Monday, November 20, 2006

fear of the Lord

the bible says 'the fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge'.
everytime a preacher or a christian mentions fearing the Lord, i wonder, how do i fear the Lord? what is fearing the Lord?
a couple of nights ago, i wasnt feeling too good. my body was topsy turvey. i was at the 'climax of pain' when i thought of crying out to God. then i thought, is it God's wrath or is it like in the case of Job. i decided it was God trying to catch my attention. lately i've been doing smth i know i shldnt do. smth absolutely no human knows, except myself. (it's not that scary!haha) and each time i hear the holy spirit, for a few brief moments, trying to tell me to stop. i hear, but i don't obey. i had not really been honoring God. for honouring means to obey.so yea in plenty of pain, i promised that i would stop doing it. and since then i had not. well but it's just been a few days.

previously i did tell myself i'd try to stop it, but now there is smth stopping me from doing it, which is good. cos i like the feeling of keeping promises [:

had first dance prac for the hols today. it was miss wee, not zaki. miss wee isnt as fierce as we thought she was after all. she's rather nice. we did alot of stretching and strengthening. it was good! she's coming tmr too. and on wed, i think it's zaki. then i'll miss two more lessons next week and come for the one next thursday cos i'll be overseas. my plane lands on thurs at 7.55 and dance is at 9am. haha. rather tight.

i shall be going overseas to china for holiday + visit my distant distant rich china relatives :D
guangzhou, from 23 to 30 nov. thats this thursday to next thursday.
all are welcome to miss me xD

Posted by jann at 21:35

Thursday, November 16, 2006

zibei

OKAY.
i think im zi-bei-ing now. i just read someone else's very um. well written, detailed, organised, easy and nice to read blog. and i know that my blog is uber hard to read. so.. yeah.

1.i should change blogskin. the long blog kind. i think it's way easier to read.
2. i should not be so random in blogging and just jump into topics or rant about well, 'nothing' (of much real value)
3. and i shouldnt crap. i should talk insightful stuff, use proper language and blahblahblah.

yea. i mean that'd be nice. but. would it really be me? okay i mean i guess its mostly me, but sometimes i just need to let go and type whatever thought that comes to my mind immediately.
okay i think i'm saying quite a good lot of junk.
and whoever's reading this, if anyone is, probably thinks i'm weird.
haha but the word weird has become part of me and i've come to accept it? okay now, saying all that is really rather weird in itself. haha.
but honestly, i think i'm very different from people. and i'm just well, different. different not as in i was born on mars but different as in not mainstream?
first of all, i'm not conventionally pretty. which most other girls are. my interpretation of the term 'conventionally pretty' is that (if you think i'm pretty) i'm not the way other girls are pretty. which means that some people will look at me and say pretty. some people will say ugly. whereas for most girls. most people will agree that she is either pretty, or ugly. okay so thats my interpretation and if you dont agree with it, i suggest you re-read the disclaimer :D

okay i think i'm a little nutty today xD

and i'm kind of debating whether i should spend more time on my blog posts. i was talking to my piano teacher[ as i do about almost everything from shopping to politics every lesson. really thank God for someone who's willing to bear with my million questions and explain to me everything i want to know and a minute later, ask me about what i bought whilst shopping yesterday. SHE'S THE BEST!(: ] as i do every lesson, and we got on the subject of blogging. she said that it's rather pointless and well, stupid to blog about things which only concern you, you and your personal life which no one else will really care about. like going ' oh today i daoed so and so cos she was so bitchy and she has two pimples! i got a new zit today and i think my hair's more and more oily and i broke my fingernail' that kind of stuff? she thinks blogs worth reading are those that talk about stuff that can 'help' or are useful to others. i find thats rather true to some extent.
BUT, the point of a blog is to update everyone else about your personal life and talk about how you feel. or so i thought.
AIYA. dont know luh.haha.

anyway. i really like watching wang zi bian qing wa. its so. fairytale-like. wonderful. haha. and after watching it i start feeling all i-want-to-marry-a-guy-like-mingdao! hahaha. okay i think i'm nuts. and weird agian.
and on several ocassions i've asked my mummy 'do you think i'll get married' haha. i'm afraid i won't get married. or that i won't find a guy who meets my expectations. but then another point to note, for people with minds like mine, having high expectations of their future partner, think about this : do YOU meet your own expectations of another?
if not, like myself probably, the OT of the bible does provide some guides to what virtues a good wife should possess. don't know if there is for husbands.

okay i shall do heymath now. HEYMATH. ahhhhhhhhhhhh.

