Saturday, August 26, 2006

politics

i am firmly set on not becoming a politician anytime in the near future :D

Posted by jann at 22:35

Thursday, August 24, 2006

updates!

wow.i havent blogged in the longest time.
really busy, piled with lots of hw.

updates :
1. WE SURVIVED ISO.we probably passed our oral presentation. the written reports quite okay too, so i think my group will do fine. it was a whole series of last minute cramming, but we're still alive(:

2. grace two inaugaral ceremony. GRACE AOG has a second building. and it was officially opened and dedicated last sunday. with yours truly as one of the singers. i think pastor meng cham's really creative with the song endings, and his guit is superb. his daughter's in mg. but i have no idea what she looks like though, i only know her name. haha. oh and that she's in strings ensemble.

3.social studies- we were looking at mr brown. and what he was saying about the government thing anyway. but what really hit me was the talk about the contactless cashcard.

the following in italics are from this website. http://www.contactlessnews.com/news/2006/03/22/ask-to-supply-contactless-payment-cards-to-singapore/
ASK to supply contactless payment cards to Singapore
Wednesday, March 22 2006
Contactless card supplier ASK has repackaged its 10-year-old contact-based CashCard to supply Singapore with a payment card that combines CashCard's existing payment features with contactless technology. The new Cepass-equipped card will be useable at retail outlets and car parks.

so what is this card, exactly? (following extract from a gov website)

A contactless card uses radio frequency to allow the card and the terminal/card reader to communicate or transact without physically touching. Contactless technology is popular with mass transit, road toll and physical security access applications which require fast transaction speeds.

yes i am doing my hw on this topic, but i cant seem to find out how its going to be inserted into our body and when this will be implemented in Singapore. and i wonder which other countries will do this too? could anyone who has any answers please tell me? thanks. i cant seem to find any more on the net.

so, this contactless cashcard thing, according to tiff and chris, will be injected into us. (ouch!) my question : when this is implemented in spore, do all sporeans have to do it? if its not compulsory, will there be a divide amongst believers (of Christ) and non-believers?

they two think that it's the mark of the best, as mentioned in revalations.
those who belong to God are not supposed to have that mark? if the whole of singapore were forced to have that contactless cashcard, what are we to do? and how sure can we be that this contactless cashcard is the mark of the devil?

actually im kinda scared to blog about this sub. i mean, what if i said smth wrong abt it?

another thing. many have been spectaculating the second coming : we all think its soon, which it's supposed to be because we are living in the last days. the tsunami, 9/11, SARS, contactless cashcard, mark of the beast? and israel's at war. arent these signs of the second coming? i think they are.

defying nature : ballet. defying nature?
our bodies werent made to turn out our feet 150 degrees standing with our knees straight. our backs have a natural curve/arch. ballet makes us turn out our feet horribly, straighten our backs, as in flat wall straight, and many other things im not sure we should be doing. its like, if God made us this way, should we go defy it, and change his creation, just because its an art appreciation and simply nice to look at? i just realised that recently, should i stop ballet? i'll use a rather extreme analogy : God made dalmations with soft flaps on their ears to protect their ears. people cut them off and tie ribbons on them cos they think its cute? should we do that? God gave us eyes to see, do we close our eyes because we're too lazy to study, and just rot? okay smth's wrong with my analogies, but i think you're kinda understand what i'm saying right.
i dont know.
i really don't know.

oh and one more thing i thought of while i was whining about how i dont know.haha. we as humans are shooting off questions, some questions just dont seem to have a definite answer (okay i know nth is actually definite) but no answer like why is the chlorophyll green? cos it reflects green and absorbs the rest of the colours (thats what mr tay said but im not sure myself) yea so some qns dont have any real answers and we ask too many questions.
i have smth to say to that. dont try and answer or know everything. we cant. we just simply cant.

that's why we're humans, not God.

Posted by jann at 18:26

Thursday, August 17, 2006

funny hottie

the other day pooie and i were walking down blackmore drive to the sch busstop. we were going to her hse. so i was telling her about this hot guy. then i was like 'he is so cute la!' and when i said it i happened to turn around and look behind. so she followed me and turned around and looked to. there was this old man up the slope walking towards us. then for awhile she thought i thought the old man was cute! haha. it was uber funny la!
okays take lots of care, everyone. i know everyones falling sicksick.sighh.

