Wednesday, February 21, 2007
cny
ohyes. and i forgot to blog about cny yesterday.it was fun, i love my relatives. i was assigned to teach my nephews chinese. im a pretty good teacher.haha!
then eat eat eat. but not as much. not as much festivity as previous years i guess. still the new clothes and all. haha i wore my skirt witha crown on my butt -its a me and jessie joke-
then yeah. quite sian.
i have alot of great ideas on essays to write for myself to read. very unfortunately, i the ohsobusy woman will probably never get down to doing it.
sometimes.
no alot of times, i feel like i dont have a life. i mean things move so fast, you dont have time to stop and catch your breath, and just enjoy nature in its ravishing beauty. all you get is manmade stress. whats the point of life then?life moves too quickly. time also moves quickly, but my life is paced at such a tempo that. oh i just want to collapse. life just becomes a chore. waking up going to sch, hw, piano, dance, everything. i mean theres laugther and fun. but looking at things as a whole, it does seem rather restrictive and SAD. sad life?
and grades worry me alot. sometimes i wonder, why do i even worry about my grades. why do i want good grades. is it because i want to strive for the best ican in everything? yes i guess thats a goal for everyone in everything we do but does it partially have anything to do with society's pressure on us as the only resource being human and our brains to study study and study till studying becomes a necessity to survive in this environment, and if you dont conform and just play along the rules of society, you'll become trash? haha chinese - yellow trash.
okay for those who dont get it, this is in reference to 'poor white trash' the phrase.
for those who still dont get it, forget it.
for those who do get it. i loveyou man.
okay im going nuts again.
so point is. society demands and requires us to study study study and essentially have a good education, be learned and smart people. but WHATEVER FOR?
i mean how far will education get us?
philo teaches that science is crap
sch teaches that we have to do science
the world stresses that science in nano tech and whatnots are our future
smart top learned raving big humans say that we have to do philo and they all have big life philosophies. and they think deep like anything.
so . aiya. society's just nuts.
but we do have to conform dont we?
where else can we live but earth (besides heaven and hell)
so the only i see it is that we have no other alternative but to 'just follow law'. even if we arent following blindly, we're still ultimately following. we all have to follow.
why isnt anyone doing something about this whole horrible situation?
well maybe i should be that someone. but i dont know what to do. i dont have enough capacity. or so i think.
its alot of peoples dreams already actually, if you look at it from certain perspectives. like in all american movies, the theme of 'heroism' and 'individual vs society' and 'extrinsic vs intrinsic' and all are apparent in their movies. perhaps they are dreams.
i mean yeah theere are people who have stepped out to make a difference. like for example. bush. i mean whether you like it or not, he does make a difference. but his 'making a difference' doesnt necessarily allow us to not conform to society in many ways, does it?
so maybe those moves are just macrofied versions of the directors dreams.
afterall martin luther king junior did have a dream
for those who dont understand, im referrng to his i have a dream speech.
and OHYES. he did make a difference. in some ways he allowed blacks to not conform to the whites ideals of them. all the slavery and freedom stuff.
hmm.
so people have done it.
its just not happening in singapore.
yet.
ohwells. i guess i feel alot like the little prince.
im sure all of you know the story.
JANNY'S NOTE: LAOLAOS WHO READ THIS WILL PROBABLY HAVE A LOT TO SAY. im taking 18 and over as a rough gauge for the term 'laolao' in relation to this post. so if youre a laolao, sorry for making you read all these. it was really my nonsense and alot of views just pouring out cos i really have to say them somewhere and once i get started i dont stop.so yeah.
laolaos will probably . might . have alot of things to say about what i wrote. but sorry. this is a little kids point of view. so dont mind me.
the little princess(:
michelle wee called me this afternoon and we both decided that we should shift to xanga. haha. im still deciding.
ahwells.
nights everyone(:
Posted by jann at 22:14
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
fhps pics(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAOQING!
today's haoqing's birthday, and we've been friends for let's see. this is the sixth year. uh thats like. almost half my life. ohman=x
haha.
here's a little thanksgiving for haoqing:
it's been great knowing you, with all your crappy random nonsense. after knowing you for so long then do i realise you can be emo and sensitive and all. and its nice to see your softer side once in awhile. but all that aside, you're fun and really really crappy. stay pretty dear(: haha!
pic we took last fri at ntuc. haha.
and happy third day of cny everyone else!
i think this is going to be the first time of the entire history of me and my blog that i've posted pics. haha. i feel so accomplished cos ive like uploaded all my pics from mep concert and friday.(this is a terribly big feat for janice soon, for those who dont already know)
i think this is going to be the first time of the entire history of me and my blog that i've posted pics. haha. i feel so accomplished cos ive like uploaded all my pics from mep concert and friday.(this is a terribly big feat for janice soon, for those who dont already know)
so on thursday we went to old ford factory at night. it was where we signed the papers of surrender during world war two at 6.20 am on 15 feb 1942. it was a good exhibition. with the real board room and all where they signed it. a guided tour, lotso f pics and exciting info. and since the day we went was also 15 feb, the SPI ( singapore paranormal investigators ) were there and had set up all their equipment. they had a recorder and some sensors in the board room, with the whole screen showing what was in the room outside the building. and an altar with candles and offerings and all. on this table. set up outside the building. to attract the spirits there. and after the tour the people from spi told us some freaky stories and all. and mrs chen was afraid that we would be disturbed. cos they did show us pics of some supposedly 'orbs' and some freaky stories about little kids following you, third eye and all. so mrs chen prayed for us before we left.
im so glad to be in a mission school(:
but actually after a discussion with my dad after that night. i realised that spirits can and probably exist. i think ive mentioned the holy ghost thing before. and how else do angels and demons exist. they are spirits and they do exist in some form. i guess orbs are just some stuff of the heavenly realm. but of course the angels/ demons have to choose to reveal themselves to us first before some will get to see them. after all angels did appear to mary and those people in the bible.and we do hear of people who are demon possesed. so these angels and demons have to exist i some form, and they might just be the orbs some people see.
aiya dunno luh. but i think its highly probable.
then friday we had cny celebrations in sch then went back to fuhua. new principal there already. shes malay. miss taha. then met jolene jillian zengxue ervin haoqing wenxuan clarice kaisan angeline shiteng weichen and we went to jec kobayashi for lunch. i just had chawamushi :D then we went to take neoprints cos shiteng and clarice wanted to. ji and jo refused to. haha. then after that ji jo and zengxue and wenxuan and weichen went back first.
but i managed to catch a pic with ji jo and zx first(:
here they are 
us four, outside the neoprint centre. i love all of them to bits<3
from left : zengxue, jo, ji me.
ji and me(:
shant post all of them here, just those i look nice in. LOL.
then we - clarice angeline hq erv kai and me watched just follow law. quite okay luh, the show. i liked the themes jack neo poked at. about not always following the law, the restricitions and 'ineffeciency' of our society. how we always suckup to those in higher positions. basically a number of problems our society faces.mm yeps
then after that we took some pics, then went to library and took more pics in front of the no photography sign at the lift on the first floor. and got scolded =x haha
we met ying there<3
and we all walked into the fourth floor girls toilet and took a pic of our reflection!
ervin and me at ntuc
haoqing wanted this pic taken.
and sherri and me at mep concert!
twotee peeps at mep concert!:D
from left : roxanne, yu, suat, viv, me, anna, jess, sherri!
from left : roxanne, yu, suat, viv, me, anna, jess, sherri!
Posted by jann at 15:41
Sunday, February 11, 2007
yesterday!
ohmann. yesterday was great! and i keep using the words 'ohman' today. haha.i think it came from yiting. she keeps calling joeltay oldman.so we had camy practice. i was like two mins late? haha (x then i brushed up on my minimelody skills. which apparently are quite lousy.haha. and then we learnt how to replace the normal major resolved and nicefitting sounding chords with funny weird chords. that somehow still fit. its quite cool.haha.so im supposed to go away this week and go figure out more funny chords for any song i want. we ended at like. one. then we went to ikea. well i went with all the laolaos. those in my generation went home to study.haha. the laolaos referring to yiting(we two were the only two mentees there, the rest are our trainers) sam(lim) vern joel johann jonwong and ricky. we went to ikea. in two cars. joel/johann's parents and rickys. ohmannnnnn they drive out to eat after church. the rest of us have to bus normally. i felt so. like its like with your parents likethat, take car.haha. went to ikea. most of us had meatballs.haha. i love the gravy. then yeah i enjoyed talking to all of them. they're all so nice and yeah.haha. it's not really hard to talk to laolaos actually. i kept stressing on the generation gap thing and yeah most were like 'wah she's only sectwo' im so young : D they're LAOLAO. the youngest among them is like vern 19, and oldest is joel, 26. so im like. at least five years younger than all of them. actually five years is not alot. but 26 and 14 its like twelve years. yeah that makes him an old man!