Posted by jann at 20:48

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

shopping with michelle and quiz

emelia made me do this.
One. Think of 15 short bits of interesting stuff about yourself. And they've gotta be true.
Two. Come up with 5 false statements regarding yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.
Three. Jumble them all up together and list them in any order.
Four. Post them on your blog and let people guess which the five false ones are!
Five. Get 5 others to do the same.
1. my parents wanted to name me CHRISTABEL
2. they wanted me to be a boy.
3. i have ten pairs of shoes
4. i cut my own fringe
5. i got best in science in p4
6. swiss cottage sec was my fourth choice for sec schs after psle
7. i used to live opp current nhps
8. i cant stand red licorice
9. i brush my teeth three times a day :DDD
10. i hated sharks fin a few years a go.
11. i love my tan
12. i sit with my legs on the chair when using the com
13. i love vegetables <3
14. i hate vegetables BOO
15. i think this quiz is pointless?
16. i was born in NUH
17. my favourite colour changes every few weeks
18. im a christian
19. i dance to the walls at home.
20. i dont like LOTR

five people to do this too:
1. clare fong!
2. LHM
3. stephy
4. deboRAH [liu] (:
5. caleb? (x

okay, the five false statements are
3. i only have NINE.
5.it was in p3. haha.
9. only twice luh
11. i am NOT tan.haha. i want to be tanned.
14. as said in 13, i LOVE veggies xD

went out with michelle wee to town today. it was fun(: but im lazy to blog about it now.haha. bought quite alot of stuff and spent quite alot of money.bought each other belts for christmas! mines this crown buckle and its brown strap and hers is totally silver. and button earrings from mini bits. and ate at pastamania. i didnt really eat much. about 1/4 a pizza? and drank minestrone. walked around aLOT. bought socks? dont ask me why. and this floober ball for APPLE. it was her idea anyway.and a strawberry milkshake from mos burger which i drank on the way home.
sry everyone, that was two minutes wasted on how i spent my money today.

Posted by jann at 22:06

Sunday, November 12, 2006

humansforsale + human cocktail

this is the first time in a very very long while that im blogging more than once in a day.

How to make a janice

Ingredients:
1 part intelligence
3 parts crazyiness
3 parts beauty

Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Top it off with a sprinkle of emotion and enjoy!

Posted by jann at 18:09

g2 movie marathon cum night bazaar.

hey[:
sheena and emelia came over on friday:D we didnt do much. went to watch step up with emelia. sheena wasnt interested so she went home first and we met her at imm for dinner after the show.
step up is a great dance show. as in, the dancing is great. the plot's so-so. i wldnt mind a lil more dancing though:D
haha watching it made me realise the impact of probably not being able to achieve my dream of becoming a dancer.
hard to understand?
same here!
see, i like to dance. i dance a lot. and i want to be a dancer when i grow up. but i know its highly unlikely. and hence is sort of like a-dream-that-doesnt-come-true. which is really quite sad. i mean i really really want to dance. then learning all these dances now if i'll nvr be able to do much with them is pointless. i want to perform!i dont want to grow old and teach:( but im really serious about dance. yea but to get the standard of dance i want, i probably have to go overseas, which i'll not be allowed to anytime soon cos i'll have to forfeit my studies. i mean in america they have plenty of arts schools and scholarships and people recognise and appreciate dance there.not so much in singapore i suppose.
guess i'll just stick to something academic which will suit me and studying perfectly well. like becoming a professor or smth. BLEH.
and my toe is stuck in ice now cos it hurts horrubly so i wrapped it with a hanky with ice pressing against my toe.
my dear dear toe!

IMPORTANT IMPORTANT. ATTENTION EVERYONE.
for those not in grace AOG : my church is having a movie marathon at grace 2, the new building. its a movie marathon cum night bazaar. TO THE NON CHRISTIANS. you are veryvery welcome!(:

everyone : im involved with publicity and will anyone with suggestions(reasonable ones) on how i can convince you guys to bring your friends for it, do tell me about them. you can tell me on msn, or email me for those who have my email. for those who dont, on the tagboard.THANKS LOADS[:
and for those who can, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO BRING YOUR FRIENDS.
if you want, i have a list of reasons why you shld (x

for those interested, details regarding Movie Marathon cum Night Bazaar.
date : 24-25 november.
day: friday to saturday.
time: movie screening starts at 11.25pm, but there will be treasure hunts hourly from 7-10pm. 7-8pm, 8-9pm, 9-10pm.
venue: Grace 2. bukit batok west ave 4. opp cdans.

IF YOU'RE INTERESTED, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE SIGN UP NEXT WEEK AFTER SERVICE. for any non-christians interested, contact me, i'd be more than happy to help you register:D

Posted by jann at 17:50

Thursday, November 09, 2006

MICHELLE WEE'S DEDICATION

hello hello (:
i always think of blogging this and that along the road and all but somehow i dont rmb to do so by the time i come online.haha. im kindad lazy to do all the signing in and all.
didnt really do much the last few days.
mm i watched guarden with wenqiang, went for alot of piano classes. went to claras hse. and. not much more i think. followup with beryl,
WATER BAPTISM CLASS.that one was nice. ps ronald conducted it.learnt plenty.it was a rather small class though.only 12 ppl or so. my sister, sharon ye, michelle ye, joey choi, mel fam, gaomin, rachael lim, suzanna, serene tan, bradley kunjie, and ME. haha.

okay i promised to do some lil dedication for michelle wee on my blog. so here it is.
those who dont like michelle wee, please bear with it. LOL.
michelle is nicenicenicenicenice.
she listens to my troubles, always tries her best to cheer me up. rather innocent? shes a good friend, she prays for like so many ppl every night, she has plenty of potential as God's servant. mm shes willing to learn, she keeps promises!
michelle, continue to be everything good you are and everything else good that youre not YET.
loves(:

Posted by jann at 21:29

Friday, November 03, 2006

SURVEY THNG.