Posted by jann at 23:45

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

planetshakers

this is a kind of a late late post for the sub.
but anyways. planet shakers concert last sat. it was fun: D
went with jessie, hoho, his cousin samantha (shes' cute!), abby, sharon, anna, pearlyn, jean, sam and COMPANY. he brought like, ten hci ppl.
and met alotalot of ppl there. joonyan and amelia, anna and i forgot the twogirl's names and jonathan. and hohos cousin. and claudia, and saw jtoh lanz and their fairfield company.
so we went after gracetwo's choir prac. hoho amanda jessie and i went to suntec.cos hohos friend was playing in wcg. and team singapore won la. haha. though i know nuts about dota.
then we met sam jtoh and hch there. and sams friend wenqiang came there too. then went to expo. where sams whole big hci company was there. we didnt talk to them at all? maybe a teeny weeny bit. but i know their names. haha.
the concert was fun. totally hyped. at first i thougth it was kinda off focus cos there were those bungee jumping ppl at the front. so we were at the open space there. claudia told me she was standing near me but i didnt see her. haha. then it got good, and i got into the mood after they stopped bungee-ing.
they gave us each this bag. and there was this uv writer. like this five cm long pen that you can write on skin with. its white. so they wrote on me.while we were going to the mrt and at the mrt station. they drew a very very fake looking nose ring, and since i was wearing a racer back. a big ROAR below my neck. and two wings on my back. and then sharon attempted drawing a necklace on me at the mrt. but somehow, the she didnt hold the pen thingy properly and it dropped into my blouse :X haha.then i sorta screamed and stepped backward and bumped into someone. haha.
then went to bedok for supper. then after that went home.after the whole big gang of sams friend left. there was abby, sharon, sam,hoho, weizhe, and me left. so sam was like say hi to weizhe. so abby was like 'hi' in her normal manner. then sharon was like 'hi!' in this high pitchedd voice. super funny. i forgot abt saying hi then cos i was too busy laughing. they described it as squeaky. haha. talked to him a lil. got home at 12 plus. my parents werent too happy abt that.

okays i have no idea what to say now. this week has been kinda restless.ive been folding paper cranes all through lesson. theres a huge stack on my table. and they're all red, diff sizes. rather cute(: and i havent really felt like doing hw so i havent really been doing any. i have to start studying for geog test soon.next week carries a whole load of tests.
and i havent been feeling really well. as in physically. i have cough, flu, sorethroat, running nose, cold. i feel pretty horrible. and stomach ache today. i wore a jacket since last night, all through today. like on the streets, and all through lesson( for those who dont know, mg classrooms do not have aircons so no many ppl wear jackets during lesson unless its raining heavily or smth) and i havent seen a doctor. and i havent taken any medicine or anything yet. junwen suggested warm coke with lemon. i dont exactly plan to try that. haha. i'll just pray. and sleep more i guess.

and all of a sudden, im hooked on to the song. the time has come! how catchy. and i just listened to it's your love (its the song we danced to) just now. brings back alot alot of memories of dance night and jamies dance. i so miss dance night. and i havent talked to amanda (tan) in a longlong time. i rmb when i first met her during jamie's dance. and for those who still havent realised, jamie CAN choreograph really nice dances(: thanks jamie, for your dance, fervour.

Posted by jann at 17:49

Friday, August 11, 2006

screwups

my heart aches. (drama ooh)
i messed up a couple of things today, actually messed one up and will mess the other up soon.
i shall not use the word screwup.
anyways. left sch during recess today for piano exam at jurong. i was uber nervous and i made quite a number of mistakes. scales were alright i guess. pieces was like, horrible.enough to get a boderline pass for those i guess, but way below how i played for ms tan( my piano cher) yesterday.sight reading was a hit. aural had a few mistakes. the examiner asked for aural section d: 'what period do you think this piece is likely to be from' i answered romantic. which i think was correct. it was like, chordy. i hope romantic is chordal. cos i clean forgot. anyways, he asked for a likely composer. i cldnt think of anyone else so i said chopin. chopin's romantic period but he so does not write those kind of music. he writes waltzes! grahh.
i feel so so bad.just wasted 200 plus bucks.
and we got the list for our lang arts file. i have a feeling i have a couple of assgns missing.
dear me, i feel real real bad.

anyways. lets change the sub.
i.
i dont know what to say. haha.
i've been sorta, not doing proper qt lately. like i pray as usual, but slightly less. worship time still remains in the morning, but no longer at night.i havent read my bible for weeks.i really want to get back on track.but i lack so much self discipline.i so need to straighten my relationship with God out.
sigh.

and i'm vry self conscious.i tend to base a large part of my selfesteem on interaction. i would like it not to be that way.

could someone please tell me how?

Posted by jann at 18:39

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

nat day celebration

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY :D
yesterday was national day celebration.we basically sangsangsang, and had a forum.
the forum was interesting. one sec one sbc girl against two sec two sbc girls.
the sec one girl, amaris, was against the pap. the sec twos, for.
well, the sec twos sort of won.
go amaris! good try (:
after that went back to fuhua. quite few of us went back.
then after getting chased out of fuhua by the security guards, we went to the bball court.
after stoning for half an hr (i think), siying, zm, wx and i went to yuanlongs hse.
erv hq and three of yuanlongs classmates were there playing halo2. why was i not surprised.
siying hm and i talked for awhile, then jo called me.
so siying collected whatever it was she had to from yl and we left.
met jo at je. then went to ec macs for lunch. joce joined us, then later zm came and extra-ed.
then went to lib, ji came, joce left, then zx came. we crapped alot there, and took pics (:
then went to causeway point, and took neoprints :D they were super messy but nice somehow.
then went home.
miss fuhua loads. but i think for many, the feelings seem to have faded. quite sad ya.

sometimes i have things to say, but i cant blog it cos it's too personal, or im afraid of who's going to read it.or am i just too afraid to admit my feelings?

sometimes i feel kinda out of place. and it's no one's fault. like everyone's really nice and warm, but they seem to be closer to each other than i once was to them, and i feel like i'm lagging behind, or i'm left out of the connections ppl still maintain.

sometimes i want this, i want that. but material stuffs arent of much use.they're just nice to look at, and i guess it makes you feel good. but is it worth the money, and is it worth trying to keep up with fashion?

sometimes i feel like talking back, or giving arguments, or shooting someone down with words because i know im capable of doing so, and i will win. but sometimes i just try to shut up, and swallow what i have to say, cos i know it will hurt.

sometimes i want so much to forget about smth, but i think about it more. sometimes i know its wrong to think about something, but i keep on doing so, and i know its a sin. sometimes i want feel i'm not doing my best for my qt, but i dont make an effort.

sometimes i want to say i'm sorry, and i am sorry, but i dont have the guts to. sometimes i just avoid someone/thing, sometimes i just run away.

sometimes, sometimes..

okays, i have no idea why i said all those.haha.i'm not really good at expressing my feelings directly, i think im afraid to sometimes. and other times, i just want to keep them to myself.

okay here's a song we sang on monday's chapel. i love it. we sang it alot during orientation camp too (: it's titled 'i've got the joy'. the lyrics here are from memory, they might be wrong. haha.

there's annointing in the air
i can feel it everywhere
there's power in my soul
so let the river flow

can you feel the rushing wind
it's blowing deep within
my spirit is alive
my life has been revived!

chorus:
i've got the joy
i've got the peace of mind
i've got the faith, in the holy ghost
that fills me everyday
i've got the life
i've got the melody
i've got the word, the word of God
that sets me FREE!

the tune's really catchy, and the lyrics are rather assuring and confident (:

Posted by jann at 13:47

Monday, August 07, 2006

back!

MY BLOG IS BACK! :D

for those who havent realised, my blog was down for the past two weeks or so, cos i eh, sorta killed it. changed skin. hope its temporary, i want another skin. i removed the codes at first so the blog would be empty but then i decided to revive it cos sometimes i wanted to blog abt certain things but i cldnt. it's like, i'm lazy, but i still want to blog.haha.and i realise the words are hard to read here. and i'll do up the links another day, not tonight.

anyways, i feel muchmuch better after the musical (: been sleeping loads recently.

matt went back to tekong already. he looks funny in his botak condition.haha.

yesterday was the first sunday we moved our service to an earlier time. not bad.

the theme we'll be doing for sermon for the next few weeks is 'catwalk his name'.
they talked about body art, mainly tattoos yesterday and they got some ppl to model some tattoos (mostly temporary). it was quite a hoot, and was light hearted. and the sermon ended with ps ronald 'concluding' that we should not tattoo.well, discouraging la.
hoho felt kinda against it, he blogged about it and i went to talk to him abt it. he gave the analogy that 'modelling a tattoo to show that tattoos are bad is like modelling as a murderer to teach that murder is wrong'.
then i thought about it.the models were called up and asked if they were willing to model some temporary tattoos. if i were asked, i would have immediatelyagreed and not given it a second thought. after all to me, the church always teaches the right thing, and it sounds fun anyway. but if, if, someone had told me this analogy first, would i still have agreed? is modelling a tattoo to show that tattooing is wrong, right? does the church always teach the right thing?
i have to admit i'd still be tempted to agree though.
im not saying the church teaches wrong things, but the church is fundamentally the people, and the people are humans, humans who do make mistakes. therefore, the church can be wrong at times?
i have no idea how to conclude this.haha. i'll go think more about it, and pray.

oh and mrs beatrice leong, the eng head(i think) sat in our class today for our 'heroes' presentation. she was rather quiet throughout. my group was first to present. only three groups did in the one half hours and many questions were raised.
i like thinking the way we do during lang arts and abit of philo, but it makes my head hurt sometimes.
LOL. (x
toodles! (: