Wednesday, August 29, 2007
you
i don't know why you matter so much to me.i just want to stop caring.
i think you've already forgotten about my existence anyway.
going out with grace tmr(: then we have syf dinner. ms kon's hosting.haha.
oh right and mg sch fees went up. that makes us the most expensive girls' sch in singapore.
290 a month for singapore citizens.exhorbitant eh.
that's a fifty dollar increment.
ohwell.
anyway, for us lucky mep scholars, we only pay 58 a month. how nice:D
when half of the world turns its back on you, all you can do is open your mouth and ask the only question you can : what went wrong
Lord tell me, what went wrong?
oh and the worst part is, no one even knows that i feel like that. well i mean now everyone does. but no one knows that i
oh forget it.
how pathetic can i get.
Posted by jann at 22:42
Saturday, August 25, 2007
updates!
okay i watched hairspray this morning.it's not bad i guess. not as good as grease:D we convinced miss koh (she's super easy to bully) to let us watch grease during aesthetics/music and dance. cause we're studying musicals right now.
i don't know what to blog about, i think this post might turn out to be pretty boring.
and i want to know my iq. but i don't want to take one of those online tests. they're not accurate. the same person have two drastically different results on two diff online iq tests.
anyone know where i can go to take a proper one? i don't mind paying.
and oh yeah hairspray. i took super long to recognise who amanda bynes was in the show.haha. she's blonde in this show. i think she's naturally a brunette right?
and john travolta is getting old..
and i liked the dancing.
this musical. i think it was first made during the 60s, talks about racism. about how there's segregation. blacks and whites don't dance together. andwhen they mass dance together, there must be a barrier in between them. blacks don't share the same stage as whites. blacks cannot walk in white streets. all the rubbish.
i'm learning to be colour blind.
i love blacks. seriously. there's just something about them i've always liked for the longest time.
and alot of them can sing really really well.
unlike uhm. me.
haha.
i think racism is plain silly. just because someone is of a darker skin tone than you doesn't make you better than the other person.
in fact, scientists actually think that blacks are the first people. as in like
the earliest people who lived.
meaning they THINK that adam and eve were coloured.
sorry i don't know what to call them here. i mean i can't call them african american cause adam and eve weren't americans.
anyway. point is. if we can just see past the skin colour, the world would be so much nicer to live in. some. not all, some. whites make their own lives miserable by trying to make blacks' lives miserable. absurdity.
some. again i emphasise some and not all. japenese look down on chinese. we're second class in their country. and koreans are third class.
which is the most ridiculous thing ever.
because japenese are ethinically chinese.
human beings just like to feel superior. which is why they discriminate against others, or for something closer to ourselves, give backhanded comments about others. eg. that person's gep what, that's why she's such a smart ass. thats why she scored straight a ones.
people do this when they have low self esteem and huge egos.(i know it sounds contradictory, but its not)
they have low self esteem and therefore need to justify others being better than them. they don't like it when people are better.
but yi shan hai you yi shan gao. being the top in the sch still might not make you the top in the country.
why can't they accept that some others are just smarter than them?
they're not big hearted enough to give sincere praises generously.
in several ways, i think these people are narcisstic.
and actually, alot of people are like that.
and they have huge egos. they can't stand that others are better. and there fore they give backhanded comments to put them down.
and to anyone out there if anyone ever does this to you. tell them :
i'm better than you that's why i'm in gep or i scored my aones or i won this. so what you want to do about it? i got what i got because i DESERVED what i got. so shut up.
i've had enough of people like that.
oh and have i mentioned that sbc girls are constantly and continuously discriminated and accused. because we're smarter than them.
(i'm an sbc girl)
i've faced this before.
someone goes ' what class are you in?'
'2t' (all the t classes are sbc classes)
'ee. i don't like you. you're sbc. i hate sbc girls'
this is no.1. fallacious. no.2. moronic.
don't like us? ask yourselfwhy you're not in sbc. then shut up.
