ucc wasnt like our very very very best. but it was pretty good. i was hoping for high gold, sharon thought we would get bronze. and aiya. we watched a few schs after us. i thought kranji sec did really welldespite their costume malfunction. but they danced nicely.great performance! well if any of them ever read this.which i doubt. haha. anyway, mrs poh and mrs ang treated us to vila'ge on friday night. SO NICE OF THEM RIGHT. oh wait wait. myes first. on friday had midyears. lifescience was like superb or anything. chem was not bad i felt. i HOPE. haha. then took napfa 5 items. i got full marks for everything again this year. oh my 2.4 was last week. 13.17. disgustingly horrible. but its still and A. lala!:D hahaha. then had vietnam briefing. and grace and laura were super sweet. they waited in the concourse for my briefing-which lasted 1 hr, to end so we could go laura's house to bathe. then we somehow took a long time. then we cabbed down to cine. then laura the annoying dragged us to famous amos then subway then mrs fields and cldnt decide on the cookie she wanted. then grace 'aiya!' then bought a cookie for herself. then laura still 'ehh should i get a lalalal or lalalala' then im like 'OHMYGOSH!-.-' haha. so she bought a big fat cookie in the end. then we went earring shopping. and grace trusts my taste. she has decided on 3 pairs of earring at two different shops trusting my taste.haha. then we metup with jia, then walked over to heeren. then went to cactus and pine, wait for them to buy earrings and hairbands. then walk walk walk more. then went to vila'ge. wait wait wait for everyone. then went in. and mrs ang and mrs poh treated the whole syf group. everyone but charleen was there. so 23 people. plus jer-last years dance president. now in nj, and ms deborah ng. a temporary teacher who happens to take charge of dance too. then our table - my clique - grace laura jia charlotte and me, had a soup each, shared one squid and chicken saussage pasta.I DIDNT EAT A SINGLE SQUID. and a pizza. choose your own toppings. the 5th toppings was half of it (one side of the pizza) was green, red and yellow pepper/capsicum. the other half was squid. the capsicum side was my side. duhh. then the squid side was grace. everyone else just ate well. they ate from myside actually.HAHA GRACE. and we had drinks. i had a iced vanilla latte with WHIPPED CREAM.mmmm sweetly fattening.omg.haha. and two rostis. i shared with laura. and a choc fondue. and a waffle with strawberries and icecream. we invited the secones to someof our fondue. so nice of us right. and yeah i think thats all. cant believe we ate so uhm.little. but i felt super bloated.haha.but I WANT THE FOOD NOW.IM REALLY HUNGRY NOW. took lots and lots of pics. with their cams. i dont have them yet. then after dinner was over and thanking the teachers loudly and making the staff stare, we split up. so our clique went upstairs. cos laura and jia bugged and whined so much grace and i agreed to take neoprints. cos earlier on we said no cos we're kindof sick of neoprints and we hardly take anymore and its a huge waste of money and anyway grace and i have enough neoprints together. we took twice with laura as well. but never with jia. so yeah we took. so fun. and pretty.haha. we did like zaki poses. for two of the pics. haha. then we went home. got home at 10 plus. oh and jer bought us roses. haha.
then yesterday. camy jamming. i played for team 2 cos yiting's exams are not overyet. and then after that for my own team. it was much much more productive and fruitful than last week. i felt last weekw as well, kindof a waste. then went home. then today. elissa didnt come cos she sprained her ankle. then grace did too but she came and sat on a chair. then mel was feeling sick so she only came for service. then we all except for grace, sat on the floor and made get wellsoon cards for elissa and mel while doing our weekly sharing and thanksgiving. i love that part of cell. i always have alot, and well, the most to say. haha. i think no one is surprised. soldiers joined us cos their cell was super small. then service.
worship was really really nice. i enjoyed it alot. first time i sang 'blessed be your name' with so much .i just meant it so much and the words just were so real to me and i really encountered God and i felt worship was so rich today. not like half the time when you just sing without pondering about the lyrics. i really meant what i sang today and i like the song 'all i want is you' as well. then went up for altar call. and i shant say anything about that. kindof personal.

i really really love hugs. so uh everyone, hug me when you see me. applies to girls only. haha. but the girls who are in the closer group of friends to me already do everytime i see them and they see me. jessie amanda, dance clique. well, not my classmates. i see them EVERYDAY so its kindof uh. yeah. haha. only sometimes. and michelle wee. haha. hugs are just so enlifting and comforting sometimes yea(:

okay i think thats enough fornow.

