Tuesday, March 27, 2007

pool : D and jess' and my lame convo

we had mep today. and while the other groups were presenting their indian music stuff, jess and i were editing and beautifying our ppt. then she opened a word doc. and started typing stuff. so i replied. and here's our convo. she made me save it in my thumb.
(jess)Janice soon is a…… hmm.. WEIRDO ((:
Just joking
(me)Jessica lim is a …….. hmm. ……….. DOULBE WEIRDO : DDDDDDDDD
(jess)Janice is just.. A TRIPLE >>> SUPER DUPER WEIRDO :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
(me)I’ll settle this. JESS IS WEIRDER THAN JAN.HAPPY? : D EVERYONE IS! YAYYYYYYY. WHOOOOOOOOOOOLIKE REAL
(jess)-__________- this is not true.
I think the Janice soon is the weirdest person in the world.
Everyone is now happy xD
The Indian song is so cute
(me)But see right, we already established that you are weirder than I am. Therefore, you are, not a human = JESS IS A ALIEN FROM MARS XDWHY NOT JUPITER?XD
(jess)Janice is just a .. weirdo MARTIAN FROM>> PLUTO or SEDNA xDDYou are so weird Janice, you eat … diapers xD
(me)+jess you’re weirder.
You eat the stuff in the diapers?
(jess)UhThere’s no stuff in the diapers
You just eat it whole
(me)-pukes- VOMITS ALL OVER JESS’ NOW UNCLEAN HAIR.OH HOORRAYY
(jess)Vomits on Janice the weirdo too ((:
And ErmSmashes the diapers full of vomit and what not on her HEAD ((:
and in her MOUTH and in her EAR and NOSE and EYES? xD YAY
And the earth is now not threatened by the MARTIAN Janice soon who eats diapers anymore.
(me)You only made me look like a martian,or alien or wdv.
But im NOT . im HUMAN.
YOOHOOO.
Look whos talking, the alien’s calling the human alien.
(jess)BUTYou must see that the “human” Janice soon is an alien in disguise. And Jessica the “martain” is a human in disguise.

ROCK THE PARTY
BOMBAY ROCKERS

okay all that stuff is rubbish. and on sunday, we went to ps for lunch. adora escaped her cm meeting by telling them she's going lunch with me to 'talk' to me. hahahahaha. so we talked. but not about those scary serious stuff. haha. went with one whole big group. then after that went to meridian to play pool :D there was adora nicole jtoh davchoo dansoh jondave and me. and atfirst only the guys played. two games i think. we just sat on the chairs and watched? then nicole wanted to play, then she asked me to play with her. and im quite bad so i didnt really want to. but i played anyway. i tried breaking the triangle. it was horrible =x haha. but the game part was quite okay actually.
oh and they ate carl's junior for lunch. nicole and i didnt want to cos its uh. big and fattening. so we went around looking for food. then we found secret recipe. she had some choc cake. i had apple cheese cake. mms. then we wre still hungry, so we went to get fries. haha. and all through lunch, me her davchoo and danso were at the same table and we were talking about gory movies. haha. i watched final destination 2 on sat night. freaked me out like anything. its such a super thriller! plenty of gore actually, but it was censored. haha.
oh and sat camy practice was really really good. i learnt alot. we did second keys. so first i played i believe the promise first keys. that was quite hard, the timing is crazy. but anyway yiting played second keys for that. then she played church on fire and i played second for that. the second keys were so coooool! it was super funky.rather jazz, i got to mess around with it. then i played at the cross and she did second keys. and that was all. it was really uh, enriching and enlightening(: funfun. next week is our last camy lesson :( super sad. i really really enjoyed the seven lessons so far.it was what i looked forward to every single week.
i shall not blog anything that makes anyone or myself think tonight.
and today is the frst day in history since many many years( im not kidding) that we dont have any hw. anna went crazy over that after sch. haha.

im so sorry but i cant help myself. i need to write smth.
i think it takes courage to cry. its not easy.
i admire when people cry openly and outrightly.
its not easy, especially for guys.
i mean crying, not whining and such.

and we started film literacy! basically what we do is during langarts and hcl, we watch films and analyse them. every monday. so on monday we watched 'mother' by royston tan. those who dont know who he is, please check if you're a real singaporean. haha. its about this guy growing up. he was gay. he was very mean to his mum. and returned her love with hate, and rebellion. it is a short five minute film, just slides of pictures of little boys and girls. it goes in the format 'you blahblahblah, i blahblahblah' e.g. 'you love, i lust' 'you greeted me every morning, i never bothered to say goodbye' (he left home ten years ago) its like this voice over reading out all these stuff. this bad boy took cigarettes, went for orgies(or is it orgys?) and took drugs. 'you(his mum) believed in God, he blamed her' its really touching. some people cried. but it was too short for alot of us to cry, not enough time to build up the emotions and tears. haha.
but ohwell. laoshi enlightened me on issues and motion statements for arguementative essays today. i feel so. enlightened.