I CAN'T STAND IT WHEN PEOPLE TELL ME, YOU'RE SMART, YOU DON'T NEED TO STUDY.
YOU'RE IN SBC, YOU'RE A GEEK. I DON'T LIKE YOU.
LIKE, IS THERE ANYTHING WRONG WITH BEING SMART?
in fact, i enjoy being smart. it's a gift.
okayokay change topic. time to stop rubbishing and discuss issues.
this is going to sound harsh but i'd be glad to talk to anyone about this personally on msn or smth if you have smth to say. but not on my tagboard, please.
i used to think singaporeans were insular.
now i think they're worse than insular.
because its bad enough many of us don't know what's going on in the world, we don't know what goes on in singapore.
how many of us know the four main changes that lee hsien loong wants to make. which he mentioned in his rally.
how many of us even watched it.
how many of us know who tan pin pin is. where she came from and how many of us realise she's gifted.
how many of us know the difference between eric khoo and royston tan. and on a side note, i have much more respect for eric khoo than royston tan. if you know enough about them, maybe you'll understand why.
how many of us know that about the situation in iraq and thailand now. or the racial riots across thailand and malaysia. or even. who the richest man in the world is?(he's not bill gates)
i'm sorry i know i probably have offended alot of people in asking those questions. i bet several can say they know all about all these. i mean these are just examples and i don't mean to criticise anyone anymore and i'm not saying i know all these inside out or anything. i'm just trying to say that well. we need to read more. things like newsweek that actually discuss world issues. and political stuff. and changes. and reality. and not just the straits times. not saying that the straits time is bad, just that it's plainly descriptive.
ohwell. i think i've probably said too much. i'm sorry if i made anyone angry or offended anyone in this post.
Posted by jann at 17:20
Friday, August 17, 2007
greenhouse gases and global warming
janice is steaming. you see smoke coming out of her ears.
i just did geog e learning. some stupid qn.
'greenhouse gases cause global warming' true or false?
i thought it over, i put false.
greenhouse gases do NOT cause global warming. they protect us from getting skin cancer for nut's sake! they keep us from freezing to death! what global warming.
global warming comes about when there is an increment in the amount of greenhouse gases due to our production of them.
natural production of greenhouse gases does not contribute to global warming, please.
harrrrumphh!
okay here's a pic taken by caleb of manda jessie and i last sunday.
we wore white formal shirt, red tie and denim skirt in honour of national day.
and we all coincidentally wore pumps. anyway, he edited our pimples out. haha.
and i'm undeniably shorter than both of them. sigh.
haha actually alot of times i don't really mind being shorter. i mean i do get a kick out of being taller than certain people.haha. and i mean sorry if you're shorter than me cos i already am pretty short but yeah. but most of the time i'm fine being the shortest one. i don't really mind la. be content with who you are. just not content with my hair.blah.
oh yes. amanda (yuen) asked me to blog about this on tuesday.
we had a spot check on tuesday.after philo ms ho (prefect mistress. or discipline mistress) appeared at the door. told everyone to file out and while outside, some prefects checked our bags for posession of electronic devices (hp or ipod - supposed to be in lockers)
and the prefects outside checked our hair(bamboo or braid if too long), badge (has to be four fingers above the start of the v thing. from the bottom. dont know how to explain), fingernails (cannot be visible if you look from the palm side) and socks (logo must be visible and above ankle) and they checked our pockets two or three times to check if we had our hps.
six hps and one ipod got confisicated.
sigh.
okay thats all.i'm quite satisfied with the amount of work i've done so far. i think. it's pretty okay la.
Posted by jann at 15:58
he said, "I've got to be honest, You're wasting your time if you're fishin' around here."
And I said, "You must be mistaken,
I'm not foolin', this feelin' is real."
he said, "You've gotta be crazy!
What do you take me for?
Some kinda of easy mark?"
"You've got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But I swear that you've got me all wrong."
All wrong
All wrong
But you've got me
I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier,
I'll be yours my dear
And I'll belong to you
If you just let me through
This is easy as lovers go.
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailormade,
What's the sense in waiting?
I said, "I've got to be honest,
I've been waiting for you all of my life."
For so long I thought I was asylum bound,
But just seeing you makes me think twice.
And being with you here makes me sane.
I fear I'll go crazy if you leave my side.
"You've got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?"
Tonight
Tonight
You've got me
I'll be true, I'll be useful, I'll be cavalier,
I'll be yours my dear
I'll belong to you
If you just let me through
This is easy as lovers go.
So don't complicate it by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailormade, what's the sense in waiting?
Posted by jann at 11:24
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
the good news!
good news, good news!i got into the dance com! :D
but i wasn't there when mrs poh announced the com. so jia and grace came to my class and told me.haha.
anyway, president is sharon
vice is grace chan
secretary is jamie
sec 4 rep is yiling
sec 3 rep is cheryl
sec 2 rep is laura
sec 1 rep is me(:
laura andi are the only two sec twos.
i feel so honoured.
okay thing number two. i changed my skin. i wanted white but this was so captivating. this new eden. from the beginning, where it all began. paradise. where everything was perfect.
ohwell.
and one more thing, amanda tagged me.
Each player starts off by naming ten weird habits or facts about one’s self. At the end, tag six friends and they’ll have to do the same too. No tagging back.here we go then.
1.i got a1 for physics this term, which is amazing considering how bad i am at physics
2.i've stopped growing taller
3.i own five dress, but have only worn two out
4.i had motion sickness when i was in pri sch
5.i've tasted petroleum (it was an accident)
6.i love yellow cos its an ugly colour (doesnt make sense)
7.i think zaki is quite cute (OMG I DID NOT JUST SAY THAT)
8. i have never read nor watched harry potter in my life before
9.i usually take 20 mins to half an hour to bathe
10.i dance in the toilet. all the time.
and i tag:
anyone who wants to do it. volunteer if you like(:
that's it.
love,
princess janice
(haven't been called princess in a long time.haha.)
Posted by jann at 16:46
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
GOD'S AMAZING
my God is amazing.let me say that one more time.
He is one amazing God. big time.
i love Him so much.
He's awesome!
<333333333
okay i just hugged the air in front of me. sometimes i do wish i could hug Him physically(:
ohwell.
GOD IS SERIOUSLY AMAZING.
you know, how He sentJesus to die for us. i mean i realized how unworthy we are today. i mean i realised it before. but each time i realise it again, its impact is heavier on me.
anyway, song ringing in my head today. reminds me even more so of how good God is.and makes me feel even more unworthy.
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases
His mercies never come to an end
they are new every morning
new every morning
great is Thy faithfulness oh Lord
great is Thy faithfulness
okay i can't exactly explain why all the sudden highness about how good God is. but He's good all the time anyway, so we should praise Him all the time and be fully aware of His goodness.
anyway. i decided to blog cos.
1. two amandas bugged me to do so just now.
2. jess asked me to blog too.
3. i'm touched people even read my blog and realise i havent blogged considering how dead it's been
4. i dont know la. blog then blog.
okay so anyway. today was amanda (yuen)'s birthday. she's kindof depressed over smth. but ohwell.
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR. i love you lots and lots and lots and don't be depressed about what happened. 13 more days! 13 more days! very fast one. don't worry. anyway, i still love you. haha. and i'm really glad to be your sitting partner. its great to be next to someone who understands math. haha. you're super smart you know? stop feeling so inferior. must be confident. anyhow, i pray you stop being a 'lazy christian' as you call yourself. and get up and do smth about your r/s with God. its impt one you know? mhms. seeyou in sch tmr(:
love!
okayokay. so thats done. amanda's my sitting partner btw. yeps.