Posted by jann at 16:59

Friday, April 20, 2007

lots of things going on

hmm lots have been going on the past few days, and i really don't know where to start and all and i can't rmb how i feel. but i think this week my lesson was to try to learn to really and truly depend on God. havent really completed the lesson yet though, i dont think im there yet. but its amazing how through every circumstance we face, we see smth that will just pull us closer to God, that will reveal to us something wonderful about Him. He's really interesting and there's so many layers of Him, He's so intricate, there's just too much of Him i can contain, really.

alright ithink i'll start from weds. the past few days, i've really been dreading the days to come. because today i had 2.4, monday theres intense dance prac. then stayover at laura on monday night with grace too, wait this part i dont dread. i really look forward. haha. then thursday 5 items for napfa. i dont mind the 5 items, i mind that its just before midyears. tuesday mep exam after syf. wait i look forward to syf too. haha. kindof i guess. and friday is midyears.

so wed we met at church to discuss the stuff for camy training. cos we're supposed to come up with a full worship set, songs and all. and aiya its not gone very far. the harmony took up almost all the time, besides deciding what songs we'll do. the songs are all in diff keys accept for the first two. grahhh. we're going to church one hr earlier to work all those out. bleh. and so anyway i went to alexandra hospital in the afternoon for second treatment for that tooth that's giving me problem. it hasnt been pain but it requires two treatments. then after that uhm okay. this part is ridiculous. i mean i feel stupid, really. i called toh and asked him how to get to church from there cos AH doesnt have 111 or 132. he said take 51. so i took 51 on the side of AH. then take take take, then the bus went to commonwealth there. so i thought, okay must be wrong direction, cos i didnt ask him take from which side. so i got off, cross the road, and just missed 51. so i waited for the next 51, which took quite long. so take take take, pass AH, then guess what. the bus went to PASIR PANJANG. OMG I WAS STRANDED THERE. then i got off, and 51 passed on the opp side of the road justbefore i crossed. so i had to cross and i waited really really really long this time for the next 51. you know that feeling you get when yo umiss a bus is really horrid. yeah so i got to church kindof late. but tohwas nice enough to walk me to church from the bus stop. then discuss the songs. oh my team, team 1 consists of melong, jessie elizabeth, amanda, matthew sam and myself.and we dont exactly have a bassist so one of the laolaos will step in. then yeah. we're doing the set songs time has come, freedom we know, all the earth will sing your praises(we chose) mighty to save(also we chose) then at the cross. and all are in diff keys except first two so i dont know whats going to happen.
and then on thursday dance was well. okay la. we had zaki. our hair is going to be quite coool. like this silver flowery thing that you wind around your bun then continue one more round like a hairband around your head. its BEAUTIFUL, really. makes us look like greek goddesses. haha. thats what someone said. makeup is pretty. just lilac eyes. some glittery stuff around the eyes, normal blusher, pink lipstick. i think fake eyelashes. and a choker apparently but we havent got it from miss wee yet. yeah. and mg strings ensemble got gold. i mean its pretty good but theyre upset cos 5 out of 12 schs there today got gold with HONS. those are ri, dunman, st nicks acsi and i cant rmb what else. rg got gold only. so much pressure for dance. and miss kon and mrs goh and mrs yap came to watch us do the dance once today. for those who dont know, they're our principal and two of our FOUR viceprincipals.they said some smiling some not. but during prac i smiled alot so yeah. i think everyone was encouraging each other alot and everyone was really smiling, mostly genuine. it was lovely. and yeah. performance quality was much better. but not good enough for a gold. yet. well we're supposed to be in a blissful state of mind so im trying my best not to get irritated. LOL.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSIE: D
today's her birthday. everyone go wish her.haha. met her on the bus. boy i received like 50 smses today. everytime i take out my phone i have so many msgs. because of the meet for dinner thing, and some inefficiency in amanda liu. AHEM. and some classmates and some exclassmates. today is sms janice day. haha. so anyway, she got on 67 and then i boarded so we could bus down together to coronation at 5plus. then met sam there, then caleb came next,then finally toh. then we went to walk around. my first time in coronation. LOL. then we went to prince to eat dinner. some western place. i had uh chicken chop. i had absolutely no idea what the diff was between chicken cutlet and chicken chop. chop is grilled, cutlet is fried. now i know. haha. then ate. the food was alright la. i didnt really have much appetite so i finished last and ate the slowest. and i wanted to tell everyone this really funny joke but everytime i went 'so can i talk now' sam would purposely change the sub. so i never got to tell that. boo. im so hurt.
then oh we were going to go to sams hse to i dont know do what. watch the guys jam and use his com? haha. then anyway after we boarded the bus i decided i should go for the briefiing for adventure camp in may evern though i would be half an hr late. but i so guai, i went anyway. and pungsehed them. ooops. aiya i didnt want to make my mum upset. cos i told her i would go for her to listen. the hall was what half filled. so many empty chairs. so i just slipped in. they were showing us pictures and talking about our activites there. its in the middle of the jungle. smack there. but there are dorms. and the wildest animals there are wild boars, which we probably wldnt encounter. and there are alot of wet activities like river crossing and a monkey bar across water and if you cant make it across you fall in it. haha. and all the parents were so over anxious of their kids. i think mg girls are sometimes really, too pampered and their parents cant let go of them for four days and not communicate with them at all for 4 days. my parents dont exactly mind. haha. ohwells.
i think thats all. cant be bothered to write anymore.
my tagboards seriously dying and ohwell. life goes on. i cant wait for tmr. camy is always one ofr the highlights of the week. simply enjoy it. really great(:
and tmrs njc open house. and im not going cos we're lunching for jessies one day late lunch bday. so yeah. but haoqing and ervin asked me to go. and ohwell. i have to go for jessie. anyway, i dont plan to go to nj. haha.
okay, have a great weekend everyone, please get your rest and don't fall sick, midyears are coming up for most of us im sure.

Posted by jann at 22:05

Monday, April 16, 2007

thank God for adora.

today was a bad day. kindof discouraging and disappointing.
and the word rotten just floated around my mind on the way home after followup.
but our God is amazing, His hand never fails to uplift, His spirit never fails to encourage.
adora just asked me out of the blue just now if i was fine and prayed for me and i just feel God hasnt forgotten me and He still cares.
thank God for adora, thank God for loving me(:

Posted by jann at 22:32

Sunday, April 08, 2007

goodfriday, swisshotel, polkadotted dress

good afternoon my darlings and dears(:
haha i just got off the phone with sam. so happy. i justfreaked him out about how Jesus suffered so much before He died. on wed during discover Jesus service in sch i finally realised how much He paid for us. its really touching. and scary.
went to swissotel after goodfriday service to stay over. went shopping: D and igot a polka dotted dress. ITS SUPER CUTE AND I LOVE IT!<3 dont="x">
because i was wearing that dress.
it all started during camy, before we sang toh's first bday song when joey went 'janice, how many months already?' he meant how many months pregnant. ahhhhhhh. then adora was like' whos the father' and i was continually suanned the entire day. until mep concert. nice mg people didnt suan me. haha. the nice people were lanz and chris who said my dress was nice. or maybe lanz just said it so i wldnt whine about not being pregnant. haha. oh yes then we took mrt to bukit gombak and went to get food cos the guys were hungry AS USUAL. then it was raining:( then took a bus to g2. worship was fun. but i felt kindof weird jumping around in a dress. haha. and an attention-seeking one at that. then left service early to go to mep concert. ate at cafe cartel at raffles again. bleh. i just had sandwiches. dainty pretty sandwiches. haha. then mep concert was by yongsiewtoh conservatory orchestra. the nus one. theyre not bad. i love their conductor. mrs chan got us better tickets for once. we got to sit on the first floor. haha. but third row. some super expressive solo celloist called qin li wei was there. and i love the principal celloist. her name is elizabeth tan. i just like her .and i think she's pretty.she's got a clear face. haha. the soloist played THREE ENCORES. haha. and the orchestra played an encore. POMP AND CIRCUMSTANCE :DDDD lovethat piece. they played that really well.and grandly.
im hungry and im going to eat now.
TOODLES(:

Posted by jann at 12:56

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

beauty

beauty isnt always aesthetically pleasing.
half the things we see we do not think of as beautiful.
but the truth is - Jesus created all things bright and beautiful
everything, nature,animals and every single human is indeed a beautiful piece of art.
however unpretty or unhandsome we may consider a person, the person is still beautiful.at least the person was created beautiful and meant to be.
beauty is not all but skindeep. (my definition is that)it is rather the quality of a person, and the creativeness, sincerity and love by which nature ( including humans)was created.more often than not, it is innocent. innocent in the sensethat it was created out of pure and good motives and when it was first created, it was pure and right before God.
in my prayers, when im adoring God, i always tell Him he is beautiful. because i know He is so sweet, pure, Holy and kind. and He is salient. He is exceptional.
when you realise that its your beauty that makes you stand out from the rest.

anyone, if anyone ever calls you ugly, or not pretty, know that you were created beautiful, meant to be beautiful, and are beautiful.
to me, beauty outweighs superficialities like prettiness and handsomeness.

Posted by jann at 20:56

Sunday, April 01, 2007

yesterday

friday was my last ballet lesson. super super super sad. i went home and cried. and emelia gave me wormie. some cute thing. and huiming and clara got me chocs.ahhhh. so sad. theres nth i can do about it. but i do hope i get to do ballet again one day.
camy prac yesterday. last training session. next week onwards will be jamming sessions. so fun.haha. but i'll miss the lesson time. its more personal and smaller and yeah(:ohwell but im sure jamming will be fun too. after camy went to tohs house with jessie and davchoo. sit around do nth, then watch friends. i dont know why we watched it. then keith came. then we went to cine. ate at pasta mania. we were celebrating keiths bday. then went to heeren cos to find him a shirt for his bday. then dansoh appeared. then lanz appeared. then talk talk talk walk walk walk find shirt. go zara topshop espirit gap and everywhere. still cannot find smth satisfying. then lester appeared. then went to uh. i cant rmb where. i think espirit. or smth. a repeated shop.then finally got his shirt. 90 bucks=x ouch. haha. it was fun though. but by that time already six plus. then took a bus down to kap 'dinnered' with laura pooie and jia. i didnt exactly eat anything. just two fries from jia?haha. and my iced lemon tea(: i wasnt hungry. and they almost killed me for being half an hr late. actually forty mins. then walked to mg for dance dance. its this dance competition/concert. i voted for this group of four guys from cjc and sajc. two from each sch i think. called innocent boys. very coordinated, original, creative, impressive. it was a performance. there was an mg one from dance club. sa cher sharon candice ally vicky alicia yiling. they got second. innocent boys got first. rockefella, some acsi breakdancing group got third. yeps. it was quite okay i guess. then after that i found cherry and sam and cherry was going to meet some ac sec three guy whom shes never seen before in her entire life and added her on friendster cos he came for the concert too so she convinced me to go kap with her. so we met. it was so awkward. haha. meeting people like that is never a good idea. cos he had this big group of friends with him as well. blah.
played for cellworship today, gab lead. then service then street e after service. it was good. i paired with gladys we went to tiong plaza. then our dear uh. stalkers. no lah. toh sam sams cousin keith dansoh davchoo. went too.tohs great idea i think. but they didnt do street e. and all the people gladys and i met either rejected us nicely or listened attentively. there were two sec two girls who gave us their msn and yeah. so happy about that. but no one was free to make it for easter power praise. i think i'll be leaving early for power praise cos ofmep concert. then after that rachael treated all of us to sweet talk :D haha.
this friday is good friday service. g1 and 2. everyone please go.
sat 5-7 g2 is easter power praise. please go too.
if you want more, attend adult on sunday. g1 and 2.
thats all. haha.