Posted by jann at 19:31

Sunday, March 18, 2007

ballet, golf and lanz (:

ballet exam last thursday. it wasnt as good as i could do.
golf pc test on friday. i passed, thank God.
yesterday no camy training :( cause there was abm so g1 was closed. and i didnt go for abm.
had lanz's bbq thing. for those who dont know, he's moving to new creation.
so amanda came over to my house cos we were supposed to meet, with jessie, at clementi at 4.30. i was still at home. and late late late as usual. then amanda stop at clementi still no one there so she came to jurong and i was still at home and so she came up to my place. then watch me pack then we cabbed to clementi to meet jessie, get the big vanguard sheet and buy caleb's cake. then we three cabbed to blossomvale at serene ng's condo. then i drew a super super hot& sexy cow! and okay it was quite ugly. but that makes it hot. okay. warped reasoning.then davidchooooo and keef drew like grass and a sun and butterfly and dragonfly to beautify my cow. haha. then we got everyone to sign on it and write well wishes for lanzthroughout the night. then we uh ate? and ate and ate? and we sat down and watched stars for a little while. cos there was this particular star that was really really pretty. then ps cuixian came later on. haha i helped bbq a few hotdogs and honeyed them. i got a big kick out of honeying hotdogs and chicken. they taste fabulous with honey. im really really hungry now(; and then put the cow on the floor somewhere nearby and put four sparklers around it. brought lanz and everyone around it and he was like' eh got sparklers' then he realised there was smth in the middle. then hepicked it up. and he looked touched(: it was such a touching moment(: then the inefficient us only brought out caleb's cake like five mins late. it was supposed to come out like after lanz finishes oohing and ahhing then we supposed to happy birthday caleb. but there was some uhm. problem in lighting the candles. partly it was because it was my great idea to get eighteen small candles instead of eight small and one big one. cos i thought eighteen small candles makes everything cuter. which it actually didnt. cos the cake no space. then yeah we went back to the shelter and bbq pit there and continue eating? and sit on the playground and talk. while sam played guitar and the guys serenaded lanz. but he was also singing la. then uh. we went home? haha. at about ten twenty we all left. i mean we started packing up and 10 10 but we were all super slow. and i had to be home by 10.30 or my mama would kill me. so dansoh davchoo jondave and i cabbed back .the jurong people. i alighted first. haha. cos i was already late. i reached home at ten 37. but i didnt get scolded. first thing i said was sorry mummy im seven mins late. then she mm. go sleep. thank God! amandas mummy came to pick her, lester and jessie bused home together, i think cuixian brought the redhill people back with her. oh yeah the people who went for the bbq were serene, amanda jessie jtoh sam caleb keef kenneth cc dansoh davchoo graceteh adora melong lester pscuixian and LANZ! haha of course. and me :D
and we had a great time.
and oh yes before i left i almost forgot but i didnt i passed lanz this GREEEEEEEEN:D card i made earlier on in the day. haha we cldnt hug of course so we shook hands. and aiya i dont know what to say. i wonder if i ever will see lanz again. well it w asreally great knowing him at all.

Posted by jann at 17:05

Friday, March 16, 2007

screwing things up, and how i feel

i havent blogged in eons. 9 days already! haha.
today is justin wong's birthday and yesterday was caleb's birthday. for those who havent yet, do wish them a happy/belated birthday. hmm i havent talked to justin in the longest time. but he certainly was a dear friend to me. very nice to talk to, lots of encouragement and i find him very different from normal guys. in a good way. i mean im not saying he's abnormal or anything. haha.
and i guess most people already know that im stopping ballet. my mum thinks i have no time for anything else. which i agree with. and therefore i have to st op ballet to make time for everything else. which are syf, camy, church/cell, school, piano&theory, guit. and my personal life + social life.and most of these, by the way, are detioriating horrendously. gosh i dont know how to spell deteoriating. or whatever. haha. like oh syf is fine actually. we had dance day camp on tuesday and thursday and zaki finished the entire dance. its called bliss. we have duper pretty costume(which we havent yet seen but know the design) and the song is this chanting song. i think its religious. its called prema shanti dharma satya. which means uh. love of the creation of truth or smth like that. i just know it has buddhist stuff to it luh. which is not really good. sung by sheila chandra. who h appens to hve also written and sung some buddhist songs. so. aiya. my spiritual life isnt too good now. its been in the rocks for some time already. just that i dont knowif anyone has noticed. and i guess i havent really bothered about it. i mean much as i want to pull this whole act together again, i just can't seem to find the time and motivation and dedication to the Lord. and i wonder if the syf song is bothering it. and im in the syf intro. 11 of us are in. but we enter at diff times. and i have some of my own steps. like im the only one doing that step. standing then kneeling somewhere near the front. and the intros quite cool. cos its just like some draggy singing without beats so its free timing. we just do everything slowly. the feel of the dance is zen-like. like just floaty and heavenly.
hmmmmms(:
piano. ohwell havent been practicing much. but i havent last year either. which probably explains my lousy merit for grade 7. my cher wants me to get distincion for this grade, (8) which i think is possible. do forgive my overconfidence. but im quite certain that so long as i work for it. i will get my distinction. t hing is im not. working for it.
and there's no camy this sat cos its abm and g1 will be closed. im sad.
alright i shall just update on what ive been doing over the past few days.
even though i know and i realise that it is rather pointless telling the whole world in detail every scrutinizing detail of my out-of-shape life but. grah i just cant be bothered with all these purpose and direction stuff anymore. i want to stop labelling things. like 'if i do that, i'll be contradicting myself' or 'thats a fallacy' or 'if i tell my friend about how this person is gossiping about me, then i'll be gossiping about that person so i dont exactly have a right to complain about that person anymore'. all these labelling of situations, these rubbish about . LOOK AT THE WORD RUBBISH. i dont have a right to call it rubbish and its not. and all these moral and nonmoral actions, whatever is upright and stuff. its really getting to me and driving me nuts. i feel like i have one foot in my grave already you know. like i have a whole head of thinned white hair thats falling out by the minute. im a balding old woman who's frail frame cant support her dented brain and i just cant do anything anymore.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
there's too much pressure on me and everything i do. and i dont care where its coming frmo. from sch, teachers, friends, parents from MYSELF. and i know everyone goes like'shes barely 14, what does she know about the world and her stress is probably nothing compared to mine' and all. aiya the small fry shall shutup.

you know i always wonder what it'll be like when i grow older. and oh yes everyone. be nice polite respectful and gentlemanly to the elderly. you'll be one of them one day.

ohyes and so for last week's 'events'. cross country on thursday. haha we all got our new house shirts. mines totally blue. BLACKMORE :D i ran like. 30 mins? i dont know. i walked the last 1/3 the way cos i met graace. well grace met me. then we walked and talked. and ran some. then she h ad stitches. so i walked wi th her. and forced her to run the rest of the way.
and clarefong came in first for c div. crazy woman. haha. clare rocks!
blackmore got overall second. then went to kap with grace laura jia charlotte. had a quick lunch. we were one of the first to get there. like five mins later, at least fifty mg girls filled kap up. there were at least 100 in the end i thnk. aLOT of mg girls wearing colourful shirts all over. haha then rushed back to sch for zaki rehersal. then HOME!
and friday. last day of term one. can't believe a whole term has passed so quickly. we sure are getting on with age! haha.family night! after a relaly tiring misswee's prac, went downstairs. found gracecheah. haha she had bubble tea! yeah! so i koped. well she offered me anyway. haha. then we just sat with other twotee people and watched the secthree SLs set up the benches. then a te dinner. the food was not bad for once. the thing we all ate most was the fruit tarts. the were delicious. i love custard fruit tarts. then halfway through dinner bea and grace s tarted with makeup. so everyone started doing makeup. its sofun to go around drawing and messing up peoples faces with a tube of lipstick and an eyebrow pencilxD hahaha!
then we got ready for family night! my dad and mum and bro came. but my dad only came for awhile cos he had some talk thingy. then we sang songs, played games, then performances. two tee did GREAT. but clare bea and i forgot to do a 'channae' shoots i dont know how to spell it. its this type of turn la. then only chris did. but nvm. no one really noticed. haha. and i have this solo part in the front where i do a split jete. it was the best i've ever done. jumped higher than i ever have, and straight straight straight. thank God!
and we learnt this song called 'dumdum dee dee dee' its not really a song. its like this thing you sing to annoy the whole world! LOL.
and i gave everyone in our class a hershey kiss to reward them(: then we stayed back to cleanup. and my dad came to pick us. sent sam home. oh and we took coconuts that were kindof deccorative. but the teacher said they were edible. i think mama threw ours away. haha.

alright. then camy was so so on sat. not really eventful. chooooo didnt come cos he was at jc orientation :( sam taught yiting and i. we kindof revisedthe previous week's second keys cos yiting wasnt here. then learnt tritone substitution. its like subbing in those weird johnmayer-like chords instead of the usual major nice sounding chords. yeahh. then golf. did chipping and bunkering. horrid. okay no one knows what im talking about right? so i shall shush up. haha.
then cell at night. it was super funny cos we were in the preschool room where they run the kindergarten and there were so many ants and millipedes! then we kept screaming. and gaomin caught a few and threw them away. cell was really enjoyable. and once again, i love scream<3
then after that we went outside g2 to wait for hilarys parents and cos during cell gladys and i were talking about what we want in our future husband/boyfriend so we had the convo on the way down and while wa iting for hilarys parents, then walked to busstop and continue. with gaomin and ga too. then gladys' bus came. then we three talk and talk and talk until my parents came then i sent them to mrt station. so fun luh!
okay here's what i want in my future bf/ husband:
1.he must love God, and be serving in a ministry
2. he must be really sweet and love me loads
3. taller than me, and preferably my ageo r odler. i prefer older actually
4. great sense of humour!
5. he doesnt have to be the best musician in the world but he cannot be tone deaf or no sense of rhythm or smth like that.haha.
6. appreciate my dancing mindlessly in the house
7. family-oriented guy
8. preferably educated at at least same level or higher than me. that means if i have a bachelor's degree in smth, he had better have at least a bachelors in whatever he wants too. if not masters or doctorate. LOL. so demanding right. cos if hes dumber than me, then im afraid i'll look down on him.
9. CHINESE! sorry call me racist or whatever you want. actually im not racist but still, i want a chinese man! mixed blood maybe can.
10. not too tall, not too short. uh not fat or flabby. not stick thin either. just average.
11. romantic!
12. HE MUST CHASE ME COS I WONT CHASE HIM. and do everythign a gentlemen is supposed to - pay for movies, open the door, let me walk first through a doorway or smth.
13. an un-shallow person
14. he must want to have kids. cos i want to.
15. not petty, hot-tempered nor short-tempered
16. i will not not not turn into his slave. he must respect me.
17. he must be warm, talkable to, listens to me when i have smth to say and my soulmate.
18. he can never ever ever ever ever EVER lie to me. OR ELSE.
19. know how to play sports. but he doesnt have to like be a pro at everything.
20. tell me to not wear miniskirts and never encourage me to wear miniskirts. (speaks alot about the guy)
21. not gossip
22. it doesnt matter if he can't cook or sweep.
23. i hope he can drive
24. i hope he's not a spendthrift. i mean i dont mind if he shops, but i mind if he buys everything he sees that he likes.
25. i know its off, but he can't be homosexual, transexual, bisexual or impotent.
26. not selfish or stingy
27. he can't look at other girls the moment we start going out. i mean he can s till have female friends though.
28. careful, not careless
29. love me for who i am, and think that im beautiful ( doesnt haveto think im pretty)
30. it wldnt hurt if he were goodlooking.

haha i think im quite demanding. but ohwells. its not that its impossible to find a guy like this actually.
okay and i think i shall continue another day. cos jessie amanda and i are conferencing now.
toodles!

Posted by jann at 21:45

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

stopping ballet

it was official yesterday that janice soon has to stop ballet after learning it for six years.
thats just sad reality.
big girls do cry.

Posted by jann at 20:57

Saturday, March 03, 2007

tribal dance

okay i think i've more or less settled the tribal dance.yays(: just have to clean it up here and there. another wise the dance is done, the poses set, the music ready, and ive chosen a name. its to be called cocopah oglala. it means the river that scatters its own. i know its not the best meaning ever,but nevermind. haha. i like thename, it sounds cute(x
and to the whole world out there, you shld listen to 'quixote' by bond. its great! haha.
and i think this thing is good, cos it sortof bonds our class more(: actually i think twotee is alot more bonded than we were last year. and i realise i havent blogged in almost two weeks i think=x haha.
and its really encouraging when i hear like christine tell me 'jan!i practiced the dance:D' and then she showed me her whole part fluently. its really encouraging. and clare went' thanks for buying the shirts jan, i really appreciate it. its like. i mean it just feels so good to draw all of us closer and encourage one another with just a dance. okay i think my logic is errored but never mind. haha.
and i think ihave a competitive streak, which is driving me crazy.
i want to be exceptional, not just good.
im going nuts.
ahhhhhhh.
but really, i really really want to be exceptional. but of course icant be that in everything i am. and im beginning to wonder, am i really talented in any areas? i mean yes there are plenty of things i can do but i think of me as talented when im exceptional there. and really, im not exceptional anywhere, and that really gets me down.

i wrote a poem last night.
i really think im going cuckoo.LOL.

love quixote<3
xD

oh and ps everyone, my tagboards dying, so please tag when you read it(:
thanks dears!

oh and camy prac w as great today.yiting wasnt here:( so it was sam and me one to one. fun. i learnt plenty. and i tried second keys. with brass sections and strings. the strings sounded whoopers.