okay now i have to write a shout out for amanda. LIU. cos she just told me she reads my blog everytime she comes online. so sweet.
amanda:
aiyo. i dont know how many shoutouts i've done for you alr lor. i think this is the. what. fourth? ohwell. anyway. you're super sweet! i'm so touched you even read this dying thing. and thanks for always being there to give me hugs esp when i'm sad. and being so concerned about my life and all. and you're really cute and high and fun. and yeah. and old. hahahaha. no la. and what else. and please return me my white pants. yeah. haha. and dont turn too geekish studying okay? still can have fun! must learn to love life. but must study hard too! study productively. s tudy and PLAY. playing is impt, playing is good for health okay! haha. don't be so s tressed. and rmb results aren't the world okay. they don't reflect your intelligence. they're just. aiya. dont worry so much about results. what's more impt is that you manage to live life to the fullest. but of course, that includes studying(:
anyway. happy. uh rest of the week.haha.
oh and my daddy's birthday is this thurs. yeps.
and what else ah.
ohoh yes.
did you know. that the heart is an AMAZING WAY BEYOND AMAZING organ?
it beats NON-STOP from the time itw as formed to the time you die. non-stop. for like. 80 years? ITS AMAZING. it's so strong.
wow.
yeah and what else.
dance is super boring now. we're not doing anything productive. at all.
ohwell.
and ss report is due tmr.
I FINISHED IT ALR:D
feel so accomplished. haha.
and mm. oh right bea manda and i went to btp to celebrate mandas birhtday today? haha. just kfc. then we went to attitude. its a dance centre with a nice cake shop. nice expensive cake shop. and i had to treat amanda. and myself to cake. i had carrot cake. i wanted like strawberry cheesecake or smth. but the only cheesecake they had was the cheese cheese kind. haha. and itw as puny. blah. and she had fudge. my reccomendation. it came with icecream la! my carrot cake dont have. blah. then bea just koped from bothof us. we talked alot alot alot. really enjoyed talking to them. they rock.
okay that's it. i think i'll continue blogging another time. i'm desperate to change my skin. but i'll only do so when i get some pics from laura. which she supposedly hasalr sent me. but its on sharing. which i cant access on this com. so anyway. i hope i change m yskin soon. and when i do, i hope i'l lfinally FINALLY update my links. hahaha. and thanks guys, for reading my blog.
okay. and what else is interesting.
oh elearning is this thurs.
oh and stacie accepted Christ on sat!: D
Posted by jann at 21:29
Friday, August 03, 2007
piano exam
my piano exam is in 3 hrs and 45 mins.this has been the worst grade ive ever take so far.
ohwell, but it is the highest grade.haha.
but i've been like slacking with piano this entire year and my pieces are like. pretty horrid.i changed my A piece in may. i started working on C since june but it still sounded bad.until today.it sounded good just now.haha. B has always been steady and good. so long as i dont mess it up later.
scales will be fine. save arpeggios.
i'll make sure i do well for sightreading.
i hope i dont zao xia for aural.
haha.
ive been practicing like mad the last two days. and i went to sch this morning just to take my hcl test. higher chi is first to periods. and guess what. LAOSHI FORGOT TO PRINT OUR TEST PAPERS. so yeah. i wasted two periods. then i left. before pe :DDDDDDDD
hahahahahahhahaha!
not that i dont like exercising. i love the feeling of after pe and after dancing.basically after sweating. cos you know its healthy and you've just done some good work.
but what i dont like is running rounds around the track BEFORE you do warmups. and mrs chan says that running isthe warmup and you should do it first. and I CANT RUN WITHOUT STRETCHNG FIRST. my body just doesnt work that way. no one can dance nicely without stretching. that's why plies are always the first exercise in ballet. blah.
and aiya. there are alot of things but i don't want to blog about them.
this post is a total bore. dont read it.
ohwell. if you've read up to here, you've already read it.
what am i talking about.
oh and mr tay said i have bright eyes yesterday.HAHA.