then i rushed off for golf. i was well. late. no surprise luh. haha. then after i bathed there then my parents dropped me off at raffles city. met tiff bea van viv yu michchan chris sherri and roxanne for dinner at the cartel. aiya dumbdumb me. i got of the car and walked right past starbucks and into raffles city and walked the whole entire one round of the first floor then i calledtiff cosi couldnt find cartel. turned out cafe cartel was rightnext to the big starbucks.haha. so we all had pasta.and chris was telling us about how she got robbed and there was a blueblack on her arm. it was areally convincing story, we all believed her. tried to pull her bag, ran off with only a silver keychain cos she was tugging the other way. haha she later told me it was some made up story. her blueblack was makeup. cos they were testing out colours for our tribal poster for family night.ohmannn.haha.
see, the ohman again.
cartel was good.our bill totalled 144 or smth like that. so scarily ex=x haha.
then we walked over to esplanade and couldnt find our sculptures for art. and we were kindof late anyway, so we didnt have time anyway.the concert was rather good. the first half was so so. i mean we've watched sso like ten times so nth too surprising about their standards. then after the break was RACHMANINOFF. he's my alltime favourite. i love him. ib et he was a cute old man. for those who dont know, he's DEAD.haha. he's a russian composer. really good pieces. i love his prelude in g minor. those who have never heard it should go hear it. wel li ve never before either but my teacher gave me the piece. my ex teacher. when i was in like grade five or six. so obv i couldnt really play it well. its like dip/post diploma standard. and it was a piano concerto so valdimir feltsman was the pianist.he's like really good. the piece is scarily hard. jess was so shocked about how he memorised 40 mins of that crazy rachmaninoff piece. i love rachmaninoff. OH RACHMANINOFF, RACHMANINOFF, WILL YOU BE MY VALENTINE? haha just kidding. i wldnt want an old man for a valentine, even if he were cute. haha.
oh and my valentines are christine and michelle wee.
how fun! : D
i got like this really really nice big heart shaped cookie from amanda today. with a LOT of m&ms, silver metal kind of chocolate balls, and those rice chocolate on it. its really good. and a card. and more chocolate from other people. amanda's one was the sweeetest. cos it had this big P on it. standing for PRINCESS i guess. haha(:
and this inverted J.
i feel really bad. i didnt finish any valentines cards so i cldnt bring for them today. and i was running late for church so i cldnt get them flowers either. im supposed to get flowers for sch people anyway so i'll get it later today.but i cant keeptheir's till next saturday, so i guess i'll have to give them smth else. :(
WHAT I LOVE MOST ABOUT VALENTINE'S DAY IS THE CHOCOLATE.
okay maybe not that. its all the love i give and receive. feels really good getting so many hugs(:
toodles! i have to do xiaoshuo and personal recount NOW.
then i'll go out for dinner with my china relatives whom i visited in china during dec hols last year later. actually we jsut went for lunch. they're at science centre now, which is like across the road. haha. with my parents and their dad and selina ( my SINGAPORE cousin) haha.
Posted by jann at 15:46
Friday, February 09, 2007
i dont like hypocrites. i dont mind when you point out a mistake of mine and you dont do it yourself. i think its big-time hypocritical to tell me that im lalala and do the same stuff as well.that's the biggest joke ever, except no one laughs.
okay this is not supposed to be funny.
i wonder if anyone actually reads the posts when they come here, or just skim.ohwells.
everything just feels wrong.
and im really really really hungry right now. theres this empty pit deep down in me which really desires to be filled.
literally and unliterally.
literally to my STOMACH.
unliterally to my soul. i mean its not like i havent been praying or anything. todays prayer meeting was good but still. i dont know luh. dance was fun today. it was parent's sit in week. means the parents get to sit in and observe our ballet lessons. and we gave mrs ng feedback on how we're given too much to do at one shot.
i mean like, we have six projects. six BIG projects running simultaneously, three tests this week and three/four next wee, depending on whether you take hcl.
my mum just told me i have no EQ. which i honestly outrightly disagree. violent objection.
that is pure. nonsense.
Posted by jann at 23:24
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
cherry :( and tribal dance!
we are the ohsogreat tribe of tikitiki!so i started teaching my group three people their part of the dance yesterday after school.i would say it was quite a success. bea and suat came to watch cos they had nth to do.haha.the people were quite enthu about the steps and cooperative. i really have to thank God for that. i mean i was afraid those weird steps i came up with for the dance might not be very well accepted by some people. and today we tried to brush up on it? and i gave them their final poses. and after sch i taught rox anna mich chan viv and van.but only one part.they're the partner people. okay nvm no one knows nuts about what im talking about. except for those people whom i explained the entire dance to.then yeah tmr after sch i'll teach gracecheah clare chris suaty bea and myself our parts. ours is the opening. the four one bar solos. and a duet by grace and suat. im making them do centre splits. evil me.hahaha
deborahh invited us to her house for cny on second day!yays. but i dont know if i can go.
you know come to think of it, i guess it is understandable why we uhm. kissup to america.i mean theyre big and powerful.we're quite small you know.and yeah we opened our port to them and they let us fly in arizona. we support their war but i think the whole point is that we are allies. and if anyone goes to war with us, we do get some help i hope? but the whole war for democracy thing going down in iraq. i mean yeah i support democracy. but i dont know about war. even though the bible says there is a time for war but still. i dont like war. well im sure no one does. but i sometimes pity bush. he will never please everyone.well of course no one ever will. but look he's responsible for the most powerful and influential country in the world. everything he does is all under pressure. and to addto the US, he now has to take responsibility for iraq. its not easy you know. all the pressure and stress and theres simply so much to do!
i miss cherry:( she was such a great classchair, even if it were just for a month.i'll be praying for her!
finally be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power! ephesians 6:10a
Posted by jann at 18:47
Friday, February 02, 2007
updates
hello people. i decided i'd better update before this starts to rot.i'm feeling so lousy now. really really lousy. ever had one of those days where the world 'comes crashing down on you' well im not exactly crushed now. not yet. but still, the night has been dissappointing.
anyway, i got a new phone on thursday evening :D its some lg slide phone. and its not the chocolate one:( i went to the dentist at AH before going to get my phone. second time this month. again he did nth. cos my tooth is still alive and he doesnt want to kill it by doing a root canal. ohwells, two wasted trips there. so i'll just leave it to heal by itself. its an inflamation.
pe is getting funner and funner. its been wayy good so far this year. ive enjoyed each session. we played rugby today. so super fun(:
and its charlottes birthday today
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLOTTE.
and alicias birthday tmr
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE ALICIA<3
so i bought charlotte my fav cake from prima deli yesterday on the way home. the hazelnut indulgence. its heavenly i tell you.
i was really too overworked to have dance just now. it was simply horrid.
oh and i had three tests this week. geog, hist and hcl. they were okay i guess? then we had some presentations as well, and alot of presentations next week. its like they give us so many projects to do simultaneously, we're dying! grah.
ss half page (font size 12) on what we're going to write for our animal rights research paper was due today. i wrote it last night. it was amazingly long. longer than half page definitely. and the most astonishing part was, i wrote it all, totally and completely onehundred percent of my own words. i didnt refer to anything. i wrote my pure opinions after reading a huge chunk of info. i am so pleased with myself. so so pleased.
oh for sec two family night (its a level concert) we have to perform a tribal dance per class. im solely choreographing my class' dance(: so excited. its such an opportunity.the theme is survivor. so each class names themselves some tribal name. we're two tee. so we're TIKITIKI :D haha.
sometimes, we can't turn around and walk backwards. we'll just turn into salt, and fall to the ground as next-to-nothings. some things just dont work out.