GRACE CHEAH MADE ME DO THIS [x

in the past 24 hours, have you
1.cried? nopes. in the past 48, yes.haha.
2. worn jeans? mm yea.piano class yesterday.
3. met anyone? my family? piano teacher. i shall meet alot of ppl later(:
4. done laundry? nah-ah
5. went hungry? hahaha yea.not starve, but hungry.
6. talked on the phone? yea of course!
7. say I love you? ehhh. no?
do you believe in
8. yourself? mm.kind of? as in i believe that i exist and blahblah? :S
9. your friends? mm some of them? not that i dont believe the rest exist..
10. tooth fairies? haha never before. by the time i learnt abt it i was too un-innocent to believe in them anymore. sad yeah.
11. destiny/fate? everything that happens is part of God's will.
12. ghosts? HOLY GHOST [holy spirit :D]
13. UFO? hmm.not flying saucers of aliens or smth. but flying stuffs like rocks or whatever in space. i mean they can be unidentified, flying, and an object. okay i dont get what im saying!
friends and life...
14. Have you ever wished of having another name? mm.when i was younger, a few times. but mostly no. cant think of any other name i'd rather have than JANICE. my parents wanted to name me christabel though, cause it rhymes with annabel(my sister's name) but can you imagine me, a christabel?
15. Do you like anyone? OF COURSE. i like. the person who made me do this, the people im going to make to do this survey, and well. alot of ppl luh[:
16. Which friend of yours acts most like you do? hmm.my brother? even though he's not exactly a friend.haha. i guess hes like what i was when i was younger. none of my friends act like me!
17. Who was there with you, when you cried the most? GOD! He was always there. if you're talking human, then mummy(: and maybe joelyn but that was during pri sch.
18. What's the best feeling in the world? to see someone smile after doing smth nice for that someone? to love, to be loved! to eat ben and jerrys. shopping spree! TO SEE GOD FACE TO FACE. i imagine i'll be smiling till my jaws crack. i hope (x
19. What's the worst feeling in the world? when i cant handle myself. when i screw up everything, i break down, and i have the mindset that the world hates me and i dont let God comfort me.
20. What's the time now? 12.09

which is better?
21. Chocolate or Vanilla? BOTH.
22. Coke or Pepsi? they kinda taste the same to me.hahaha.
23. Love or Lust? LOVE
24. Sprite or 7-up? again, they taste the same.
25. Girls or Guys? both. im not sexist!
26. Scruff or clean-shaved? does it matter? eh somewhere in between?
27. Movie in the day or night? day or night, the theater's still dark.
the last time...
28. you took a shower? yesterday.
29. cried? when i was watching sinking of japan?
30+31. Who makes you smile/can make you smile no matter what? alot of ppl make me smile, but no one can make me smile no matter what, sadly :(
32. Are you in love right now? YES. with God.

do you ever...
33. sit by the phone waiting for calls? noooooooo
34. save AIM conversations? whats AIM?
35. wish you were someone else? never.
36. wish you were of opposite gender? NO! i love being a girl. being a guys so.. mm. : DDD
37. stay online for more than 8 hours? think so
38. gotten stuck in a lift? nah
39. gone out with people you don't know? my friends friends.but at the end of the outing, i know them already.
40 hate a person to the core that you wished they were dead? once. but i dont wish that person was dead anymore.
41. swear at your parents or siblings? yea. when i was sooo angry.
42. read comics until you cry? hahahaha no.
who was the last person...
43. that you saw? my mum.shes like. twenty metres away from me.
44. that you talked to? jevon?
45. you hugged? mm.i think amanda.
46 who instant messaged you? clare/ wq. they pressed enter at the same time?

do you...
47. colour your hair? spray dyed during minifair last wk?
48. have tattoo? yea the fake kinds when i was younger (X
49. have piercing(s)? mm. one on each year? [:
50. put on lipstick? mm. wedding dinner.
51. own more than 10 flip-flops? no.i only wish.
52. like someone? same as qn 15!
53. hate someone? yea. ever.
54. have any money with you now? yea. in my room?haha. i just got my allowance yesterday[:

5 people to do this
1. AMANDA DEAR [liu]
2. hohohohohohohohohohohoho. (x
3. EMELIA [:
4. michelle WEEEEEEEE. too bad apple doesnt have a blog xD
5. ERVIN CHEONG(: